Would you CTB if you had no family left?

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Was reading some threads in the forums and realize how lucky in a twisted way I am to not have any family left.

It makes my plans to CTB in September much easier, knowing I won't be breaking anyone's hearts.
 
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Hear ya. No family here either. I feel like a female Russel Crowe in The Gladiator. Probably everyone has compassion or at least sympathy for that character's suicidal feelings. He just wants to leave his body and go to the people he loves most. He lacks hope. The way they wrote the script does anyone judge him? No or if they do I wouldn't ever want to "hang out" with them. In my forties with no family the isolation is so intense and heart breaking. My friends are mostly busy with their families. Along with everything else my body deals with it is just too much. Boo hoo...but not today.
 
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Was reading some threads in the forums and realize how lucky in a twisted way I am to not have any family left.

It makes my plans to CTB in September much easier, knowing I won't be breaking anyone's hearts.
Have one family member that i haven't cut off left. When she passes I hope to successfully ctb. May do it before depending on how things turn out.
 
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I don’t think I would. The urge to survive is too strong.

It scares me sometimes. I’m not sure there’s any amount of suffering that would push me over the edge. I don’t have the disposition for it.

I have this suspicion I’ll just exist, fueled by only dim impulses like hunger and coldness on the streets one day. And it’ll be that way for decades, until eventually illness takes me.
 
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