Discussion Why are you still here ?

lucacaro

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Just hesitation to kill myself really. I might try again next month. I do have a really great friend though who sometimes makes me want to stick around but it's not enough.
 
ZardozOmega

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This is the only place I can be honest about some aspects of my life that I don't feel comfortable talking about.
Also, my fragile narcissistic ego is less likely to be bruised here because everyone is doing poorly. This is the only way I can have any type of social interaction.
 
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There are some things left I want to get done. Hopefully will ctb before the end of this year though. Also I'm not quite sure how to go about it yet, hanging and SN seem like the best two options.
 
Gnip

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I'm a compulsive procrastinator.

Also, I promised my mother I would not choose to CTB within her lifetime, she's alive and well, and could be good to go for years and years.

Meanwhile, I have been obtaining information here on how to be certain that I will need only a single attempt to CTB to escape life successfully and painlessly. The numerous accounts of failed tries which posters have contributed here have been immensely helpful in that regard.
 
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Can’t stay in a hotel due to covid don’t want to die in the streets
 
Shades of Grey

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My method was intercepted as a condition of my release from the bin.

Ironically, I had myself committed for the sole purpose of being able to be present for the death of a (much loved) geriatric pet. He ended up dying while I was hospitalized. I did not get to be there. I am still alive on account of the fact that I had to update some paperwork in order to re-obtain my method.
 
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A young teen I met in a gaming server. He is so inspired and infatuated cby me and says I’m the most important person in his life. If I go now he’d be heartbroken so the guilt of leaving him forever keeps me here sadly. He’s my reason to live, but my depression still wants me to go.
 
EmbraceOfTheVoid

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Stuck around an extra half a year thinking I could maybe have some good in life for once but I failed myself. Now I'm waiting for my "family" to go on vacation or visit one of their friends so I can kill myself in peace.
 
m2107

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because i have no where else to go
 
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Know what's the easier way out, while saving myself from the shame associated with CTB, which I can't figure out why.
 
Pookie

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Fandamily/loved ones, friends, partner. I don’t have a large family but my death will mess them up.
 
Keto

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I haven’t get my SN yet.
Also my wife is pregnant and I will give life a couple of months to see if situation improved.
 
deltahead

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because i'm an asshole
 
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What's your reason for sticking around? New discussion.
First and foremost: either family (they love me) or fear of failed suicide attempt. My family found out that I have been having suicidal ideation and that broke them. I'm also afraid of permanent damage if I fail.

Second would be religious reason (Please don't judge me). I know that this is an unpopular justification. To this day, I still believe that suicide is a sin. I will kill myself if my mental trauma is too painful.

Lastly, it would be the cost of funeral. I want to make sure that my body will be donated to science and my organs to be given to the people who need it to reduce the cost of my funeral. I don't want my family to pay $10,000+ for my coffin, grave, etc. I'm a broke college student.
 
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What's your reason for sticking around? New discussion.
First and foremost: either family (they love me) or fear of failed suicide attempt. My family found out that I have been having suicidal ideation and that broke them. I'm also afraid of permanent damage if I fail.

Second would be religious reason (Please don't judge me). I know that this is an unpopular justification. To this day, I still believe that suicide is a sin. I will kill myself if my mental pain is too painful.

Lastly, it would be the cost of funeral. I want to make sure that my body will be donated to science and my organs to be given to the people who need it to reduce the cost of my funeral. I don't want my family to pay $10,000+ for my coffin, grave, etc. I'm a broke college student.
 
fent_dnm27

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I haven’t get my SN yet.
Also my wife is pregnant and I will give life a couple of months to see if situation improved.
yikes...
 
Querry1

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I know it might be a silly thing, but I wanna get jacked and learn snowboarding
 
Adamsnolife

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Lockdown and being banned from traveling because of the lockdown to go out the local area to ctb.
 

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