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trigzter

New Member
Aug 9, 2019
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1
I always find something to delay the inevitable. Oh look football and hockey start soon...and i dont own a gun
 
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Baskol1

No life, no problems
Aug 11, 2019
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Simple, hope for a better future, even if it may be false hope, and of course my dog. But suicide may be an option in the future, if my life would be getting worse and unbearable, which is not the case in the moment. My life is bad, but not unbearable.
 
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Shamana

Master
May 31, 2019
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My family and fear of the afterlife. Also logically thinking about my corpse rotting in a grave or being cremated scares me. It's a shit situation when you don't want to live and don't want to die.
 
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Intelligent_Lobster

Intelligent_Lobster

I knew taking this picture would come in handy
Mar 30, 2019
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once I figure it out, I'll be ready to go.
 
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Baskol1

No life, no problems
Aug 11, 2019
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The Methods arent that hard, whats hard is overcoming your natural survival instinct.
 
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calendulo

Master
Jun 13, 2019
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The meto, that is what I am keeping here.
 
reveriewong

reveriewong

Member
Feb 22, 2019
63
145
Faith, constant striving to be a better person, and to make a difference in someone's life.
 
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Deltrus

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Mar 20, 2019
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I promised my mom I wouldn't suicide until she died. She was still sad for a day because I wanted to suicide eventually, probably for religious reasons.

She probably wants to meet me in some sort of heaven. I don't even want to go to some sort of stereotypical christian heaven, I got my own version of spirituality, my heaven is to evolve and self improve on an infinite journey to perfection. To make the ultimate language and write the ultimate story with it, to understand understanding itself/everything else, to engineer the ultimate experience. And perhaps stumble upon even greater things than that? My human life is only here to use as inspiration.

So I don't ever want to see my mom again, after a fairwell. She doesn't have the same aspirations to become something greater. And she is so determined to keep me alive even though I am suffering so much. That is another reason I don't resonate with her.

I still don't want to see my family suffer, my mom would become incredibly depressed if I died, making it miserable for my dad and brother. My brother especially doesn't deserve that, he is working so hard to get through university and work internships, I have a feel that if I died it would be the straw that broke the camel's back.

If suicide was legal I think I would do it. That way I could say my farewells and try to make it a happy thing. I am super excited for death, I really think there is an afterlife with less suffering than I'm living with. In fact, I think my heaven is real.

But really perhaps the universe will surprise me, maybe it knows of a better future for me, itself and everyone. I don't know.
 
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ImmaMacGuffin

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Jul 9, 2019
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As mentioned by peeps above thread, my dog keeps me here. He is blind, diabetic, and has congestive heart failure. I would not trust anyone to care for him as I do.
 
StupidLizard

StupidLizard

Member
Feb 21, 2019
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I am responsible for 35+ exotic animals, potentially dangerous ones.

Family, somewhat. Oh, and fear... of course. ;)
 
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Futility

Futility

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Aug 14, 2019
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I am here because of fear of failure, I'm horrified of not doing things right and getting forced to live under a watchful eye with possible damage that would prevent me from trying again.

.. I also feel incredibly loyal to my dog, she's my best friend and I have a hard time with abandoning her. I know my boyfriend and neighbor treat her really nice, but she's bonded with me more than they are.
When my parent died, I saw the look on the dog's face when they put her in the hearse, I did not like that reaction, dogs understand death it seems like.
 
Robbyna

Robbyna

Veteran
Mar 6, 2019
155
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Virginia
I’m afraid of failing. I have some failed attempts and it seems like no matter what I try I’m not going to die until it’s my time...or maybe I’m just not strong enough to have done it right. I wish I could just be lucky enough to get in an accident or come down with some sudden deadly illness. I want to die without fear. My next attempt will be a jump, but I’m so afraid because the consequences of failing at this would definitely be very high. So I’m still here because I’m scared of surviving...
 
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SinisterKid

SinisterKid

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Jun 1, 2019
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meme depression apparently :wink:

It is amazing what you can learn in a place like this.

Oh, and I crave the attention of all you good people as it must validate my penchant for suicide is some way.
 
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Baskol1

No life, no problems
Aug 11, 2019
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meme depression apparently :wink:

It is amazing what you can learn in a place like this.

Oh, and I crave the attention of all you good people as it must validate my penchant for suicide is some way.
How old are you? Im 19.
 
dreamsofdestruction

dreamsofdestruction

Inadequate
May 9, 2019
288
495
Germany
There shouldn't be a lot. I still have moments where I think oh maybe a miracle will happen and I'll get saved and it will turn out alright. But everything is already crumbling under me and I am not worth saving, there really shouldn't be anything.
 
SinisterKid

SinisterKid

Illuminated
Jun 1, 2019
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Multiply by 3, add a few and you will be in the ball park.
 
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Dawn0071111

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Dec 9, 2018
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Needing to put all my affairs in order for husband. Then to carry out plan since it wont be at my home. I want to make sure I leave everything, bills, passwords, papers, insurance, phone numbers.... It's a lot to do and I'm fatigued a lot. Plan slowly moving forward.
 
lospollos

lospollos

Pro-choice
Mar 31, 2019
26
31
To be honest I thought a child would give you a meaning in life? I’m sorry I just believed this but I suppose it is hard. I’m sorry you want to CTB :( however, I hope you can live happily with your son.
My son, and what comes next.
 
Rocksandsand

Rocksandsand

Wise
May 26, 2019
271
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Australia
Perceived obligation - I don’t want to cause grief to my brother or dad

My dog. I don’t want him to go somewhere where he might not be loved enough
 
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Oblivion Lover

No life, no suffering
May 30, 2019
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Brazil
I don't have any obligations or responsibilities to take care of before I ctb like many people here have. The only thing keeping me here is not having the means to buy SN online. The week when my SN arrive will likely be my last.
 

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