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Discussion What would you change if you had a magic wand?

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Let me preface this by saying my course of hypothetical action with the wand is pretty fucked up and these few paragraphs may be triggering for some.

I would magically snap myself back to a morning in March of 2015. Then I would proceed to relive one of the true horrors of my life in order to see how receiving it differently would alter the outcome. I would transport myself back to the exact moment that a young man (whom I invited over to my apartment for coffee and bong rips before our college classes) began raping me.

I know it’s a sadistic choice for me to force myself to relive rape, knowing that I could put myself farther back in time to prevent it from even happening... but the fact of the matter is, my present self, being offered the magic wand, has already lived it and wants justice.

After finding myself in that precise moment, with no conscious knowledge of the future or the magic at play, instead of freezing up and taking the abuse, I would fight. I would incite physical violence, making sure I scratched him, getting his dna crammed under my fingernails. My intent would be to fight hard, but not hard enough to win, only enough to receive a few blows before he got his fill and carelessly left.

My blood and bruises would then serve as my proof, pure evidence of his intent. I would of course then document all of this correctly and report it through the proper channels. I would go to the hospital and get a rape kit done, stitches if I needed them, and then I would press charges. I would fight in court, and hopefully send that motherfucker to jail. At the very least I would easily have him expelled from my university.

Most importantly of all though, I would approach the love of my life with my bashed up face and bruised limbs, telling him the pure truth and he would believe me.
That's kind of like what I call "rape therapy" works.
The only reason I'm calling it " rape therapy" is because the actual name is weird.
They put you back in the moment, but with control this time, so on the one hand you relive what is undoubtedly the absolute worst part of your life, but on the other hand you have nigh absolute control over it.
I've read about some crazyass place where they "rape" you, but also encourage you to beat the absolute shit out of the therapist.
The only rule? Don't actually murder the guy.
Choke him, scratch him, nut shots, the guy is your punching bag.

IIRC, it's somewhere in Thailand.
 
greencoat111

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Not being as highly sensitive as I am. Most people say it's a gift but for me it's a pain most of the time. I feel everything very deeply and a lot of the time find it hard coping with all that's going on in the world
 
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a lot, but the first thing i'd do is get my ex back. then, i'd fix my face... and transform myself into a much more productive person with a will to live to boot.
 
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It would be amazing to be invisible or be able to stop time, but also yeah, I wish my life hadn't been a mess. But I would love to be invisible and sneaaaak into buildings behind political leaders and see what's up or steal some money (shady, but I need to pay for therapy), I would also find out what people say about me (would probably make me worse). I would also be able to go out at night without fear of being catcalled or worse. I could go wherever I wanted and be safe. This sounds better than stopping time actually. I would also act as a poltergeist around people who are being mean. Now they will feel crazy.
 
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I’d go back to March 2nd 2019 and make the decision to stay where I was. And do DBT consistently.
 
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It would be amazing to be invisible or be able to stop time, but also yeah, I wish my life hadn't been a mess. But I would love to be invisible and sneaaaak into buildings behind political leaders and see what's up or steal some money (shady, but I need to pay for therapy), I would also find out what people say about me (would probably make me worse). I would also be able to go out at night without fear of being catcalled or worse. I could go wherever I wanted and be safe. This sounds better than stopping time actually. I would also act as a poltergeist around people who are being mean. Now they will feel crazy.
Invisibility would mean you was blind as light would just go through the retina lol
 

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I'd tell my teenage self-RUN as fast as you can... even though I need to run things do get better hang in there. I'd tell my self that 3years ago I should tell my son it's friday the 13th don't go to work.
 
overcomingfear

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Make it so no religions exist. The world'd be much smarter and more advanced
 
reggiesaurus

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I'd just give myself pure, unadulterated bliss for my own perception of infinity. Cut out the middle man, really.
 
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Tbh I don't think I would really change anything. I worry this is seen as a cop out answer but it's how I feel. For better or for worse, what's happened to me in life has made me who I am today.
 
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Moneyyyyy and change mistakes from the past.
 
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How much power does this magic wand have? Can I only change my circumstances or can the universe itself bend to my will? If it's the latter, I would take what I put in the "if you could change your country's politics thread" and extend that to the whole universe. I would make it so that everyone will get to live in an entire echo chamber planet based on their exact needs and beliefs. There would be multiple earths each for different ideologies and people are allowed to move freely between the two but they will never need to interact beyond cultural change and it will be impossible for them to enter conflict in any way. Either that or just wipe out everyone.

If I could only change my own life, I'd just go for being a stereotypical generic anime-protagonist-in-a-fantasy-world type of person where everything goes perfectly, multiple women like me, and I'm super powerful myself. I usually hate these kinds of animes, but only because I haven't found one where the person does exactly what I would do in their situation so I'd much rather live it myself.
 
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Health, love, friends.
 
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I'd give a spinr and a modicum of self-respect to my partner. Maybe some brains, too.
 
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Mola, a kind doc who figures out and helps my health problems, no anxiety - at all. A guarantee that I don't have anything to be anxious about for as long as I live!
 
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Im like BitterlyAlive, i won't change anything, even if in the end i suffer and i will probably ctb. I did have 4years of happiness and reciprocate love that even if temporary, was worth a life of depression and suffering for having them.
 
mathieu

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If I could only change one thing it would be to have perfect mental health.
 
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If I could only change one thing it would be to have perfect mental health.
My own shrink doesn’t even think recovery is possible, he mentioned some medicine might help, but it doesn’t make you 100% better, the rest is up to you. The same bs talk of diet and exercise. We’re fighting and invisible disease that’s the problem.
 
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