I can give you some hints if you like.I don’t think I can make it through another weekend. I am sitting at work, talking about our schedule next week and I am glazed over, not present at all. I can’t even believe I lack the willpower to stay off this site during the work day, but for some reason I still feel like this site will magically provide an easy method to help me disappear (even though I know it’s ultimately up to me). How do people live like this long term? This is absolute torment.
I don’t have a lot of options, can’t do it at my house so it’s either hanging myself from a tree somewhere, I go purchase a genny or bbq after work, or, find some hard street drugs that may or may not do the trick. I wish I had someone here to help, I truly don’t think I can do this alone.
I would like that however, I feel as though you may be wasting your time because realistically I won’t be able to find the balls I need to follow through by tonight or tomorrow. Yesterday I sat in the parking lot of the hardware store trying to will myself to purchase what I need and couldn’t. CO seems the most reasonable considering I would have to plan to use my vehicle but I’m so terrified to screw up which is holding me back. Not that I still have hope of a good life, it’s painfully obvious that is not the case. It has to work the first time.I can give you some hints if you like.
I gonna do it in few days. I've bought 2/3" hemp rope, then boiled and greased it. It will be attached to solid hook inn the ceiling. Everything is prepared now. I gonna step up a stool, then noose my neck and kick out the stool. My choice will be full suspension.Full or partial? I'm thinking that or the night night. I'm a bit afraid the night night will fail.
Looking pleasant after eating rat poison ? I don't think so.Rat poison or cyanide. I don’t want to ruin my body or have someone find me all twisted or bloodied or purple from hanging. I’d like to die looking pleasant, don’t want nasty imagery for whoever finds me
From where u got Nkeeping it simple but efficient I’ve N & a bottle of metoclopramide. I will not survive 15g of pentobarbital. I thought I would have used it already but here I am. It’s getting worse & worse, birthday is coming up; I don’t think I’ll make it thru summer.