What do you do in the meantime?

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deadpixels

deadpixels

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Through the years, I have been losing interest in all things in my life, little by little, up to the point that I'm living like a plant, I do nothing.

So, I'd like to know what you occupy your lives with...
 
BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

I'm a BPD Barbie Girl living in a suicidal world
Dec 1, 2019
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Research suicide, pet my dogs, get bitten by the cat, research some more. Sleep probably half the day away thanks to meds. Most of my free time I feel is spent here as hobbies have kinda died along time ago, like I should have.
 
Underscore

Underscore

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Jul 31, 2018
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With the nice weather in the UK atm I garden. When I say garden, I mean scavenge materials, soil and plants for the yard. I moved here last year and I'm still sorting it all out. I spend lots of time exploring the local area and scouting old allotments for anything interesting.
But in the winter I sat at the PC and played Guild Wars 2. My illness was barely managed over the winter, and gaming helped keep my anxiety down. Now I have a compulsion to tidy and plant and organise, to attempt to bring some illusion of order to the chaos.
 
deadpixels

deadpixels

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Look for pills to put me to sleep. Or keep me asleep really
I try to sleep the day too, but I will have to eventually wake up. What to do while awake?

Research suicide, pet my dogs, get bitten by the cat, research some more. Sleep probably half the day away thanks to meds. Most of my free time I feel is spent here as hobbies have kinda died along time ago, like I should have.
Our routines are very similar, except for the pets :) and btw, I like how you specify the differences in interacting with dogs and cats

With the nice weather in the UK atm I garden. When I say garden, I mean scavenge materials, soil and plants for the yard. I moved here last year and I'm still sorting it all out. I spend lots of time exploring the local area and scouting old allotments for anything interesting.
But in the winter I sat at the PC and played Guild Wars 2. My illness was barely managed over the winter, and gaming helped keep my anxiety down. Now I have a compulsion to tidy and plant and organise, to attempt to bring some illusion of order to the chaos.
I used to garden too... now all I got are some overgrown bushes and weeds...
I tried to plant some things recently but they didn't grow well, it was sad to look at them, I felt guilty for allowing them to grow from the seeds just to have such fate.
 
SleeplessSoul

SleeplessSoul

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Apr 10, 2020
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Have baths, try and do research for my PhD, watch Netflix, come on here or Twitter, try and not self harm (and fail)
 
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serah

serah

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May 6, 2020
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I keep myself busy with school and online games and try to feel less lonely than I actually am. Anything to fill the void.
 
TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Because of apathy I too don´t enjoy anything anymore so I spend most of my time on this forum and watching the same series over and over again and research my suicide methods and watch videos of suicides on various websites which is part of the research and I have been getting drunk several times a week for month now.
 
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I try to sleep as much as possible because I have the most vivid and bizarre dreams. Plus I love being unconscious :)
At the moment I'm staying with my parents because left to my own devices I was spending the whole day in bed without eating or doing anything at all, while here I eat with them, we play cards and sometimes I play table football with my dad. I read this forum and, if I'm in the right mood, I also watch Netflix and listen to podcasts
 
mathieu

mathieu

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Jun 5, 2019
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I play games, mostly overwatch, listen to music, browse the forum, pet my dog.
 
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rebelsue

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Dec 12, 2019
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Research suicide, pet my dogs, get bitten by the cat, research some more. Sleep probably half the day away thanks to meds. Most of my free time I feel is spent here as hobbies have kinda died along time ago, like I should have.
How do you pay for things? How do you live? I don't understand people who can do this. Won't you get evicted or lose your home if you sleep all day and don't work?
 
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StateOfMind

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Apr 30, 2020
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How do you pay for things? How do you live? I don't understand people who can do this. Won't you get evicted or lose your home if you sleep all day and don't work?
Probably living in a welfare state or rich / family.
 
BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

I'm a BPD Barbie Girl living in a suicidal world
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How do you pay for things? How do you live? I don't understand people who can do this. Won't you get evicted or lose your home if you sleep all day and don't work?
Probably living in a welfare state or rich / family.
Firstly, please don't make assumptions that I'm rich or have a rich family. I have neither. Secondly, I can't work due to mental illness, I have tried, people on this board know I have tried to work and it has failed. I don't chose to live this way. It's not as simple as that. Honestly, this has just pissed me off.
 
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StateOfMind

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Didn't mean to piss you off. At least you still feel something..
 
deadpixels

deadpixels

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How do you pay for things? How do you live? I don't understand people who can do this. Won't you get evicted or lose your home if you sleep all day and don't work?
when we don't do anything at all we usually consume so little that our money lasts much longer, a disastrous job here and there can keep you floating for a long time. Some people also get financial help from the family, some live with their parents, etc. When we are in this state, we usually don't care about anything anymore, some people will carelessly go into debt to stay around for a few more months. There are many different ways to "sleep all day", and believe me, none of them are enviable.
 
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rebelsue

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Firstly, please don't make assumptions that I'm rich or have a rich family. I have neither. Secondly, I can't work due to mental illness, I have tried, people on this board know I have tried to work and it has failed. I don't chose to live this way. It's not as simple as that. Honestly, this has just pissed me off.
I made zero assumptions. I was asking a question. You read all of that into my question, I never said you were rich or had a rich family. I never said you chose this. I never said you didn't. I really just don't know how I'd do it and I honestly can't envision it for myself which is why I asked incredulously. I have no way of not doing anything. I started to sleep all day and cry and my husband said he'd kick me out if I did that. And I can't get a job anywhere due to my own disability. So right now I have to keep forcing myself to participate in life so I have a safe place to sleep. I can't imagine a scenario where this would work even with getting into credit card debt. Can you pay rent on a credit card??

Do you get SSI disability? What country are you in?
when we don't do anything at all we usually consume so little that our money lasts much longer, a disastrous job here and there can keep you floating for a long time. Some people also get financial help from the family, some live with their parents, etc. When we are in this state, we usually don't care about anything anymore, some people will carelessly go into debt to stay around for a few more months. There are many different ways to "sleep all day", and believe me, none of them are enviable.
I never said I envied anyone!! YOU read that into my words.
 
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deadpixels

deadpixels

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I made zero assumptions. I was asking a question. I honestly can't envision it for myself which is why I asked incredulously. I have no way of not doing anything. I started to sleep all day and cry and my husband said he'd kick me out if I did that. And I can't get a job anywhere due to my own disability. So right now I have to keep forcing myself to participate in life so I have a safe place to sleep. I can't imagine a scenario where this would work even with getting into credit card debt. Can you pay rent on a credit card??

Do you get SSI disability? What country are you in?

I never said I envied anyone!! YOU read that into my words.
I didn't mean to say that you envied anyone, I just wanted to give emphasis to the fact that it's not a good life, sorry if it sounded in a different way, I'm having some trouble with words lately.
 
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Zozo

Zozo

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work at a shitty indian food warehouse...try to play norweigan black metal on a acoustic guitar....scream gibberish at the top of my lungs. take sedatives.