[Venting] Well i am mess up now

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Mort

Mort

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Feb 15, 2019
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Well i am truly mess up now i bin trying different drug mixes. Different does of tramadol with other things came close a couple of times. But this larst one was another bust a mix or tramadol and viagra. Viagra opens up your blood vessels was hoping to get a bigger dose around me more quickly. Didn't work :( nock me out for a bit but came round later but its done sum damage to me . I seem to be passing a lot of blood in my urine all i think i lost a kidney. And they are other things going not to well . Its bin a couple of days and its not stop dam if i go to the doctors they know i try to do sum thing stupid and more likely to get lock up :( . Well looks like i am going to go on the bus soon if this stuff dont stop in the next week or so so they sum good came out of it . Knowing my luck i will get better my dam body is all ways fiteing back . Any way see what happens TATA for now
 
waived

waived

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Yikes. What was it like to lose a kidney?
 
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Mort

Mort

No use to know one
Feb 15, 2019
584
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Yikes. What was it like to lose a kidney?
Well its still in they if i go to the doctors or hospitals they soon work out that i try to CTB . I do have a little bit of history few years back i OD on pills i managed to convince them it was an accident. Told them was in a lot of pain and forgotten how many i took i dont think they really believed me but they were over stretch so they just let me go . So now if i show up with an accidental OD they going to know it was not. Any way the kidney has i think stop working they no pain at the moment but onley bin a couple of days. All had to get my dark glasses out to told my folks its my hayfever playing up if you cut down the light to your eyes they dont itch so bad . In fact whats really wrong is they gone yellowish so think my liver mite be a bit bugged LOL . Well going to have to save up my pills ones more and the dam doctors are trying to cut my pills down. They say its best for me to try and get of them they are worried about my health LOL . Infact thats a lie and i know it why they doing it is at the moment I get free prescription so i am costing them about 30 quid a month. So they want to save money by living me in pain all the doctors seem think about is money and how much am i going to cost them. To busy lining they own pockets to worry about the working class let them suffer as long the doctors get they new cars and other things. Well to hell with them i will keep fighting them need the pills more than ever dam makes me sound like sum junkie i think thats what the doctors think to . But how can you not when you all most have to beg them i think they get a bit of a kick out of it god complex and all that i know one doctor does get a thrill out of it you can see it on they face . Well thats it for now sorry for the long story just venting a bit just peed of at the moment . Tata for now
 
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