[Discussion] Valentine's Day urggh

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MsMaudlin

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I'm feeling extra crappy today fighting the urge to CTB,, everywhere you look its flowers, hearts, love, happy couples.

Then there's me, single, ugly, unwanted and unloved.

I'm sure other people will struggle today for a miriad of reasons relating to Valentine's Day, so I
hope the day passes quickly ❤
 
sandycheeks

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I'm feeling extra crappy today fighting the urge to CTB,, everywhere you look its flowers, hearts, love, happy couples.

Then there's me, single, ugly, unwanted and unloved.

I'm sure other people will struggle today for a miriad of reasons relating to Valentine's Day, so I
hope the day passes quickly ❤
valentine’s day is a social structure to keep single people sad, use that day to enjoy yourself
 
Chaoticbpd

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Valentine’s Day is just a day like any other people use it to parade their seemingly perfect lives in other peoples face I can only assume for some sort of validation. Never cared for the day until today because my partner of 2 years left me recently which can only bring me to the conclusion that Valentines Day only seems like a big deal if your single because it highlights whatever you feel is missing. Tomorrow will be another shitty day just like today
 
Xaphous

Xaphous

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I'm a dateless kissless hugless virgin even though I had many dates lined up and couldn't bring myself to meet any. Thanks to lifelong abuse and isolation, avpd and cptsd. Never even spoke to the opposite sex before in my entire life So fuck this day I will be isolated just like every other day of my life
 
k75

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I'm tempted to just sleep it off. I could have spent the day with someone fairly special, but I turned them down. Instead, I'll be dwelling on the knowledge that the man I spent 15 years with, love of my life, who I can't erase from my head, is busy building a life with someone else. And it's worse, because he plans to call me today, too. It's not fair, and it's my fault. I can't even get drunk, because my poor paralyzed stomach and scarred pancreas couldn't handle it. I'd *really* wish I was dead.
Ok...7am and pity party officially started.
 
porfin1234

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Meh, I never really did much even when with someone for V day.. spontaneity is more fun anyway (random gift giving and acts of love). I think when you do those things for each other regularly it makes Vday less important.

I dislike the idea of expectation too. It makes it feel less sincere. And then playing this game of one upping each other. I mean I guess so long both parties don’t take it too seriously but I’m sure Valentine’s Day has inspired many arguments and resentment even among couples lol.
“You didn’t do this or that, or enough! I did more for you!”

I was once told by someone to enjoy singledom and that they know women who would give their two front teeth to have their freedom haha. So hey, you could look at it that way- single, less drama?

I prefer what we call today in Spanish “Día del amor y la amistad” day of love and friendship.

Random fun fact: In Japan, Christmas is for couples. I saw heart shaped lights when I went one December lol.

Sending you all some virtual warm hugs!
 
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RoseyBird

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yeah it’s a stupid day. It would be nice I could just get stoned and go to sleep but unfortunately I have responsibilities.

sending you love and hugs dear. You are appreciated and valued, and I’m glad you’re here and part of our family.
 
Soulless_Angel

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Its all a load commercialised crap! meant to be a day for anon lovers and admirers to have one day they can brave it and tell someone they love them, now all I see on social media is parents spoiling their brats with tacky valentines shit! Like seriously? Why!? Take it birthdays and xmas and easter isn't enough for them already!
 
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RoseyBird

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This day is breaking me. I split with my girlfriend a week ago and still have the gifts I was going to give her. I wished her Happy Valentines Day at midnight and sent her cute photos of us and pictures of the card she gave me last Valentines Day and a note I’d saved....she didn’t even respond. I don’t see how she can just say NOTHING. I can’t take it and it’s pushing me.

Fuck. This. Day.
That’s very cold. I’m sorry you’re being treated that way. It’s my first v day alone too, so I feel you.
 
BearNoMore

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Feb 9, 2020
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That’s very cold. I’m sorry you’re being treated that way. It’s my first v day alone too, so I feel you.
That’s the thing...how cold and emotionless it feels from her. I understand if she’s upset or not ready to try to mend things between us, but to not say ANYTHING when she still loves me? It feels so calculated, deliberate, and ruthless in a way.

I’m sorry you’re alone too and feeling dragged down by the holiday. At least we’ve all got each other here for support and camaraderie through this. It’s something.

- Bear
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RoseyBird

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That’s the thing...how cold and emotionless it feels from her. I understand if she’s upset or not ready to try to mend things between us, but to not say ANYTHING when she still loves me? It feels so calculated, deliberate, and ruthless in a way.

I’m sorry you’re alone too and feeling dragged down by the holiday. At least we’ve all got each other here for support and camaraderie through this. It’s something.

- Bear
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Is it possible she didn’t see it yet?
 
Dawgmom

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I am so sorry for everyone who is lonely today (and everyday). I feel somewhat defective by comparison because while I do feel lonely at times, it mostly doesn't bother me. I live alone and have no family or friends to hang out with. My phone seldom rings. I have 2 dogs and am happy living as I do. Maybe I don't get lonely so much because I don't like people. Or, maybe it's because I'm old(er) and just don't want the drama that comes along with friendships much of the time.

But for those of you who miss people, I hope you can find some kind of bright spot. Whether it's playing with puppies and kittens at the animal shelter or sitting in a public place and striking up a conversation with the person next to you - if only for a few minutes. Because on the rare occasions that I do feel lonely, I go for a walk or drive just to be around others. And those I see who appear to have the perfect life? I just remind myself that credit cards buy a lot of happiness.
 
BearNoMore

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Is it possible she didn’t see it yet?
No way. I know she was up late past midnight when I sent it working on her school project. She also sent me money via an app this morning she said she’d give me for a date out we had like two weeks ago. I got the notification on the app like an hour ago. So she’s obviously been through her phone this morning. She’s at work now too so no way she hasn’t seen it. I wish that were the case...I’m trying to be calm and just not say anything more to her and see if she chooses to reply...
 
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Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

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I'm feeling extra crappy today fighting the urge to CTB,, everywhere you look its flowers, hearts, love, happy couples.

Then there's me, single, ugly, unwanted and unloved.

I'm sure other people will struggle today for a miriad of reasons relating to Valentine's Day, so I
hope the day passes quickly ❤
I hate Hate HATE token love day.
You could do 364 romantic things in a year but omitt Feb 14 and you're video game playing, sweat pants wearing douche burger to be confined to the doghouse.
I hope those having a cruddy time today more so than others can get some respite.
Tonight I'm taking the OH to a show (since another evening of Love Island might actually trigger some sort of modern day Valentines day massacre!) where very out of character I'm planning on getting shit faced and spewing everywhere (this excusing myself from the inevitable token crappy shagging that goes with token love day).
Peace friends.
DBD
 
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RoseyBird

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No way. I know she was up late past midnight when I sent it working on her school project. She also sent me money via an app this morning she said she’d give me for a date out we had like two weeks ago. I got the notification on the app like an hour ago. So she’s obviously been through her phone this morning. She’s at work now too so no way she hasn’t seen it. I wish that were the case...I’m trying to be calm and just not say anything more to her and see if she chooses to reply...
Wow, that’s pretty messed up, I’m sorry. Try to do or eat something that makes you feel good.
 
Suicide_vampire

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Valentines day, the day when flowers, chocolates and cute stuffed animals suddenly rocket in price. The day when you can't eat out because restaurants are filled with couples who feel the need to make grand gestures on this day and then go back to normality the rest of the year.
Because nothing says I love you more than tacky over-priced gifts and packed restaurants full of fakes.
So sitting home alone with my dog doesn't seem so bad❤
 
Thereisnothing

Thereisnothing

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Jan 4, 2020
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Went to my parents graves today with 3 red roses, one for them each and one for me to signify our love. Kept looking at my plot and thinking surely it wont be long now.
Illnesses getting much worse and my emptiness of being alone is ripping me to shreds. I lit a new candle in their lantern and was watching the flame, so peaceful.
 
Lostandfound7

Lostandfound7

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Jan 21, 2020
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This day is breaking me. I split with my girlfriend a week ago and still have the gifts I was going to give her. I wished her Happy Valentines Day at midnight and sent her cute photos of us and pictures of the card she gave me last Valentines Day and a note I’d saved....she didn’t even respond. I don’t see how she can just say NOTHING. I can’t take it and it’s pushing me.

Fuck. This. Day.
Possibly she's still upset. I know how us females get..if ur missing her, chances r, she's missing u just as much..Just give her min, n let her miss u..once she starts to really miss u n feel like there's a chance ur really gone, then she might end up reaching out to u..just games us females play sometimes..lol..don't give up just yet.
 
Lostandfound7

Lostandfound7

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I'm feeling extra crappy today fighting the urge to CTB,, everywhere you look its flowers, hearts, love, happy couples.

Then there's me, single, ugly, unwanted and unloved.

I'm sure other people will struggle today for a miriad of reasons relating to Valentine's Day, so I
hope the day passes quickly ❤
Hey my Love..I'm married n find V-Day so overrated. If I have to wait for one day a yr for my husband to finally take me to dinner, buy me flowers n chocolate, perfume,etc, then that's really sad..It's nothing but a highly commercialized scheme, with stores preying on ppls emotions, selling the notion to SOME men that their bs gifts can make up for their shitty behavior for the past year..imo.Sending u :heart:..Treat yourself to something special today, even if it's just a nice bubble bath, warm shower with ur fave music playing, or glass of wine, piece of cake, .It's all about YOU today! .Giving u a GREAT, BIG hug!!!:hug:
Valentine's Day sucks and makes me want to ctb. Never had a f*cking girlfriend in my shitty life and I wont.
Well it's not too late:heart:
 
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BearNoMore

BearNoMore

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Feb 9, 2020
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Possibly she's still upset. I know how us females get..if ur missing her, chances r, she's missing u just as much..Just give her min, n let her miss u..once she starts to really miss u n feel like there's a chance ur really gone, then she might end up reaching out to u..just games us females play sometimes..lol..don't give up just yet.
Ha. I appreciate the candor and lightheartedness here. I have in fairness been showering her in loving messages and all because she's been melting down herself due to her professional life....but maybe I'll back off and just not say much until I'm supposed to see her (if I can withhold from spiraling before then :ohh:)
 
Suicide_vampire

Suicide_vampire

In Vino Veritas
Feb 11, 2020
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I wise person once said if you love someone set them free, if they come back then it's all good but if they don't they were never yours. Or something like that