Unsuccessful suicide attempt

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ningaman151

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Hello all, I wonder if anyone remembers me...

I have recently attempted a ctb; however it was unsuccessful, and I am left physically disabled.

What I did was jump off a bridge, I landed on my feet on concrete...

I need a better method for the future, a safe and peaceful method. Currently I'm thinking CO but getting the required bits and pieces is difficult when you're in a wheelchair.
 
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Baskol1

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You probably jumped not high enough. How long did you stay in a psychiatric hospital after the attempt?
 
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dreamofme

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Hello all, I wonder if anyone remembers me...

I have recently attempted a ctb; however it was unsuccessful, and I am left physically disabled.

What I did was jump off a bridge, I landed on my feet on concrete...

I need a better method for the future, a safe and peaceful method. Currently I'm thinking CO but getting the required bits and pieces is difficult when you're in a wheelchair.
What bridge did you go off if you dont mind me asking?
 
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ningaman151

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You probably jumped not high enough. How long did you stay in a psychiatric hospital after the attempt?
Yeah I didn't jump from the highest point, thing is I don't remember doing it, which is really strange. I just remember walking back off the highest point after deciding not to do it.

At the highest point, the bridge is pretty high.
What bridge did you go off if you dont mind me asking?
The itchen bridge in Southampton, England.
You probably jumped not high enough. How long did you stay in a psychiatric hospital after the attempt?
It's been 4 and a half months since I've been in hospital, I'm still in hospital, and it doesn't look like I'm getting out anytime soon.
 
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Yeah I didn't jump from the highest point, thing is I don't remember doing it, which is really strange. I just remember walking back off the highest point after deciding not to do it.

At the highest point, the bridge is pretty high.

The itchen bridge in Southampton, England.
How high is it?
 
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ningaman151

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i’m so sorry, i’m sending you lots of hugs. yeah, i’m still waiting for my method but i’m a coward. i wish my SI was shit so i’d be dead
Thank you, much love ❤. What's SI?
How high is it?
28m at the highest point.
I’m so sorry to hear that. This is the scariest part of attempting ctb for me. As for another method, maybe try sn if you can get ahold of the supplies.
Yeah failure is a bitch, especially with all these assholes that work in the health industry (ambulances and mental health workers etc.). I'm looking at the sn megathread but there isn't enough information, where can I find a detailed guide for the method?
 
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so sorry, can you walk? i am a jump survivor from 6 years ago. lots of breaks but most healed in 3 4 months except for ribs. ribs are the worst. hope you recover or dont fail again at least. you can find sn info on suicidewiki or ask at sn mega.
 
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ningaman151

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so sorry, can you walk? i am a jump survivor from 6 years ago. lots of breaks but most healed in 3 4 months except for ribs. ribs are the worst. hope you recover or dont fail again at least. you can find sn info on suicidewiki or ask at sn mega.
Sadly I can't walk no , good to hear you healed. Thank you I'll try a safe method to go and avoid contact to ensure success. What's suicidewiki?
 
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so sorry, can you walk? i am a jump survivor from 6 years ago. lots of breaks but most healed in 3 4 months except for ribs. ribs are the worst. hope you recover or dont fail again at least. you can find sn info on suicidewiki or ask at sn mega.
How high was yours if you dont mind me asking, jumping is my method so just trying to get some first hand accounts.
 
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Baskol1

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Thank you, much love ❤. What's SI?

28m at the highest point.

Yeah failure is a bitch, especially with all these assholes that work in the health industry (ambulances and mental health workers etc.). I'm looking at the sn megathread but there isn't enough information, where can I find a detailed guide for the method?
28 meters can be deadly, but its not garuanteed deadly. 50 meters is most of the time deadly. And 100 meters on hard ground is always deadly.
 
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ningaman151

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28 meters can be deadly, but its not garuanteed deadly. 50 meters is most of the time deadly. And 100 meters on hard ground is always deadly.
Thank you for the information. Thing is the bridge was the only accessable place to ctb. Other taller buildings need special access.
 
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Baskol1

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Thank you for the information. Thing is the bridge was the only accessable place to ctb. Other taller buildings need special access.
Yes, as i said 28 meters should be deadly too, but it cain fail.
 
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comatose

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How high was yours if you dont mind me asking, jumping is my method so just trying to get some first hand accounts.
4 5 storey building to concrete. i landed on feet i guess. why jump when there is sn? if it is not very very high dont jump please. too much trouble andpain if fail. i still cant work andlots of rib pain, lung problems.
Sadly I can't walk no , good to hear you healed. Thank you I'll try a safe method to go and avoid contact to ensure success. What's suicidewiki?
you are not parallysed i hope you can walk in time. it is a webpage describing sn method, just google sn suicidewiki
 
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4 5 storey building to concrete. i landed on feet i guess. why jump when there is sn? if it is not very very high dont jump please. too much trouble andpain if fail. i still cant work andlots of rib pain, lung problems.
Out of everything thats out there thats accesible to me jumping is the most sure fire way (spending as little as possible). Place that ive picked out 246ft so should be able to do the dead.
 
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Baskol1

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Out of everything thats out there thats accesible to me jumping is the most sure fire way (spending as little as possible). Place that ive picked out 246ft so should be able to do the dead.
Yes this is quite deadly. You will probably not survive this.
 
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Dead beat dad

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Hello all, I wonder if anyone remembers me...

I have recently attempted a ctb; however it was unsuccessful, and I am left physically disabled.

What I did was jump off a bridge, I landed on my feet on concrete...

I need a better method for the future, a safe and peaceful method. Currently I'm thinking CO but getting the required bits and pieces is difficult when you're in a wheelchair.
Hi brother, thanks for having the courage to come here and share your experience with us.
The things that took you to that place and beyond must have been unbearable and to have survived must have hurt you both mentally and physically in a way we cannot understand.
I wish you peace brother. I hope you can make a recovery in body and spirit.
I hope the dark places in your life can be controlled and the pain is over for you.
Good luck friend
DBD
 
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Baskol1

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The doctors here are a bunch of fucking assholes. They keep me in and make a living off my suffering. They are a bunch of retarded nerds that's all. They act autistic and behave abnormally, yet they label me as the mentally ill. Fuck this man.
What do you mean with acting autistic?
 
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I've been thinking about itchen bridge... I'm fairly close to it and gunna try and land on my head.. it's that or beachy head but Southampton is a hell of a lot closer!
Sorry to hear you've ended up in the hospital :(
 
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ningaman151

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I've been thinking about itchen bridge... I'm fairly close to it and gunna try and land on my head.. it's that or beachy head but Southampton is a hell of a lot closer!
Sorry to hear you've ended up in the hospital :(
Maybe we could be partners. I'll pm you ☺. Landing on head will probably be unpredictable, as you never know how you'll act during freefall.

Edit: I'm trying to pm you but it's not letting me, please send me a pm if you're interested ☺!
 
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It's been 4 and a half months since I've been in hospital, I'm still in hospital, and it doesn't look like I'm getting out anytime soon.
The doctors here are a bunch of fucking assholes. They keep me in and make a living off my suffering. They are a bunch of retarded nerds that's all. They act autistic and behave abnormally, yet they label me as the mentally ill. Fuck this man.
I hope this isn’t out of line, but you poor, brave man. My heart breaks for you; your situation sounds absolutely awful. I wish I could come and sit with you and talk. Hospital is an awful place to be. Are you still in a rehab setting or a psych ward? You mentioned having a 1:1 constant observations nurse - is that still happening? If they ease off that, the night-night method might be feasible.
 
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Jumped off the bridge and landed on the concrete? And without any recollection how did you wind up at the jumping spot?
That's uncanny.
 
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Baskol1

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Jumped off the bridge and landed on the concrete? And without any recollection how did you wind up at the jumping spot?
That's uncanny.
How did he survive that?
 
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How did he survive that?
When I was a paramedic, you see people survive truly astonishing circumstances. Modern medicine is really good at treating trauma-induced injuries. As long as the brain stem is functional, the view of modern medicine is that there is something worth saving, regardless of quality of life. That’s how you end up with people in vegetative states on life support.

I can’t wait for euthanasia to become more accessible for people. Not that it compares to what @ningaman151 is going through, but when I woke up in ICU after an overdose, the overwhelming feeling of ‘fuck. I survived’ is horrible. I feel like in situations like that you should be asked if you’d like to access assisted euthanasia. Now I live with short term memory loss and treatment resistant depression.

My heart goes out to you, @ningaman151
 

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