[Help] Trying SN method tonight, hard to go through with

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OldGod

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I just tasted it and it's the saltiest thing I've ever had in my mouth. It's like drinking salt.

For some reason the taste just made me really afraid of it and I just spat it out. What the hell.
 
OldGod

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Well it's just that the taste really hit me and just scared the shit out of me for some reason. I've been so calm up until I had my first sip. Fuck, I want to finish it.
 
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Well it's just that the taste really hit me and just scared the shit out of me for some reason. I've been so calm up until I had my first sip. Fuck, I want to finish it.
Are you planning to go right now?
 
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Oh, then I wish you a safe and peaceful transition! :heart:
Have not tasted SN myself but might assume it is something like mixing soy sauce and sea salt, isn't it?
 
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It's not really comparable to anything. Its like liquid salt. It's awful. And it's making me hesitate. Which is worse.
 
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Hello OldGod. I am sorry to hear it has come to this. I am also glad to hear you have access to SN.
I hope, before going on with it, you have read the resources page, to inform you on the best step-by-step of how to perform this process. Proper fasting, and if possible other medications are a nice plus, but if not they ain't necessary, and really, the discomfort of SN comes only from if you have doubts: that you will only slowly fall sleep. It can cause some discomfort if this wait is a moment of doubt for you, so take this time to sit in silence, and to embrase the decision you are about to take. Then, once you have taken the SN, lie down, and focus on the feeling of your eyes slowly closing, knowing it will soon be over. Don't be afraid of it, embrace it.

Don't worry. Everything will be fine. It will all be over soon. And once it does, the eternity of peace and happiness awaits you.

Once again, I am sorry it has come to this. You will soon find peace.
We all love you and support you. Best of luck.
 
OldGod

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Hello OldGod. I am sorry to hear it has come to this. I am also glad to hear you have access to SN.
I hope, before going on with it, you have read the resources page, to inform you on the best step-by-step of how to perform this process. Proper fasting, and if possible other medications are a nice plus, but if not they ain't necessary, and really, the discomfort of SN comes only from if you have doubts: that you will only slowly fall sleep. It can cause some discomfort if this wait is a moment of doubt for you, so take this time to sit in silence, and to embrase the decision you are about to take. Then, once you have taken the SN, lie down, and focus on the feeling of your eyes slowly closing, knowing it will soon be over. Don't be afraid of it, embrace it.

Don't worry. Everything will be fine. It will all be over soon. And once it does, the eternity of peace and happiness awaits you.

Once again, I am sorry it has come to this. You will soon find peace.
We all love you and support you. Best of luck.
Hello OldGod. I am sorry to hear it has come to this. I am also glad to hear you have access to SN.
I hope, before going on with it, you have read the resources page, to inform you on the best step-by-step of how to perform this process. Proper fasting, and if possible other medications are a nice plus, but if not they ain't necessary, and really, the discomfort of SN comes only from if you have doubts: that you will only slowly fall sleep. It can cause some discomfort if this wait is a moment of doubt for you, so take this time to sit in silence, and to embrase the decision you are about to take. Then, once you have taken the SN, lie down, and focus on the feeling of your eyes slowly closing, knowing it will soon be over. Don't be afraid of it, embrace it.

Don't worry. Everything will be fine. It will all be over soon. And once it does, the eternity of peace and happiness awaits you.

Once again, I am sorry it has come to this. You will soon find peace.
We all love you and support you. Best of luck.
My problem is I have severe anxiety, which is another reason I'm doing this. Also makes it hard to go through with, even though I've been planning for weeks now.
 
OldGod

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Playing with SN is Russian Roulette. Tasting it and sipping it, to the best of my knowledge, is not the recommended practice.
I mean that's not my intention here, to just sip it to taste. And Russian Roulette meaning what?
 
one4all

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I mean that's not my intention here, to just sip it to taste. And Russian Roulette meaning what?
It is a term meaning roughly.. you are not sure of the outcome with each spin of the barrel. I've read threads of members tasting or sipping SN and having different experiences.
 
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I really relate with the general anxiety (the taste made me panic/anxiety induce as well). Wishing you so much peace.
 
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It is a term meaning roughly.. you are not sure of the outcome with each spin of the barrel. I've read threads of members tasting or sipping SN and having different experiences.
Please don't leave me hanging, if you can be specific then that would help
 
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I really relate with the general anxiety (the taste made me panic/anxiety induce as well). Wishing you so much peace.
If i may ask. What was the purpose for tasting it? Just to get familiar with the taste, feel what it taste like?
 
OldGod

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I really relate with the general anxiety (the taste made me panic/anxiety induce as well). Wishing you so much peace.
Everything has been prepared for tonight, it's just the taste that really made me panic, I don't know why. I was super calm before this. Even laughing.
 
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If i may ask. What was the purpose for tasting it? Just to get familiar with the taste, feel what it taste like?
My attempt was planned for tonight, so I made my SN drink and took a sip and it just made me anxious.
 
one4all

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Please don't leave me hanging, if you can be specific then that would help
All i can suggest is search the threads and talk with any member that has already tasted or tried sipping SN.
I can't give you any personnel experience as of yet, becuase i have not tried doing either.
I backed out of an attempt
Any discomfort or other effects that you remember. I have read thread where some peoples skin turned blueish for awhile
 
GoodPersonEffed

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I think it may have been overlooked that OP took a sip and spit it out, he did not drink it.

The Russian roulette is because some people have swallowed one sip thinking a little would do no harm, only to have unexpected strong effects.

Hope this helps.
 
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I think it may have been overlooked that OP took a sip and spit it out, he did not drink it.

The Russian roulette is because some people have swallowed one sip thinking a little would do no harm, only to have unexpected strong effects.

Hope this helps.
Actually, I did end up swallowing a little.
 
one4all

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I think it may have been overlooked that OP took a sip and spit it out, he did not drink it.

The Russian roulette is because some people have swallowed one sip thinking a little would do no harm, only to have unexpected strong effects.

Hope this helps.
I was aware the OP spat it out. The OP seems to be trying to ingest it, the OP didn't like the taste, the op SPAT it out.
And if the OP would have just swallowed some buy accident or some reflex? Who knows
Russian Roulette is not about doing something and thinking it would do you little harm. Russian Roulette is a game of chance..win or lose. There is nothing about a little harm. I guess unless you hope it's a misfire

It didn't help much.

But i appreciate your post to clarify my statement.
 
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I was aware the OP spat it out. The OP seems to be trying to ingest it, the OP didn't like the taste, the op SPAT it out.
And if the OP would have just swallowed some buy accident or some reflex? Who knows
Russian Roulette is not about doing something and thinking it would do you little harm. Russian Roulette is a game of chance..win or lose. There is nothing about a little harm. I guess unless you hope it's a misfire

It didn't help much.

But i appreciate your post to clarify my statement.
Actually, I did end up swallowing a little.
Okay, now that we're clear and I was wrong on both fronts....

@OldGod, since this has piqued your anxiety, I highly recommend you drink a good liter of water to flush. Then take some time to calm down and process. Tonight might not be the night, and it doesn't have to be.
 
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OldGod

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Well so far it's been an hour since that sip and I don't feel any changes.
Okay, now that we're clear and I was wrong on both fronts....

@OldGod, since this has piqued your anxiety, I highly recommend you drink a good liter of water to flush. Then take some time to calm down process. Tonight might not be the night, and it doesn't have to be.
Why does this have to be so hard? I was looking forward to this all day and now it's in my hands and my body won't let me do it. I really don't want to go through what I've been going through anymore. This is so stressful.
 
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To be honest. I got no more gas in the tank to panic. Things are, as they are. Panicking usually leads to misfortune.
I edited that out because I was being silly but OP has legit anxiety.
 
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I edited that out because I was being silly but OP has legit anxiety.
OP has been going through anxiety over this for about a month now.
Unless i read some of the OPs previous threads wrong.