[Discussion] To those who haven't committed yet what are you waiting for?

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Schadenfreude

Schadenfreude

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Dec 23, 2019
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Need to save up money for the fentanyl, as well as pay off debts to some people. Although I'm not sure if I'll have the patience to pay back my debts, as selfish as it may sound. Being an unemployed wreck has its moments.
 
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Readytogo#Broken

Readytogo#Broken

❤️You’ll never walk alone❤️
Jan 1, 2020
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I'm one of the oldest profiles. I didn't because I live with parents and I started feeling bad about my parents finding my body. It's a silly reason I know. I should just do it. I must be the oldest profile here who hasn't done it.
Do what YOU want WHEN YOU FEEL READY it’s as simple as that. I think you deserve a medal for sticking around through pain, as hard as the act is I think it’s harder for some to stick around I’m waiting patiently on sn, to you I say well done and fair play !!
 
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Daffodil

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Dec 23, 2019
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First of all, I think it's great if people find reasons to live. Life is great, according to reports from some people. Some people seem more predisposed to enjoying life, so if it's possible to switch to enjoying it, I think it's great if people stick around.

I'm here because I got an interview for a dream job that I thought would really turn things around. I didn't get it. I am at peace with that, I was lacking certain technical skills. I can't even really be sad because of the medication I'm on. But the planning is definitely back on.
 
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Emily123

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May 28, 2019
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I don't have a courge to do it . I don't want to hurt my mom And the most important thing . There are many thing in my life that I love and it is difficult for me to finish . I may CTB sometime soon or late but I can not do it today
 
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lizinha

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Feb 6, 2019
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My survival instincts are preventing me. I gotta choose a day and act implusively on it it's only a matter of time. It makes me feel like shit I've been active for almost a year and I'm still here.
 
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Conker

Conker

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Oct 22, 2019
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I'm not in any rush, especially knowing that the war continues after departing from this body. I've got a plan to map out well since this is my final shot.

No room for errors.
 
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Merith

Merith

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Oct 24, 2019
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I've attempted but it was only partial suspension; otherwise, I still live with my mother and younger brother, so I don't know when a good time would be.. not that it matters, really
 
Moonicide

Moonicide

ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
Nov 19, 2019
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I was holding back due to the holidays, didn't want to ruin future holidays for my loved ones. But now that is all over with I will be ctbing tonight or tomorrow at the latest... Hopefully. Life has a fucked up way of keeping me here and laughing at me.
 
Rallyon

Rallyon

LetMeFree
Apr 22, 2019
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I am waiting for my kids to be 18 or at least am somewhat secure in life... I can't take the risk of there dad getting them because I know they will have a really bad life..... I can only do my best for them I don't have lots of money but I try to show them and teach them everything I can..... Sometimes I feel compromised because I want to ctb but when I look at them I know they need me
 
SanitySalvage

SanitySalvage

The Ugliest King
Jan 11, 2020
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I’m scared.
I also had religious visions of the Virgin Mary who asked me to pray to her and ask for what I wanted. So, here I am...waiting on her. Probably not for much longer.
 
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littleflower88

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Dec 9, 2019
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Because I’m giving meds one last chance to work to prove to my family I’ve done everything I can and that it’s not an impulsive decision and one I’ve been sitting on for years.
 
liverpoolfan

liverpoolfan

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Jun 10, 2019
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I never really understood as I see profiles that are years old and active daily.
1 Liverpool to win the Premier League at last. Looks like I'll know if that's happening by May....
2. My savings run out. Could be a year. Could be less.
3. My strength/health/libido drop below acceptable levels. Unlikely to happen before the first two but you never know.
 
TimeToBiteTheDust

TimeToBiteTheDust

Everyday you are closer to death
Nov 7, 2019
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I could do it today. I could end my life today. I'm alone at home and I have enough time to drink SN and being found dead. But I don't feel so ready... Or I am a coward. I don't fear death. I fear failing.
 
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Scooby-Doo

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Oct 10, 2019
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1 Liverpool to win the Premier League at last. Looks like I'll know if that's happening by May....
2. My savings run out. Could be a year. Could be less.
3. My strength/health/libido drop below acceptable levels. Unlikely to happen before the first two but you never know.
LFC are a good antidepressant at moment
 
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LittleJem

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Jul 3, 2019
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Trying more medication - a bit for the sake of my family - and also if I can feel better, then I will have a happy part of my life.

Without the suicidal thoughts constantly and hte depression, my life is blessed - with food, a roof over my head etc....so if I can change my mental health (which I stil have some things to try) then I will have a happy bit of my life.

I kind of believe in reincarnation, and my next incarnation could be much worse.....so trying to fix this one.
 
trouble

trouble

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Jan 5, 2020
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I don't want to miss my best friend's birthday. So I'll just have to stick around for a few more months. And also, it's close to summer which means I'll have a better chance at CTB.
 
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hatelife

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Oct 13, 2019
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I'm waiting until my mother passes away which could be potentially 30 years from now.. We're very close and she doesn't deserve to lose her son.
I used to do this, go like that, I will wait for this and that and then I finally tried it in oct 2019 but failed the attempt, so thats also why Im worried, my spririt guides on yt told me not to think about anybody but me and whats best for myself because ppl really dont care but for themselves, my mom is always outside in summer and rarely with me so I plan if everything goes smoothly n im all alone again I will do it before that
Trying more medication - a bit for the sake of my family - and also if I can feel better, then I will have a happy part of my life.

Without the suicidal thoughts constantly and hte depression, my life is blessed - with food, a roof over my head etc....so if I can change my mental health (which I stil have some things to try) then I will have a happy bit of my life.

I kind of believe in reincarnation, and my next incarnation could be much worse.....so trying to fix this one.
this too, but at the same time life was so bad, I saw how life was bad for me living alone and having that mental ilness is bad, I prayed and prayed to God but never came any help so I feel like I want out before anything more bad can happen, ww3 is just around the corner....
 
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Compodulator

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Nov 8, 2018
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Personally, I say there's still a chance.
Exactly one, to be precised.
Focal temporal lobe epilepsy can, hypothetically, be controlled fully with the removal of the offending lobe.
I'm trying to get a chunk of brain removed. A chunk of my brain.
Unlike a lobotomy, I should not turn vegetative.
Reportedly, there's a chance I will lose the ability to control half of my body because brains are stupid, but with about four months of therapy and exercise I'll be finally normal.
I will then uncork a decade and a half old bottle of rage. I hope the surgery works out as going through a "second puberty" sounds both fascinating and fucking terrifying. That "fucking" is surprisingly relevant.
But yeah, if the surgery doesn't happen, if I'm declared unfit for whatever reason, I'll finally take that last step.

Also, I'm waiting for my father to pass. He's been through a lot of shit and doesn't need more of it.
 
imagineit

imagineit

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Jan 1, 2020
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Personally, I say there's still a chance.
Exactly one, to be precised.
Focal temporal lobe epilepsy can, hypothetically, be controlled fully with the removal of the offending lobe.
I'm trying to get a chunk of brain removed. A chunk of my brain.
Unlike a lobotomy, I should not turn vegetative.
Reportedly, there's a chance I will lose the ability to control half of my body because brains are stupid, but with about four months of therapy and exercise I'll be finally normal.
I will then uncork a decade and a half old bottle of rage. I hope the surgery works out as going through a "second puberty" sounds both fascinating and fucking terrifying. That "fucking" is surprisingly relevant.
But yeah, if the surgery doesn't happen, if I'm declared unfit for whatever reason, I'll finally take that last step.

Also, I'm waiting for my father to pass. He's been through a lot of shit and doesn't need more of it.
This is interesting, hoping nothing but the best. I am unfamiliar, how common is this? Do you have any links to anything you think particularly informative? I will look around myself but there can be noise if you know what I mean.

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Ok yes I have heard of such interventions for types of epilepsy we have a distant family member that is supposed to have considered something of this nature. Sorry.
 
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JustVisiting

JustVisiting

Brain Tumour Killing Me
Dec 18, 2019
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First of all, I think it's great if people find reasons to live. Life is great, according to reports from some people. Some people seem more predisposed to enjoying life, so if it's possible to switch to enjoying it, I think it's great if people stick around.

I'm here because I got an interview for a dream job that I thought would really turn things around. I didn't get it. I am at peace with that, I was lacking certain technical skills. I can't even really be sad because of the medication I'm on. But the planning is definitely back on.
For whatever reason that job wasn’t right for you. Something better may be coming instead. Try to stay open. ❤
ive got parkinsons so I want to go before it gets too bad , its not bad enough yet .
I completely get this.
 
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Flippy

Flippy

Listening to the Air Conditioner Hum
Jan 5, 2020
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I feel that there are some things I need to finish off properly that my friends and loved ones need before I can arrange to go to my bus stop. I want to leave people in comfort knowing that they won't have to worry about a huge list of things without my help. Hope that makes sense? :-)