the voice

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TSCursor

TSCursor

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Hi, this is my first post here, honestly i don't know where to start, i just have to say that i have been developing a sort kind of voice in my head through time, its not schizophrenia... he has been giving me orders to do, insulting me, contradicting me, lately he has been suggesting to end my life soon, without thinking about my family, my friends, new people that I met, he also reminds me that I shouldnt trust them and that they will end up betraying me and hurting me. I have been doing some "exercises" that he asked me to do, like scratching my arm with my nails or a razor, hitting my head against the wall, taking many caffeinated ibuprofen pills. I try not to be so notorious, I'm just getting much more used to the pain, to not feel anything when the time comes.

I know i wont be able to have a future, stability, tranquility, a good job, a pure love. Because he always reminds me of it. but I still have chances?
 
Yomyom

Yomyom

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I think you need to go immediately to a psychiatrist to check it out.


I know i wont be able to have a future, stability, tranquility, a good job, a pure love. Because he always reminds me of it. but I still have chances?
Someone once told me that she had a suicide attempt and after that Her social worker told her- "you may not have a perfect life, could be far from perfect but it's your life!" (Something like that)

I wish you full recovery! ❤ :hug:
 
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This is a pro-choice site and no one "needs" to do anything.
I also have not heard of psychiatrists, almost ever, actually "checking out" the voices, inner experiences, deeper causes, or personal values of their clients - rather than just responding with one-size-fits-all prescriptions.

TS, I think you fully deserve to be free from doing anything that hurts you, that you feel bad about doing, and anything pressuring you to do things you feel bad about, is something you deserve relief from.
Many people have found ways to dialogue with, interrogate, learn-from, or "talk back to" voices that tell them harmful messages.
The Hearing Voices Network has local groups and feedback from people who've "been there," and often understand their voices and visions as pieces of themselves that they need to work with and understand better.
EMDR therapy is helpful to some people if they have traumatic memories that they've dissociated from.
 
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Idk if this helps but I've heard that responding to the voices as though they're a cringey 12 year old on Fortnite tryna roast you or a Karen at Kmart complaining to you to see the manager.. Etc..

If you can make the voice a cringey one maybe they'll be easier to deal with ?
Good luck.
 
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The tricky thing with a voice is that there may be several possibilities. If this voice has grown or evolved over time, it may be that you have unwittingly created it. In a way, the mental consideration of alternatives can grow such that negative thoughts might coalesce around the formation of an identity. This might happen to a person who has a low self-image or has been abused in some way.

Christians, Muslims, and Buddhists believe that there are spiritual entities that can attack, seduce, or influence people in ways that are self-destructive.

The voice might find an appeal if there is a portion of yourself inclined towards self harm. In this way the imagination can be appropriated to construct something like a separate identity that masks its origins.

Regardless of how it originated, it seems that you are stuck attempting to experiment with how to reduce or eliminate its influence.

If the thoughts originate internally, their control and reduction lies in the direction of gaining control of your thoughts. If a voice tells you to kill yourself, you might consider responding to it as if it were another person and tell it to buzz off. This might create an increasing sense of control.

There are medical and nutritional influences that might also be factors. If you are religious, you might try prayer and meditation.

The key will probably be experimentation. This can be with medication from a doctor and ways to respond to vocal intrusions and unwanted thoughts such that management and coping skills are discovered and strengthened.
 
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Idk if this helps but I've heard that responding to the voices as though they're a cringey 12 year old on Fortnite tryna roast you or a Karen at Kmart complaining to you to see the manager.. Etc..

If you can make the voice a cringey one maybe they'll be easier to deal with ?
Good luck.
I did it. Told me to fuck off.
 
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noaccount

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One friend who had this happened to him, said that the best way he found to deal with it, was no matter what it threw at him, to just say, "Why? No, why? Why would I do that?"
 
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This sounds like you are done for TBH, but as others have suggested; go to a pshychiatrist or better yet, a mental care facility
 
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OP I'd suggest you see a psychiatrist, meds and other treatments like CBT might help, note there are some side effects risks with the meds, minor sides are fairly common, serious one's less so. Studies appear to show meds do have some success, but the findings varies between studies. The following studies also mention CBT might be beneficial. I couldn't find much on treating people with auditory hallucinations who weren't schizophrenic or without another serious illness like bi polar. You say you aren't schizophrenic but imo a psychiatrist is the best person to diagnose you.

Only 8% of first-episode patients still experience mild to moderate hallucinations after continuing medication for 1 year.

Antipsychotics are also reviewed, revealing that, despite having only modest anti-hallucinatory properties, they are essential for reducing the psychic pain and correcting the underlying psychotic process.

Antipsychotic drugs are especially effective when hearing voices is accompanied by delusions or disorganization. When this is not the case, the efficacy of antipsychotic drugs will probably not outweigh the side-effects.

Good luck.
 
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See the following on the scientific meaninglessness of psych diagnoses:

And the following on neurodiversity and Mad/Psych-survivor perspectives:
1. https://www.newsweek.com/2015/01/23...r-voices-and-how-fix-it-299590.html?piano_t=1
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2. https://www.hearingvoicesusa.org/images/stories/Thornhill_et_al_2004.pdf