The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

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faraway_beach

Seawater and stardust
Dec 30, 2019
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@foreverbroken28 , I have never been in love so I can't say I understand, but that was just heartbreaking to read. I wish there was some way of killing the pain without killing the patient.
 
Good4Nothing

Good4Nothing

Unlovable
May 8, 2020
218
660
USA
(Just letting out what I can't say to him, directly.)

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The thought of my heart stopping is scary but the idea of living without you is what makes my heart stop.

I love you so much. You are the most beautiful man on this planet.

To know that you are out there and that we are not in each other's lives, at least not even friends is killing me are far beyond what I'm able to take.

I'm sorry to you. I wish I was normal. I love you. If I was normal, I would have never messed up our friendship.

I'm not normal and my emotions are not normal and I love you with every fiber of my being.

I am sorry for everything I've ever done to offend you. I love you so so much, beautiful sweetheart.

I love you to death. ♡
I wish someone would say that to me...
 
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faraway_beach

Seawater and stardust
Dec 30, 2019
308
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I did the income taxes!! I still have to do the income affidavit, but my gut hurts so I'm taking a break. My MMJ doc never got back to me from Thursday, who knows when I'll be able to get any more of the stuff.
 
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faraway_beach

Seawater and stardust
Dec 30, 2019
308
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I find money intimidating. I find the government intimidating, I have five very intimidating forms, dealing with both money and the government, to fill out. I did four out of the five! Yay, me! But the fifth was the one that precipitated a panic attack a couple of weeks ago. My therapist phoned today and didn't seem to understand why I'm reluctant to work on that one.

I picked it up today, and for a few minutes I couldn't find one of the other forms I need to work from. I did find the missing one before long, but in just those few minutes my gut started churning. So now I'm procrastinating online again.
 
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faraway_beach

Seawater and stardust
Dec 30, 2019
308
380
I find money intimidating. I find the government intimidating, I have five very intimidating forms, dealing with both money and the government, to fill out. I did four out of the five! Yay, me! But the fifth was the one that precipitated a panic attack a couple of weeks ago. My therapist phoned today and didn't seem to understand why I'm reluctant to work on that one.

I picked it up today, and for a few minutes I couldn't find one of the other forms I need to work from. I did find the missing one before long, but in just those few minutes my gut started churning. So now I'm procrastinating online again.
I did the fifth intimidating form! They're all done! But it's too late in the day to get them copied now, still have to copy and mail, tomorrow I guess. And then I need to see about getting the MMJ. My gut hurts.
 
Jump123

Jump123

Member
Mar 29, 2020
65
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UK
(Just letting out what I can't say to him, directly.)

~ ~ ~

The thought of my heart stopping is scary but the idea of living without you is what makes my heart stop.

I love you so much. You are the most beautiful man on this planet.

To know that you are out there and that we are not in each other's lives, at least not even friends is killing me are far beyond what I'm able to take.

I'm sorry to you. I wish I was normal. I love you. If I was normal, I would have never messed up our friendship.

I'm not normal and my emotions are not normal and I love you with every fiber of my being.

I am sorry for everything I've ever done to offend you. I love you so so much, beautiful sweetheart.

I love you to death. ♡
beautiful words, I'd love to say this to my ex-partner.
I'd do anything to change how I was/am and be back to normal again with him
everyday I cry, sometimes I don't wash for days (disgusting I know) I see no reason to do anything without him, I've forgot who I am without him.
I'd do anything to have him back. I get horrible visions of him with someone else.
even if I sent something like what you said to him, he wouldn't listen, I've lost one of the best people in my life.
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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Could always be worse lol. Atleast we're still online!
true, i was just surprised that didn't make it. unless.... oh they changed board software... like who wants to share on facebook? and the bottom links.

might just make it harder for some to go here withtout getting caught. but maybe they're getting it back
 
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Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
8,541
10,286
United States.
true, i was just surprised that didn't make it. unless.... oh they changed board software... like who wants to share on facebook? and the bottom links.

might just make it harder for some to go here withtout getting caught. but maybe they're getting it back
Yea they did update the board before they migrated servers. I didn't know there was an option to share to Facebook though lol.

I'll be sure to share it along with the pornhub Facebook share option as well. That way everyone can know just how fucked up I am! :pfff:

Miss y’all.
Somehow I’ve been too depressed to even open the browser on my phone. I’ve lurked occasionally. Hope everyone is doing okay. I’m spiraling bad.
I've been wondering about you. I've seen you around a couple times tho. Sorry to hear you're spiraling, I have been spiraling lately myself.
 
Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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Yea they did update the board before they migrated servers. I didn't know there was an option to share to Facebook though lol.

I'll be sure to share it along with the pornhub Facebook share option as well. That way everyone can know just how fucked up I am! :pfff:


I've been wondering about you. I've seen you around a couple times tho. Sorry to hear you're spiraling, I have been spiraling lately myself.
Given how common pornhub is to everyone, you'd probably get recommendations for similar from your friends lol
 
Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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Hahaha, I might! But in all honesty that FB share link on there freaks me the fuck out. I feel like one day I'm going to hit it on accident or something without even realizing.
yeah some things don't need shared lol odd thing is the sites know that but they put the option out there anyway
 
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goomsoom

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Jan 17, 2020
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its been a while I visited here. Site design has changed a lot, it looks messy to me.

Some members I followed are gone. One of the strong and very popular poster in this thread is missing cannot find what happened :(
 
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