The Happiest Moments in your life?

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Jan 12, 2020
I always think about the bad memories in life without thinking about the happy memories. Now I’ve been trying to think of the last time I was ever happy and I was at a complete loss for a while. I don’t think I’ve felt happiness in such a long time that my brain just can’t process it. However, I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting and I think I’ve come up with a few. My first happy memory was coming home from Kindergarten one day and my parents surprising me with a cool plastic knight armor set. It was one of the few times my parents seemed happy together and were also not venting their anger and frustrations on me. The knight set became one of my favorite toys too! My other happy memory is catching fireflies in Kansas with my brothers. They’re such beautiful insects and the way they lit up the night was so wonderful.
These are some of my few happy memories that I wanted to share and I wanted to ask you all what have been some of your happy memories?


Jun 2, 2020
I lived through the darkest day yet, on the others side. Knowing I lived to fight another week and it being my choice is the happiest moment of my life. Its what is guiding me
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Apr 13, 2020
I've been depressed pretty much all my life so even my happiest moments were filled with depression, anxiety, and insecurity. But getting my own apartment and living with my ex at the time. Traveling abroad to Germany, Belize, and Italy. Karaoke for my birthday last year. Getting drenched in the rain. Going out dancing with former friends. Oh, all the restaurants I used to eat at because I was a bit of a foodie.

I have a lot of good memories from the recent years. Unfortunately my declining mental health and my inability to cope with loss this past year has made it as if those things never happened. Was nice while it lasted


I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
Jul 24, 2019
United Kingdom
I remember getting with a woman that I'd been so uncertain about, wondering if it was ever going to happen, and finally getting with her was momentary bliss. Then I remember a holiday to France to pursue parkour, and living in the warm weather, meeting great people and my heroes alike, and feeling how perfect it all was. Then I'd remark on a few dating successes, where, after being shy and inept, I finally became intimate with some women I considered to be really attractive.

Bearing in mind this all took place in the same five year time span, circulating around the age of 24.


Ender of all
Jun 12, 2020
Like you, the bad memories are much easier to recall than any happiness and I've forgotten how it feels due to anhedonia. I saw it said somewhere that you need 10 positive experiences to make up for 1 negative one. Or 10 compliments to every 1 criticism to have a healthy loving relationship.

I mourn for a childhood free of knowledge of the barbarism of the world. And for people I found comfort in.

I experience euphoria during manic episodes. It's the only time I ever feel good, but it's not a good thing to happen to me. Still, when I come off that bipolar high, I grieve intensely for the loss of the happiness. It's like knowing ultimate bliss and then being ripped away from it forever.

Better to have loved and lost? No, because the grieving is unbearable.


Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
1986-2003 fine. 2004-present might as well have not happened. It pains me to look back on in a way those earlier years do not. A life of two halves definitely.


May 31, 2019
When I visited my guru's home for the first time and found out he was my guru and pointed out the nature of my mind.


If you can't fix what's broken you'll go insane.
Nov 7, 2019
This may sound weird but I feel "a little happy" when I play music. It's like a find light in my darkness. But I won't be really happy again. I know how it really felt but I won't come back to that state of mind never again. I am not able to. People tell me I'm bitter and sad but it's the way my body reacts and shows itself for all the shit I've been through.


When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
The happiest moments I have are with my carer which is why I talk about him alot. He was the first person to show me love and that I felt safe with. One of my favourite memories is helping him fix his car and him teaching me the basics. Something that I've always wished my biological did but I don't have relationship with them.


Jun 28, 2020
The happpiest moment of my life was when I first visited America on holiday as a 10 year old, the way my parents had hyped up New York in particular I thought it was a magical land. Then when I walked out of the airport and felt warm rain on my skin for the first time ever(we only ever get cold rain in Scotland). That was the best time of my life.
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