[Venting] Sudden waves of sadness

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Pryras

Pryras

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Feeling worse tonight (it’s 10pm over here) and I haven’t felt this dreary in awhile. Can’t say I have moments where I’m “happy” but indifferent, distracted sure...then when I’m by myself it all comes back.

how are you feeling? Do you get sudden onset moments of sadness? I feel like I’m in a very dark place and I’m here posting to hopefully slow the thoughts down.
 
CatchTheBus

CatchTheBus

If I could start over, I’d keep myself
Jan 14, 2020
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I can relate! I have BPD so my moods change drastically hour to hour. I’m in a bad place right now too. My SN won’t be here for a week and I’m getting antsy. I just want to be done already.
I’m sorry you’re going through this too! It’s so hard to pull yourself out when you hit a dark spot. I’m on here too to help with my thoughts. Distractions are a good way to redirect the mind...for the time being.
 
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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I often bury, overlook, or straight ignore my negative emotions. I find that eventually they'll build up and something small will trigger them. When they trigger it feels exactly like a tidal wave of emotions roll over me.

I've got a few things I do to help cope and or mitigate the problem. But I feel like I still need to work on a more permanent solution to these problems. Talking helps sure, but I still don't think it would be enough on its own.
 
Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

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Feeling worse tonight (it’s 10pm over here) and I haven’t felt this dreary in awhile. Can’t say I have moments where I’m “happy” but indifferent, distracted sure...then when I’m by myself it all comes back.

how are you feeling? Do you get sudden onset moments of sadness? I feel like I’m in a very dark place and I’m here posting to hopefully slow the thoughts down.
Last night reminded me of were I truely am, and it scares the hell out of me now, the feeling the emotions, today I am just getting by, but every so often I have to hold back tears, or the anxiety threatens to pay a visit.
The thoughts are a bitch. You are not alone with this for sure
 
Pryras

Pryras

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I often bury, overlook, or straight ignore my negative emotions. I find that eventually they'll build up and something small will trigger them. When they trigger it feels exactly like a tidal wave of emotions roll over me.

I've got a few things I do to help cope and or mitigate the problem. But I feel like I still need to work on a more permanent solution to these problems. Talking helps sure, but I still don't think it would be enough on its own.
I understand completely and this perfectly describes it. It’s been years since the event that triggered my sadness and while Im functional some days I get nights like this where it’s too much. You can’t forget trauma, and I’m not okay with making peace with it. Damage has been done and I’m suffering. Talking helps in moment I agree, but eventually we all go back into that headspace which fricken sucks.
 
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I often bury, overlook, or straight ignore my negative emotions. I find that eventually they'll build up and something small will trigger them. When they trigger it feels exactly like a tidal wave of emotions roll over me.

I've got a few things I do to help cope and or mitigate the problem. But I feel like I still need to work on a more permanent solution to these problems. Talking helps sure, but I still don't think it would be enough on its own.
Literally same!
I bottle everything up too, but once the bottle breaks, which is not a question of "if", but a question of "when", shit hits the fan.
 
Hollow Point

Hollow Point

Always Tired
Mar 24, 2020
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I cant say I relate anymore. I'm not sure if I'm in better control of my emotions, or I'm starting to feel less of them...but i tend to be in the same mood all the time. Even if shits going rough or great, it's always meh.
 
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TStorm

TStorm

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Mar 18, 2020
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I used to get really sad, but now I don't feel much of anything. I feel like any emotions I express are only shallow facades. Recently however I kept having crying fits either at work or as soon as I got home because people are being so mean to me. They want to yell at someone for the world going to hell and I guess that means me. Makes me feel even worse about myself cause I can't do anything about it. I can't fix anything. I guess that's why I joined here, if I talk about this stuff the bad thoughts are lessened.

Other things I do to help when I get into that mood is to distract myself. Read a book. Play Animal Crossing. Work on some art. Anything that can silence my thoughts. It gets worse when I lay down to sleep, so I haven't been sleeping much, but I listen to YouTube or podcasts while trying to sleep. I find it difficult to sleep with noise, but the voices in my head are much louder so I do what I can.
 
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