Sn tonight

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Ilikeshrimp

Ilikeshrimp

tired
Feb 2, 2020
22
33
hell
I’m going to try sn tonight. I am only using antacids because I didn’t want to spend 60$ on meto in case it doesn’t even work. I am using famotidine because it’s all I have. I have two cups of sn ready and a bag next to me so I dont puke all over my bed if it happens. It’ll be less to clean up for whoever finds me. I hope I’ll be able to keep it down since I’m used to feeling nauseous all the time. I have fasted for 7 hours and it’s almost 1am for me, everyone is asleep. I’m skinny and weigh around 100lbs, taking 20mg sn in 50ml water. My door is locked and hopefully nobody will hear me if I make noise.I hope it’ll be enough to kill me even if my plan good enough.

I promise I’ll post again if I end up surviving somehow. I really hope this will work, I’m writing this so others can use this if they don’t have lots of materials like me and need to know whether or not my method worked well. I’ll try to write at least one more post on how I feel after I take the sn.
 
randomz

randomz

Master
Nov 4, 2019
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I am sorry life brought you to this point. It must have been terrible. Still, is not there anything esle you can do to make yourself feel better. Have you exhausted all other options? If you want to talk we are always here.
 
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theguineapigking

theguineapigking

I hate myself so much
Dec 5, 2019
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Hey. I’m really sorry for what has brought you to this point.

Please be positive that you want to end it before you take sn. Many people panic and regret it after they take it. Then they go through stomach pumping and the psych ward. I don’t want you to have to go through that.


Without meto, there is a much higher risk of puking. Even if you’re used to feeling nauseous. It has to do with the dopamine pathway. But sn can still work even if you throw it up since 6 grams is considered lethal. So if you throw up most of 20-25 grams, it still could work. But the problem is also that it would likely take longer to work if you puke it up, which could lead to more pain.

Just know that there no shame in backing out. You can always try another day if you need to.


If you do attempt,I wish you the best. I’m here if you need to talk.
 
Ilikeshrimp

Ilikeshrimp

tired
Feb 2, 2020
22
33
hell
Sorry meant 20g
Oh god it was so salty
My hearts beating fast already but im super anxious so I don’t know whats causing it
Im shaking so much and heart is still beating fast i hear it in my ears also its a bit difficult to breathe
M dizzy now
Its uncomfortable but i just hope it works my ears are ringing
 
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russian_roulette

russian_roulette

the time for sleep is now
Feb 23, 2020
51
81
GER
I wish you a safe journey. Hopefully you will find the peace you deserve! :heart:
 
thebrinkimdriven

thebrinkimdriven

Specialist
Feb 11, 2020
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Thank you for sharing and I'm sorry you're in pain. All I hope is that this is a last resort and that you'll find peace. We're here if it's not time or it goes wrong. All the very best. x