sitting on the bridge

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maggie-apple

maggie-apple

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Apr 11, 2018
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hello everyone, this is my first time on a website like this. I joined reddit a few days ago in hopes that I could talk about my feelings there, but I hear they shut down other suicide forums on there so in case that happens again, I decided to join this. I originally had a post there and I'll just copy it here for you all:

I've felt so lost lately. I keep finding myself at the edge and I'm just to weak to actually kill myself but I feel so miserable. A few nights ago I sat on the railing of a bridge and tried to will myself to just slide down and fall but I couldn't even do that. The first time I tried to hang myself but I fucked it up. I've been clean from self harm for almost 80 days now but my roommates basically kicked me out because my depression was too much for them to handle and I had to find somewhere new to live. I'm just so sick of trying to act like I'm fighting depression or something all the time. I'm tired of having to fight against something
 
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Machonne

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Apr 25, 2018
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Too bad your roommates were not better friends. That is so typical. Sorry. Been there.
 
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BumbleBee123

BumbleBee123

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Apr 24, 2018
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I know the feeling. I’m glad you have joined us. I only joined myself a few days ago and it’s comforting (not sure if that’s the correct word choice) to know I can come on here and vent and connect with like-minded people.
 
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FullFat

FullFat

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Apr 27, 2018
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hello everyone, this is my first time on a website like this. I joined reddit a few days ago in hopes that I could talk about my feelings there, but I hear they shut down other suicide forums on there so in case that happens again, I decided to join this. I originally had a post there and I'll just copy it here for you all:

I've felt so lost lately. I keep finding myself at the edge and I'm just to weak to actually kill myself but I feel so miserable. A few nights ago I sat on the railing of a bridge and tried to will myself to just slide down and fall but I couldn't even do that. The first time I tried to hang myself but I fucked it up. I've been clean from self harm for almost 80 days now but my roommates basically kicked me out because my depression was too much for them to handle and I had to find somewhere new to live. I'm just so sick of trying to act like I'm fighting depression or something all the time. I'm tired of having to fight against something
Have you found somewhere to go? And congrats on the 80 days. I also self-harm.
 
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