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Help Should I try to live longer???

ming

ming

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Hi guys,

So last night I posted a thread about planning on killing myself today. I was very sure of it. I ditched my job and ran away from home to a hotel. I'm pretty sick of working office jobs, and it's part of the reason why I don't wanna live anymore. However, they pay the best. This morning I got a call from a job that I applied to some time ago. It's not the best pay and it's only part-time but it's a job that would actually make me feel like a useful person helping others. Yet, I already decided to end my life today. Now I'm conflicted on whether or not I should try to live longer or just finish the deed. I suppose it could be because I'm a coward looking for excuses, but I don't want to be afraid anymore. I'm pathetic.
Well now I just got another offer email from a different job, why the heck are they popping up now? :hmph:
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

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I really think you should give yourself another chance. Maybe this new job will be the thing you need to be able to recover rather than CTB. I wish the best for you whatever you decide, but there is nothing wrong with waiting because the bus will always be there for you if you need it. :hug:
 
RoseyBird

RoseyBird

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Grats on the job. It seems like it could help to give the new job a chance. Disruption of suicide plans is ok. There’s no obligation to ctb, and the option Is there later if you decide you need it. It’s always nice when life throws us a bone.
 
Lupgevif

Lupgevif

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Yes. If you think you can give yourself another chance, and you feel like it, absolutely do it.
 
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lobster salad

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Take the opportunity for change and grab those jobs! They’ll make you feel better. See, you’re not a total loser like me, they want you to work with them. If I applied, I’d see their middle finger pointing at me after 2 min. Poor qualifications
Give yourself a chance, you’re better than someone like me, hugs to you
 
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Curious89

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If you have the mental robustness and determination to atleast try the new job and see if it works for you, go for it.

But be very sure when you accept a new position that you are not internally still thinking of CTB when you go for it.

Only accept it if you can keep your mental troubles in check and not let it affect your performance or else the whole thing will make you feel worse.
 
Sinkinshyp

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I agree with everyone here. If you can give yourself another chance grab those jobs. I hope they bring you happiness and a much better future. Congratulations on the job offers
 
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Ready2GoNow

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You’ve been given this opportunity for a reason, grab it my friend. I personally think before committing suicide, everyone should try breaking away from their old life and creating a new one. That’s the only way to know whether life in general really isn’t for you, or if it’s just the life you’re currently living that’s making you feel that way.
You have the opportunity to be happy, why not try. I did the same, stayed off this website for a year and gave life another shot. Sadly for me it didn’t work out, but I pray it does for you. Good luck :heart:
 
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Hi guys,

I'm pretty sick of working office jobs, and it's part of the reason why I don't wanna live anymore. This morning I got a call from a job that I applied to some time ago. It's not the best pay and it's only part-time but it's a job that would actually make me feel like a useful person helping others. Now I'm conflicted on whether or not I should try to live longer or just finish the deed.
If this is a big part of your reason, then my opinion would be to continue on.

If you find something good and a desire in being able to help others, grab that bull by his horns!
 
Sinkinshyp

Sinkinshyp

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Thank you everyone for the feedback. I decided to listen to you all and give it a try. Tommorow is my interview for this new place, wish me luck!
Good luck with your interview. I hope it is a dream job and will give you much needed happiness.
 
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tidalwxves

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Hi guys,

So last night I posted a thread about planning on killing myself today. I was very sure of it. I ditched my job and ran away from home to a hotel. I'm pretty sick of working office jobs, and it's part of the reason why I don't wanna live anymore. However, they pay the best. This morning I got a call from a job that I applied to some time ago. It's not the best pay and it's only part-time but it's a job that would actually make me feel like a useful person helping others. Yet, I already decided to end my life today. Now I'm conflicted on whether or not I should try to live longer or just finish the deed. I suppose it could be because I'm a coward looking for excuses, but I don't want to be afraid anymore. I'm pathetic.
Well now I just got another offer email from a different job, why the heck are they popping up now? :hmph:
I feel like if you are asking this question the answer is yes. Pushing yourself to try something new doesn't make you a coward. I think its beautiful you have something to look forward to!
 
Valon

Valon

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Thank you everyone for the feedback. I decided to listen to you all and give it a try. Tommorow is my interview for this new place, wish me luck!
Good luck. Of course, you'll always have ctb to fall back on if things don't go your way. But I mean, you're already here and you've already suffered. Why not stay just a little longer to see if there's something worth experiencing? Hope things get better for you.
 
darkghost

darkghost

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Thank you everyone for the feedback. I decided to listen to you all and give it a try. Tommorow is my interview for this new place, wish me luck!
Good luck with your interview
 
Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

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Thank you everyone for the feedback. I decided to listen to you all and give it a try. Tommorow is my interview for this new place, wish me luck!
Good luck! I hope it goes well! :hug:
 
BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

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It sounds like the job may be fulfilling and help bring purpose/meaning. Why not stick around and see what it has to offer? And for what it's worth, you don't seem pathetic at all to me. Suicide is a big decision. It's difficult to follow through on it.
 
dec132013

dec132013

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Its not like you HAVE to die in x amount of time or you'll be stuck in your body forever, might as well stick around a bit longer if you have even the smallest bit of doubt

Good luck!
 
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