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Starseedchip

Starseedchip

Born to Die
Joined
Oct 13, 2019
Messages
48
You ruined me. I only get one life, one shot and you wrecked it. All of my pain and suffering for fucking nothing! You sacrificed my happiness for your own selfish desires. I hope you know that you failed. You like to point and call names but it’s you who’s the loser. You never deserved to have me in your life. You never deserved to be called mom. I’m glad you’ll die one day without a daughter.
 
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lotus11

Veteran
Joined
May 18, 2019
Messages
166
Please please please come back to me, I understand why you left but I love you more than anything, you're my best friend, the only one I feel safe with, my soulmate. We have been broken up a year and a half and I have missed you every single day. I know that I'm broken and you can't live with my eating disorder but I wish you would give me another chance. I know you said that you are not a 'prize' but without you, I feel hopeless. I am trying to be with other people, I am used to being alone, but I know deep down that nobody will compare to you. Come on, we are both around 30, neither of us have all the time in the world if we want a family. Am I really going to have to watch you have babies with another girl? If I am going to have babies without you I think it will never be with the person I truly loved...in that case I don't think I want them at all. Even if say 10 years from now I can somehow magically 'wipe you from my memory completely' by that time it would be too late for me to have a family. I don't get on or fit in with my 'old' family. I need a new life, a new place. I have learnt your culture, learnt your language, put years into loving you and it been a pleasure, but it's not been easy. You are the best man I have ever met, person in fact, and you deserve nothing of my illness. It probably sounds so stupid to someone else 'just move on and meet someone else' but it's not like that to me. So probably it's selfish to ask for another chance, I want you to be happy. But I am so so very tired, and I don't know if I will be able to go on without you. I love you so much tiger.



(PS, this is a great idea for a thread btw!)
 
flatearth

flatearth

dot
Joined
Aug 27, 2020
Messages
28
i miss you so much and i still think about everything you said to me
but one thing that you've said has stuck with me more than anything else
"you didn't even know the real me"
who is the real you? was the version of you i knew made specifically for me? will i ever get to know the real you?

the worst part is even though i know the person i fell in love with was fake
i still want you
but i know that can never happen.
 
VIBRITANNIA

VIBRITANNIA

lelouch | any pronouns
Joined
Aug 10, 2020
Messages
842
i hope you're doing well. i hope you're doing better. i miss the time we had together, even if it was only a few months. you made me feel alive. i hope you've found better.
 
coeur.brisé

coeur.brisé

Illuminated
Joined
Jun 4, 2020
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Dammit. You rescued me every time I needed you. You never failed me. Now I'm sinking fast and you're gone. Completely. i need you now. ;-;;-;;-;;-; I'm drowning and I need you. dammit.
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coeur.brisé

coeur.brisé

Illuminated
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See above. I'd say the same thing again today. Everyday until I can grasp an understanding of how things turned out the way they have.
 
coeur.brisé

coeur.brisé

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When I think about all of you, I get tremours and I panic, like a small child lost in a crowd. I've been trying to figure out how to get over all of you, how to find closure when it just isn't possible. And then I realise that each time I think of you all, I'd off myself if the SN were in front of me.

I may be foregoing emails/letters (but suicide is selfish and I'm crazy anyways) because I can't say anything that would make up for what I'm going to do and apparently you all think i'm fine on my own. I'll just look over photos, read old emails and remember the good and the bad times. That pushes me over the edge and, with the mixtures in front of me, it will push me to drink and drink and drink...
 
icanhasnick

icanhasnick

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Sep 3, 2020
Messages
164
I spent hours in the middle of the night trying to plan how to include you after I'm gone. I found a way and was ready to put that in place until I realised that it's probably best if you aren't included at all - that that part of my life (the biggest part) you represent and all of the people involved just doesn't know if I'm alive or dead.

That you can live thinking I'm just a flake who fled. That would be best, I think. For now, anyways...
 
ItsOverIsntIt

ItsOverIsntIt

Veteran
Joined
Sep 9, 2020
Messages
177
To my mom: I hate that you care so much about my grades. They aren't bad and I am trying my best. Maybe you shouldn't have forced me to take such hard classes that I am not interested in and don't like. I am trying my best but I cant stand you breathing down my neck just because I didn't get that 100%. Why cant you see that I am trying and every time you make a comment about my work you make me feel so bad about myself and it makes me put even less effort into my next assignment because I know I can never live up to your impossible standards.
 
woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Angelic
Joined
Aug 19, 2019
Messages
2,365
Killing me will bring about your own death from dementia in the midst of your hoarding in good time. I just know it looking at you.
 
Blank Dreamer

Blank Dreamer

Seeker of Dreams
Joined
Sep 12, 2020
Messages
48
"Hey,
It's been awhile. I hope you're doing well... wherever you are... It's been awhile since you left us. I was meaning to come and visit you but... well things don't look to well on this entire world right now. At least you're not here to experience it, heh... I know you've heard me say this from up there but I still cannot say it enough. I wish it was me, instead of you. I should've been the one to die, not you. I wish I knew what caused you to take your life. It was a huge surprise to everyone. I saw you weeks prior after years of not seeing you. You seemed the same happy and silly girl from previous... You had an excellent career and so many people who loved you. Having so many opportunities to see the world and gain so much. Yet... why? Your leaving is the only one that has affected me this much...

i didn't want to attend your funeral... because I felt like I didn't have a right to be there. I was never close to you compared to others but... I'm glad... to have attended either way. It's just, I couldn't walk up to see you in that coffin. I guess a part of me didn't want to believe it. Seeing so many people attend and mourn for you... It really hurts me. Seeing your sister trying to speak... was all too difficult. Maybe I'm being selfish... comparing myself to you. I don't have that many people care for me. I don't deserve to continue living. For someone that isn't doing much in life, why am I still living and you don't? I don't get it... it's not fair.

Seeing your coffin being placed six feet under... *sigh* I know what you're saying... You don't want me to leave either. I know you don't want that of me. But.. I'm afraid I can't do that. One day... I'll come and see you up there. We can catch up more properly than previously. I'm sorry... and I miss you. We all do... Rest well..."
 
Morphinekiss

Morphinekiss

don’t know how to leave or how to stay
Joined
Jun 8, 2019
Messages
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I’m sorry I never told you I loved you.
 
coeur.brisé

coeur.brisé

Illuminated
Joined
Jun 4, 2020
Messages
1,347
I'm only going to say this once - to your face or to a screen instead of your face:

You are the only person in the world who made me listen as you told me, in no uncertain terms, that you "love" me and "haven't abandoned" me! You MADE me believe you! Beut you have abandoned me. In no uncertain terms.

I know "it's not fair" that I need you and I know that I'm only good enough to be left behind. It's my fault for believing you almost a year ago. My fault. And now, my problem.
 
Nessie

Nessie

Cynical
Joined
Aug 23, 2020
Messages
230
I don't owe you anything. No one owes you anything. No one is obligated to put effort into making you happy, everyone has a right to have their own life regardless of whether it makes you feel upset. You are loved by many people, but if you keep telling everyone "this isn't enough, I demand more", you will push even more people away. I'm sorry, but it's true
 
Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Joined
Aug 21, 2019
Messages
1,543
To my father (deceased):

The times I've spent with you growing up were my life's greatest moments, but you were completely worthless in your role as "Father." You were never a parent to me but only a buddy, and I was too easy on you before I had learned of your failures.

To my mother:

God, you are so stupid. You are really really fucking stupid.
 
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I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
Joined
Jul 22, 2020
Messages
521
I hate you.

I never knew hate until you nestled yourself in my life. Until you shouted and hit me the first time. Today you yelled at me so much, I threw up in the bathroom and cried there all evening. Now my stomach aches so badly.

I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.

But more than that I hate myself for not being strong enough to kill myself.
 
141592653

141592653

TW She/Her
Joined
Aug 9, 2020
Messages
40
Dear humanity,
You hide behing your morality and your false pretents. But all you say is flat, all you think is boring, all you do is pointless, as this sentence is. I cared about you and I believed in you. I don't believe in my humanity though, I don't wanna be a part of this. I don't want to enjoy a glass of sparkling water watching my green peas grow forgetting that the single fact that I exist is a burden for millions of people who are dying because of the occidental world. But I cannot endorse all this pain either. So goodbye cruel world... I won't miss you, hope you won't miss me.
Sincerely not yours,
@141592653
 
woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Angelic
Joined
Aug 19, 2019
Messages
2,365
Fuck your hollywood face and deep-seated self-loathing. You should loathe yourself, too, not that you are wrong in that. Dishonorable twat.
 

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