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catalepsy

catalepsy

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Tempered glass explodes when you ding a corner of it against a steel beam. If that's the case, wouldn't it make more sense to call it untempered glass? When you work with this stuff for long enough, you notice that everybody around you has begun to adopt the qualities of the glass. They're fickle and quick to shatter.
 
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I often think that I should just give up planning and stand in front of a train.
 
Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
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me ages 16-26: "Golly gee, wouldn't it be swell if I were to blow my brains out? :ahhha:"

me ages 27-now: "I am going to blow my fucking brains out! :'("
 
WOODESITY

WOODESITY

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Yesterday night, I was hanging out with my roommate and one guy who comes around, subject of having kids was brought up and i couldn't resist to tell them that by creating life you're imposing suffering on someone and it's never right thing to do, it's sad that people just want to have kids, life is nothing but suffering and things that seem good are satisfaction of some deprivation, looking at this life as it is, life isn't worth going through
 
nnnerve

nnnerve

im so depressed i cant even blink
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It feels like I'm running out of time and that's such a relief to me. My patience is wearing thinner and thinner all the time.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
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It’s 6 am and the sun still isn’t out yet. I’m too scared to sleep in the dark and the lights in my room always hurt to sleep in. I need natural daylight to feel safe enough to sleep but also I’m really hungry but I’m too scared to get out of my blanket. What the hell is wrong with me I’m a 26 year old man afraid of the dark and afraid of all the internet creepy stuff that scares me I am so scared right now I feel like it could all be real I also need to go to the bathroom but I can’t I’m too scared. If I sleep too late I won’t have enough time to take my Online test tomorrow That’s due by 5 pm I hate being this scared what if when I go to sleep I get sleep paralysis.
 
ItsOverIsntIt

ItsOverIsntIt

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I am so annoyed by my brother lately. He hasnt done anything, but when he comes into my room and asks for something or just talks to me it makes me want to punch him in the face. I dont know what brought this on but I irrationally hate him and it makes me feel bad.
 
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Tired. Slept poorly, had a bunch of bizarre dreams. Feeling tense, probably it will get loud again...

Fortunately I fell asleep again. Had a nice, healthy meal (aside from eating pure peanut butter). But it seems the neighbors making noise again... ugh
 
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Morphinekiss

Morphinekiss

don’t know how to leave or how to stay
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I feel like kicking someone’s trash can over, which is a very weird occurrence that signals I’m about to flip into some rage cycle.

or I’m just exhausted.
 
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Reading these goodbye threads make me sad. I think about their mental and physical pain, their last thoughts, if they changed their mind when it was too late, when/if their bodies are found, about their relatives, their pets...

I honestly can't imagine that the SN method is a peaceful way to go.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
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My stomach really hurts probably because I ate too much food again. I would like my weight to be gone but I can’t bear to imagine what suffering id have to go through to get there. Knowing myself, I’d even find ways to miss being fat like probably some bullshit about how I’ve already adapted to having a huge stomach so my balance would be off if I lost it. Sometimes I also appreciate being fat because I’m trying to use it as a deterrent because I’m so afraid I’ll hurt people who want to get near me.
 
StrokeMyEgoBaby

StrokeMyEgoBaby

Ask, you will receive; Seek, you shall find.
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I went on tik tok to find some entertainment,
And this random guy orders something at drive through,
Says “I want to kill myself”

Proof law of attraction is real lmao.
 
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StrokeMyEgoBaby

StrokeMyEgoBaby

Ask, you will receive; Seek, you shall find.
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I went on til tok to find some entertainment,
And this random guy orders something at drive through,
Says “I want to kill myself”

Proof law of attraction is real lmao.
Few minutes later another random Tik tok video on nail polish:

“Don’t kill yourself
I might!“
 
StrokeMyEgoBaby

StrokeMyEgoBaby

Ask, you will receive; Seek, you shall find.
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I’m seeing things that reflect current me,
In miraculously mysterious ways,
I’ve really gotta change how I think
before my worst fears materialize.

It’s never too late to seek change.
Save yourself from the vicious cycle.
 
ItsOverIsntIt

ItsOverIsntIt

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I got some stickers that I ordered in the mail today. They made me happy for a little while. But im struggling to find happiness in other things I just feel bad all the time and literally the highlight of my day was just getting some stickers. What??
 
C

Compodulator

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A coworker of mine has constructed a nice insult about another coworker: sometimes good thoughts chase him, it's just that he's faster.
Let me clarify, the guy we're talking about here is a dumbass of previously unknown, thought to be impossible caliber!
 
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http-410

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Bored, tired, sitting in this dark room, it's too warm and humid outside.

Well, I have to get ready and be productive, even if I'm not in the mood. I don't want to go outside.
 
throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
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I just puked.All the stress in my life, my stomach can't seem to keep up. What am I even doing to myself. I should rest but there's no time to rest. I've been long considering a break ...maybe I'll take it. I hope there is going to be a lockdown soon. I need the break. man the lockdown a couple of months ago was godsent. best thing that ever happened to me. there was a study in the uk and it said most people wanted the lockdown to continue. working/schooling from home is nice. the US is really bad. people lost their jobs and i feel that they are sliding into becoming a third world country. if they arent already. its only a matter of time until it hits the rest of the developing world. the good years are over. :(
 
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Spent 2 hours to help someone out, went home, felt like before. No matter what I do, it makes no difference anymore. I'm going to do some exercises now and guess what: afterwards I will feel exactly the same as before, maybe a little bit more tired.
 
BitterlyAlive

BitterlyAlive

Tired of the pain.
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What did I do to deserve this again? I thought you would be different, but you ended up being just like everyone else. People end up liking me for some reason until they see who I really am, then they distance themselves and eventually just drop me. This happens again and again. It gets to the point where I feel scared and sick to my stomach if people seem like they actually want to talk.

It's really just more evidence that I should kill myself; it's proof that I'm toxic and people are better off without me in their lives. Obviously this isn't one of the main reasons for my suicide, but it's just a background trend in my life that's awfully discouraging.

And this isn't against anyone on here. The compliment thread as well as general interactions with people on here shows me that y'all are real and mean what you say. It just literally hurts knowing people care.
Spent 2 hours to help someone out, went home, felt like before. No matter what I do, it makes no difference anymore. I'm going to do some exercises now and guess what: afterwards I will feel exactly the same as before, maybe a little bit more tired.
I understand how you feel.
 

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