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Taetre

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It came down to just that ONE choice...i keep telling myself, but im pretty certain life wasn't meant for me. Time to end it.
 
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blanketyblk

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A really good bra is like a little strait-jacket restraining my stupid boobs.
but boobs can never be stupid.. boobies are the second best part of being female.. yep definitely gay. but I hear you on bra's, those things are just evil. got my hair cause in the clasp on one a few weeks back and fook did it hurt. and speaking of hair i can't find my last silk scrunchie.. think i my cat might of pinched it.
 
not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
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but boobs can never be stupid.. boobies are the second best part of being female.. yep definitely gay. but I hear you on bra's, those things are just evil. got my hair cause in the clasp on one a few weeks back and fook did it hurt. and speaking of hair i can't find my last silk scrunchie.. think i my cat might of pinched it.
I'm trans. Never needed them, never wanted them, a constant source of misery, compounded by the fact other people think they are wonderful, and thinks they can convince me that they're wonderful.
Imagine having two footballs permanently attached to your face, when you fucking *hate* football.
And the footballs are all anybody ever sees when they look at you. And they constantly demand to play football with you.
You're not even a person. You're just their fucking football.

That's how boobs feel to me. Try to ask docs to remove them, and all I get is idiotic lectures about how lucky I am to have them. Total Suicide Fuel.
 
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blanketyblk

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I'm trans. Never needed them, never wanted them, a constant source of misery, compounded by the fact other people think they are wonderful, and thinks they can convince me that they're wonderful.
Imagine having two footballs permanently attached to your face, when you fucking *hate* football.
And the footballs are all anybody ever sees when they look at you. And they constantly demand to play football with you.
You're not even a person. You're just their fucking football.

That's how boobs feel to me. Try to ask docs to remove them, and all I get is idiotic lectures about how lucky I am to have them. Total Suicide Fuel.
ahh ok. for that point, yes those are evil for you. and doctors being gatekeepers are just grrr. hugs
 
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laila888

laila888

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I'm trans. Never needed them, never wanted them, a constant source of misery, compounded by the fact other people think they are wonderful, and thinks they can convince me that they're wonderful.
Imagine having two footballs permanently attached to your face, when you fucking *hate* football.
And the footballs are all anybody ever sees when they look at you. And they constantly demand to play football with you.
You're not even a person. You're just their fucking football.

That's how boobs feel to me. Try to ask docs to remove them, and all I get is idiotic lectures about how lucky I am to have them. Total Suicide Fuel.
I totally agree, I hate my boobs too. Wish I could have them removed.
 
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not_a_robot

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I totally agree, I hate my boobs too. Wish I could have them removed.
it's so frustrating because I see all these trans ppl in the "acceptance" movement getting it done with no hassle, even before adulthood, but all I've got is 20 years of medical notes saying:
"She wants to be mutilated, talks about self harm, she is crazy, don't listen to a fucking word she says."
 
ldlzrs

ldlzrs

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I totally agree, I hate my boobs too. Wish I could have them removed.
I feel the same way too. But I've noticed I only hate them when I go outside. People treat me like a ditsy sex doll with boobs and not a person. But when I'm alone at home, I don't even notice them, same way I don't notice my feet or my belly. Same with my super thick body hair. I couldn't care less if I look like a wookie. But society treats it like it's shameful and monstrous. I hate society. I hate everyone.
 
not_a_robot

not_a_robot

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I feel the same way too. But I've noticed I only hate them when I go outside. People treat me like a ditsy sex doll with boobs and not a person. But when I'm alone at home, I don't even notice them, same way I don't notice my feet or my belly. Same with my super thick body hair. I couldn't care less if I look like a wookie. But society treats it like it's shameful and monstrous. I hate society. I hate everyone.
A book called Bound mentions how women who just want mastectomy often have to fake being trans in order to get doctors to approve it, because our society worships boobs so much.
We are not alone.
 
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Going Home

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“Don’t speak to her in English”. Random abusers and abuser supporters go away.

Thank God for this site where most people are real and supportive.
 
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Rukia

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So angry and bitter...and burdening random ppl with it, while the ppl who should be chatting with me now and cheer me up are having good time and dont know about anything...will have to politely go to bed...tommorow maybe again be pointlessly angry...that is sth to look forward to lol...
 
not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
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In 70 years, nobody will remember me or even have known me. All I lived will have disappeared. No memories. Nothing left, even a grave, no more name.
And also millions of others who died before you and will die after you.
 
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Rukia

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Bought a four pack of mango flavoured beer :meh: It is untasty...loool...even that... against me...Have to drink it now, was pricey...:pfff:
 
Help_Me

Help_Me

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I really don't know what's going on. I am getting crabby and nervous with almost no reason. I thought my last anger episodes ended in 2015. The only thing which makes me feel calm is thinking about my funeral and the burial processes itself. This is not forum of crazy people and i don't know why i am telling you that, but today i literally heard voices which sounded like some soft lullaby. The problem is ... there was no source of it. It was all in my head. They were so silent, yet i heard them. I am worrying right now. Am i slowly losing my mind ?
 
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Jolene40

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Erykah Badu is bad ass. She did a performance at the last Soul Train Awards that was unbelievable.
I used to listen to Badu all the time when I was a student. Lovely voice
 
Ruffian

Ruffian

Jumpin Jack Flash, it’s a gas gas gas
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Reminds me of that movie with Jim Carey
Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind - one of my faves
When I'm dead, I'm never again gonna be annoyed by having to poop or pee at an inconvenient time.
YAS!!!!!
Aaron Rodgers gorgeous face and fine ass. Is that Politically Incorrect? Because for me, football season is a reason to live at times.
 
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suffering

Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
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Why did you give birth to me, mother? What demon hunted you? What hellish thought made you throw me into this hell? Biological calling? Society pressure? Boredom? Desire to have a slave for old age? You were're stupid and impulsive that the others, you weren't even optimistic and you weren't even very young! You already knew how the world works, you already saw hypocrisy, cowardice, manipulation, old age, you saw it all, you vile woman! And yet you sentenced me to life!
I hate all the parents in the world, each and everyone of them! They're nothing but the devil himself!
 
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Ricks

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When you're happy and healthy everyone loves you. When you get sick and have chronic pain everyone leaves. Survival of the fittest I suppose...
 

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