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Orin

Orin

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If human cloning becomes acceptable in society, will this mean human life becomes more expendable, leading to pro-choice becoming mainstream?

I could imagine parents saving the DNA of their child and in case the child ctb, they'd just clone him/her. Sounds absolutely cold-blooded but i'd rather have this than no pro-choice.
 
not_a_robot

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Psychiatrists are all just psychopaths who want to fuck with people, and the fact that they are trusted with peoples' mental health is the reason why our society is so monstrously fucked up.
They are not the solution, they're the fucking problem. If a dystopian apocalypse occurred, I hope they'd be purged right before me, so I could watch their scourge be wiped off the planet.
But that would never happen. This already is the dystopian apocalypse, and the shrinks won't be purged because they are the architects of the whole ugly mess.
 
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Scribble Fan

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Sometimes I wonder what life's like as a psychopath. Not because of all the scary nonsense but for the lack of emotion that pins me down. No anxiety, depression, self hatred, or worries. Just confidence. Sounds bizzare but almost desirable. Then gain, they're monsters so I'm sure the reality would be a lot uglier than my fantasy ideal.
 
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I saw a post on Twitter about how a truck driver 'saved' a suicidal boy. I didn't read it all, but scrolled through the comments. "A truck driver is more effective than a psychologist", "especially if he is carrying mozzarella", etc. They take this so lightly! What do they know about that boy's problems? His sufferings? His life? His philosophical views? HAHAHA HE LIVES FOR MOZZARELLA LIFE IS SO SIMPLE AND JOYFUL HAHAHA WE ARE SO SMART HERE ON OUR HIGH HORSE MAKING JUDGMENTS ABOUT LIFE HAHAHA
What the fuck do they know? What good did it do to that boy to live? What suffering awaits him (at worst) and what boredom(at best)?
Fuck you, world. Fuck you, with all your arrogant 'intellectuals' and piece of shit, with all your lack of compassion, empathy and reason! I would destroy this planet in an instant, if I could.
 
SinisterKid

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How random is random and when does it stop being random and become premeditated, or subconscious? All I do know is, that chicken smells freakin delicious and that aint random, its freakin true :haha:
 
not_a_robot

not_a_robot

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Sometimes I wonder what life's like as a psychopath. Not because of all the scary nonsense but for the lack of emotion that pins me down. No anxiety, depression, self hatred, or worries. Just confidence. Sounds bizzare but almost desirable. Then gain, they're monsters so I'm sure the reality would be a lot uglier than my fantasy ideal.
You can get that confidence when you truly give up and stop giving a shit about everything, it's very liberating.
It doesn't have to include the psychopathic need to hurt others though (but it will infuriate everyone who doesn't have it, they get sooo jealous).
 
not_a_robot

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I'm sick of emotions. They ruin me, and I thought they were supposed to be on my side? Guide me? What are they for? All they do is hurt.
Emotions are just neurochemicals whose purpose is to ensure that you breed.
Loneliness? Just a neurochemical to make you crave closeness, which leads to breeding.
Anger? Just a neurochemical to make you aggressive, which leads to breeding.
Happiness? wait, what's that? I'm not familiar with that one.

I say this because sometimes seeing emotions this way can help loosen their grip on you and let you breathe.
Sometimes.
Do you like fiction?
This story puts it in a pharmaceutical context but it also shows what the chemicals from your own body are doing to you all the time.
 
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Scribble Fan

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Emotions are just neurochemicals whose purpose is to ensure that you breed.
Loneliness? Just a neurochemical to make you crave closeness, which leads to breeding.
Anger? Just a neurochemical to make you aggressive, which leads to breeding.
Happiness? wait, what's that? I'm not familiar with that one.

I say this because sometimes seeing emotions this way can help loosen their grip on you and let you breathe.
Sometimes.
Do you like fiction?
This story puts it in a pharmaceutical context but it also shows what the chemicals from your own body are doing to you all the time.
That story kind of scared me, haha. It was a good one though!

It's nice to see emotions as something more... meaningless, I guess? They seem a bit less powerful this way. Thanks for sharing!
 
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Why do the survivors in apocalypse movies want to keep living? I seriously don't understand that. The world is 1000 times worse, resources are even more limited, your friends and family are dead or will die soon, the survivors don't care about anyone but themselves and there's no perspective of getting better, so why bother?
 
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One more year has passed. What good did it do to me that I lived? For what? Same old BS, same old struggle, same old false hopes. A miserable witness of a despicable show. Older. I've seen an old man barely walking today and for the first time I felt envy. Ah, to be so close to death! If I would get cancer I would refuse treatment.
 
Johnnythefox

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There's a guy on twitter just now threatening suicide, he's got 17k followers and helps those in need, I wonder what the outcome will be? Looks to be in his 50's.
 
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Nutcase

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Drinking again tonight, feeling good, knowing that I should be getting ready for ctb but convincing myself I'll just drink/do drugs until I'm dead even though I know that road is full of suffering and isn't just the good times, fuck, when will I learn.
 
not_a_robot

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Why do the survivors in apocalypse movies want to keep living? I seriously don't understand that. The world is 1000 times worse, resources are even more limited, your friends and family are dead or will die soon, the survivors don't care about anyone but themselves and there's no perspective of getting better, so why bother?
Stubbornness.
 
Burzolog

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No matter how look, what you say, think or do, there will be people who aren't acquainted with you yet but they already have all the hatred and contempt they could concentrate reserved for you. And the opposite might be true as well. If we could meet every single person with every other, even within the confines of a city or a district, every one might get a personal fan club.
 
Bagger

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Going to work tomorrow, shitty season job after many years of stagnation but maybe it'll do some good. Maybe this can stop me thinking for few hours. I hope so.
 
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Scribble Fan

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I'm... exhausted from all this. I don't see why I'm still here, not for any reasons of my own. My brother is beloved, cherished more than anything, but my world is hollow. I feel so pretend. Either I'm utterly vacant of emotion or there's so much there it's an earthquake of rage and hurt.

Occasionally I forget how broken I am before being sharply reminded of reality. My goals collapse and my ambitions turn to dust only to be replaced only sleep, time and again. I wish there was someone to protect me in life, I can't do it myself. I miss believing there was a god. Now I'd rather hide away from the horrors existence and everything it promises.

This site holds more sentiment and meaning than life ever has. I love this forum and everyone who comes here.
 
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It's always the people who are inferior to you who try to bring you down. By definition.
 
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SinisterKid

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I just want to go to sleep, a very very deep sleep and not wake up. Is it really too much to ask? I dont want to burden people or have anyone cry about it, I am just so tired and want to rest, preferably for a long time, or at least have some form of existence where I dont feel the life is being drained out of me constantly.
 
Burzolog

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When your eyesight is blurred by tears, you can wipe them, and the sight is clear again. Or you can wait for tears to pile up and flow out, and your sight is clear again. Sometimes a mere inaction can lead the situation to the desired outcome. It's not enough in mine.
 
Scribble Fan

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I've been reading my younger brother's birthday cards to me because I want to ctb with them in my hand but instead of helping they're tormenting me:

"Thank you for being the greatest brother ever. I will forever cherish the fun we have." Then he drew some old in-jokes and lots of hugs and kisses. The next card was chock full of more jokes and pictures that made me smile and appreciate him. He even hand drew all the balloons and confetti.

Why did I have to be given this punishment of a life? Broken into a million pieces and scattered throughout the depths of the ocean. Burned into ash then given to the wind. Yet after all this I have the most golden brother I could ever wish for and in order to escape my agony I have to abandon him when he's the only thing that matters to me.

I'm not sure I'll have the strength to ctb tomorrow.
 
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I recently made major downgrades in my life in order to be able to save money. I sometimes sit on the edge of my bed and I just think and talk to myself. I never thought I would end up like this.
 
Orin

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The medical industry states that depression is a disease. But is it really?

Or is it merely the natural consequence of realizing the truth of one's situation, and a sort of catalyst to do something about it?
 
Roger

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The medical industry states that depression is a disease. But is it really?

Or is it merely the natural consequence of realizing the truth of one's situation, and a sort of catalyst to do something about it?
It’s neither one nor the other exclusively. There’s a genuine difference between clinical depression and situational depression.
 
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Was sitting at a bar having a meal and a drink and thought 'what the fuck and i doing here and whats the point' so left my meal and went home.
 
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Was sitting at a bar having a meal and a drink and thought 'what the fuck and i doing here and whats the point' so left my meal and went home.
I think the same but the dinner always comes home too.
 
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