Psych drugs ruined me

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I can almost guarantee that 90% of the drugs everyone on here is taking are making them suicidal and causing symptoms.

Akathisia is the worst thing a human can go through. I've had GAD all my life but I would take that back any day to not experience the hell of benzo and remeron withdrawal/brain damage.

I've been In hell for 2 years and counting.

I've tried to fight to win but I give up.

I'm days/weeks away from suicide.

Never had a suicidal thought in my life until these drugs ruined my life.
 
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It’s so fascinating how one can be prescribed something to alleviate a thing but science can’t explain the mechanism it uses to achieve the affect.

I can’t remember the med it was for but do definitely remember the verbal disclaimer saying they weren’t sure how it did what it did.

So these other meds with suicidal side effects—makes you wonder how exactly they produce these meds. Their clinical trials must have been—murder.
 
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I can almost guarantee that 90% of the drugs everyone on here is taking are making them suicidal and causing symptoms.

Akathisia is the worst thing a human can go through. I've had GAD all my life but I would take that back any day to not experience the hell of benzo and remeron withdrawal/brain damage.

I've been In hell for 2 years and counting.

I've tried to fight to win but I give up.

I'm days/weeks away from suicide.

Never had a suicidal thought in my life until these drugs ruined my life.
i believe it. same in my experience. antidepressants/benzos completely ruined my life. Are you planning on withdrawal?
 
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Bro, no shit. I took a short dose of steroids and have been suicidal ever since. This was only two months ago. I had never thought about suicide until recently after I took those. It’s like something in me flipped and now I think about it every fucking day. I hate it.
 
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I am currently being treated with Clonazepam and sertraline for my depression and anxiety. To be honest, I always thought of suicide as an option in my life, but since I am in psychiatric treatment I think everything has taken a big step forward, now I think about dying every day and I already have in mind the methods I could use, I have also written notes and held a sawed-off shotgun in front of my eyes, I had never come this far.

I have not told anyone this out of fear, nor have I told my psychiatrist, I really don't want to alarm anyone and end up in some horrible hospital
 
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I am currently being treated with Clonazepam and sertraline for my depression and anxiety. To be honest, I always thought of suicide as an option in my life, but since I am in psychiatric treatment I think everything has taken a big step forward, now I think about dying every day and I already have in mind the methods I could use, I have also written notes and held a sawed-off shotgun in front of my eyes, I had never come this far.

I have not told anyone this out of fear, nor have I told my psychiatrist, I really don't want to alarm anyone and end up in some horrible hospital
I know the feeling, which is why I refuse to take anxiety and depression medication.
I know the feeling, which is why I refuse to take anxiety and depression medication.
It is so weird though that they want you to take these stupid medications and then expect you not to want to do anything. You are brave not alarming anyone. This is me as well and I think that these drugs will not only mess me up physically but also emotionally.
 
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I am currently being treated with Clonazepam and sertraline for my depression and anxiety. To be honest, I always thought of suicide as an option in my life, but since I am in psychiatric treatment I think everything has taken a big step forward, now I think about dying every day and I already have in mind the methods I could use, I have also written notes and held a sawed-off shotgun in front of my eyes, I had never come this far.

I have not told anyone this out of fear, nor have I told my psychiatrist, I really don't want to alarm anyone and end up in some horrible hospital
clonazapam was a bitch to w/d from.. used to take it for severe panic attacks and it would help the symptoms but the problem is that the drugs never address the real issues
 
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I know the feeling, which is why I refuse to take anxiety and depression medication.

It is so weird though that they want you to take these stupid medications and then expect you not to want to do anything. You are brave not alarming anyone. This is me as well and I think that these drugs will not only mess me up physically but also emotionally.
I had thought of suicide all throughout my life, but just passively. Now after taking those steroids I think about it and more actively. I now have notes and other things specifying how it’ll be done. It’s horrible. It’s so weird I can only imagine what those other drugs will do to me so I won’t be taking them.
 
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clonazapam was a bitch to w/d from.. used to take it for severe panic attacks and it would help the symptoms but the problem is that the drugs never address the real issues
These medications are very contradictory if you read the package insert carefully. That really alarms me a lot because I don't know what kind of treatment or health professional to trust
 
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Akathisia is hell and it seems to be a permanent condition that waxes and wanes unpredictably over a lifetime, in my experience and the experience of others, at least. It's a porly understood condtion, because doctors see it as hysteria and an exacerbation of pre-existing mental illness.

Psychiatrists, MDs and anyone else who has the authority to prescirbe drugs should be put under a microscope with the sun's blazing beams piercing through the lens - illuminating every milimeter of movement and decision making process that these potential criminals make.

I am a victim of iatrogenic damage and medical malfeasance of the highest orders. Akathisia, imo, is just the beginning. For most patients who develop akathisia, they go on to just get prescribed more and more drugs to coverup the brain damage the doctor(s) are directly responsible for. Then next comes invasive diagnostic tests that further damage the organs, x-ray radiation to give you a healthy dose of cancer, unecessary surgeries, then ruthless gaslighting once they have completely raped and defiled your precious physical body.
 
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These medications are very contradictory if you read the package insert carefully. That really alarms me a lot because I don't know what kind of treatment or health professional to trust
I dont believe in the ‘chemical imabalance’ myth that the docs try to say. However it could for a small percent of people but not the vast majority. When I first got on meds I was never told to try therapy or anything first.. nope just meds. LOL then once I had a horrible interaction with my SSRI (serotonin syndrome) and had to leave work and go to the ER and the doctor didn't believe me and just prescribed me benzos because he said it was properly just my aniexty... so reatarded..gave them 1 star. Had to go elsewhere to get a liver test and stuff. But yeah the industry isn’t the best.. but there is a some good doctors out there who understand the weight of these drugs they are just hard to find
 
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Yes, i feel the same.

I started taking psychiatric medications when was only 12 years old, i was a child who had an imagination considered "abnormal", i also didn't know how to deal with my traumas, couldn't hide my dissatisfaction or act like a normal child at school. The doctor prescribed me Risperidone, which I used for 3 or 4 years. Without therapy or social help, psychiatrists didn't want to know about my real problems, just prescribe medications like candys.

During the use of Risperidone, i somehow died. Lost my concentration and my ways of expressing myself by 99%, i couldn't do anything i liked anymore, i felt weak, my most basic feelings seemed asleep. It was a very strong medication for me, the first time took it, i was sleeping for so long… I felt my body so heavy that couldn't get out of bed for days. I ended up failing school, my grades were very low. Lost a lot of memories, i feel like it fucked my head somehow. After a few years, i started therapy and psychiatrists changed my medications so many times that i don't even remember anymore.

It makes me cry and makes me furious, i see that everything i needed was help and feeling me welcome. A family member had sexually abused me at the age of eight, and i did not receive the simplest help from my parents. I grew up in a home completely alone, my parents were never at home when i got hurt or felt bad, Mom was at work and Dad was with other women. At nine years old, i was already taking care of my little brother, i carried responsibilities that were not mine, alone. The Risperidone made me forget my problems, but it made me forget my feelings too.

Currently, i abandoned the medications, but i don't know how to deal with my feelings. I carry many emotions that didn't learn how to express them and when i try to express them i am considered crazy, pessimistic or simply a monster. My panic attacks are very strong, and it is impossible for me not to be hospitalized or medicated every two months.

I feel my mother pressing me to take medications, people in my family also take it and say it is good for them, and they think it will work for me, they say it as if they were professionals in the field. I have used many medications, and even though none of them work for me, i am found guilty. They say it is my fault, because i do not accept "help"... What kind of help is it that harms me and sickens more than it really helps me?

This is crazy, why doesn't anyone want to hear before they judge? Shit.
 
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I can almost guarantee that 90% of the drugs everyone on here is taking are making them suicidal and causing symptoms
At a certain dose, Lithium completely erased my suicidal ideation. My psychiatrist tells me its the only drug proven to help that.

Unfortunately, my body couldn't tolerate that amount long and I showed toxic levels, so we had to decrease. The lower dose dulls it a bit, I guess, but everything came back. No side effects, though.

My current psych meds would probably help in general, if I just took them consistently. But I can't right now. I don't know why.
 
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@k75 I felt a little better when I used lithium too, but I noticed bad differences in my appearance. I was very thirsty and drank a lot of water all the time, I noticed weight gain and I felt very bad when I looked in the mirror. My hair fell a lot too...

Did it happen to you?
 
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@k75 I felt a little better when I used lithium too, but I noticed bad differences in my appearance. I was very thirsty and drank a lot of water all the time, I noticed weight gain and I felt very bad when I looked in the mirror. My hair fell a lot too...

Did it happen to you?
I believe those are all symptoms of lithium toxicity. Were you being monitored by blood work?

I didn't have any side effects at all, but we caught things early both times it happened. When my labs were good, I didn't ever notice anything unusual. I've been on it for a couple of years at various doses. I'm just frustrated that I've experienced it truly working and can't safely take enough.
 
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I believe those are all symptoms of lithium toxicity. Were you being monitored by blood work?

I didn't have any side effects at all, but we caught things early both times it happened. When my labs were good, I didn't ever notice anything unusual. I've been on it for a couple of years at various doses. I'm just frustrated that I've experienced it truly working and can't safely take enough.
Can be it. I did the tests, but when the pandemic arrived, the clinic closed without warning and I didn't know about it. It's a little difficult too, consultations with the psychiatrist and lithium are very expensive in my country, so I ended up giving up.

Hope the labs work again for you, my best wishes.
 
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Can be it. I did the tests, but when the pandemic arrived, the clinic closed without warning and I didn't know about it. It's a little difficult too, consultations with the psychiatrist and lithium are very expensive in my country, so I ended up giving up.

Hope the labs work again for you, my best wishes.
That really sucks! I'm sorry. Maybe some time you could try again?

It's ridiculous this stuff is too expensive and out of reach for people who benefit. It's a bit much here, but way cheaper than most of my other meds. If I didn't have insurance, it would be $23. Not bad, when you compare it to my $300 Zofran and gabapentin.
 
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I know the feeling, which is why I refuse to take anxiety and depression medication.

It is so weird though that they want you to take these stupid medications and then expect you not to want to do anything. You are brave not alarming anyone. This is me as well and I think that these drugs will not only mess me up physically but also emotionally.
I’ve told therapists I was suicidal. Nothing ever happened but then I’ve also told them my life story, so they probably understand
 
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I've been off medication for 10 years, it brought my mind clarity. Drugs helped a little bit, but I think my mind was already on death before medicines were involved.
 
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I’ve told therapists I was suicidal. Nothing ever happened but then I’ve also told them my life story, so they probably understand
I always tell my therapists upfront that I have constant suicidal ideation. They ask if I intend to act on it or if I have a plan, and I say no. And I've never been sectioned. It's ok to have thoughts; they just need to know you aren't going to hurt yourself after you leave.

I figure if I'm bothering to do therapy, I might as well let them know what to help me with.
 
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I just feel dumber.No other side effects so far.
 
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I am currently being treated with Clonazepam and sertraline for my depression and anxiety. To be honest, I always thought of suicide as an option in my life, but since I am in psychiatric treatment I think everything has taken a big step forward, now I think about dying every day and I already have in mind the methods I could use, I have also written notes and held a sawed-off shotgun in front of my eyes, I had never come this far.

I have not told anyone this out of fear, nor have I told my psychiatrist, I really don't want to alarm anyone and end up in some horrible hospital
It's a scary place to be knowing that what you're feeling and thinking could land you in a hospital when you're already suffering. Don't get me wrong, sometimes they help, but other times it's more harm than good.
 
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I believe those are all symptoms of lithium toxicity. Were you being monitored by blood work?

I didn't have any side effects at all, but we caught things early both times it happened. When my labs were good, I didn't ever notice anything unusual. I've been on it for a couple of years at various doses. I'm just frustrated that I've experienced it truly working and can't safely take enough.
Have u tried liver supplements? I take tudca all the time.. it keeps the liver from getting overwhelmed with toxicity. keeps ast alt values down.. also bodybuilders take it religiously when they do a steroid cycle. They swear by it
Also maybe get some probiotics and prebiotics to keep the gut healthy.. that's a major detox pathway as well
 
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Have u tried liver supplements? I take tudca all the time.. it keeps the liver from getting overwhelmed with toxicity. keeps ast alt values down.. also bodybuilders take it religiously when they do a steroid cycle. They swear by it
Also maybe get some probiotics and prebiotics to keep the gut healthy.. that's a major detox pathway as well
I've never taken liver supplements, but that's a great suggestion. I hadn't thought of it. Thank you. I'll research that and see if it's something I could try.

I'm on lots of gut health stuff, because I have some GI conditions. So good there.
 
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Magnesium is great to make your brain heal.
If you tired of popping pills and you have the munchies, pumkin seeds are a excellent source of Magnesium.

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Me too. SSRIs destroyed my brain and body and I'm worse off than before I started. They are fucking poison
Fuck SSRIs I hated them made me feel fucking weird
 
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SSRIs and psych drugs robbed me of my sexuality and emotions fuck them!!!!
 
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