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Bluesummers

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Mar 16, 2020
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Hi everybody, I'm a 33 old man from Italy, sorry for my english.

I suffer from clinical mixed depression (treated with 3 drugs) and recently i'm having problems with a nasty panic attack disorder that is still not under control and I don't know if it is going to be so.
Moreover, I have a lot of other problems like existential depression, difficulties in having a sentimental relationship, not liking adulthood and the perspective of oldness and many more.

I don't know if I wanna continue on this way, so I'd like to have at least the chance of stopping my life in the next years.

I read on this forum that someone here have the contact of a serious N seller, I was asking myself if someone could give me this contact, maybe by private mail.

I'm so scared about other methods, I'm afraid of suffering and/or not being able to kill myself.

Thank you
 
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Bluesummers

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Mar 16, 2020
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I've read it but I didn't find any useful suggestion on how getting N, apart from travelling worldwide. Maybe I didn't read it well?
 
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Notabadguy

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Feb 7, 2020
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Yeah,, you didn't read it well. It's not allowed to post mails, but you can read it better and you'll find it.
 
Yomyom

Yomyom

What the deuce!?
Feb 5, 2020
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If you insist on N, read here about C or A.
They the only one that prove reliability.
Good luck, be safe
 
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Notabadguy

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And you can read in the threads that A, at least lately, has a history of hit and miss.
 
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Bluesummers

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Mar 16, 2020
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First of all thank you.

Well, I'll give a second read to the PPH.

For what concerns C and A, I already gave a look to some threads but i don't think I'm going to find some emails there. I saw a lot of people asking for an email via pm. Am I wrong?

Edit: Ok, I think I found on the PPH the A you're talking about. As for C, if you could give me any suggestion it would be great.
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

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I saw a lot of people asking for an email via pm. Am I wrong?
You're not wrong, and neither are they, but...

If you can't find it in the PPH or posted publicly on a thread, then any PM you get may be someone directing you to a scammer's email address and not the real thing. Even if multiple people send you the same info, I would look carefully at their post histories, and remember that people can seem legit for a long time before the truth comes out, if ever.
 
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jgm63

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Oct 28, 2019
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Just read the PPH. Head over to the Wiki (https://suicide.wiki/w/Literature) or buy a copy from Exit International (https://exitinternational.net/)
I recommend people avoid using the Dec 2019 PPH on the wiki.
It contains invalid email addresses for "A" and "D"

correct addresses :
A : alejan<etc>
D : d<something>[email protected]<something> ( but avoid d since he's not reliable )

bad addresses in wiki version :
A : alejen<etc> letter "a" before "n" changed to "e"
D : d<something>[email protected]<something> letter "z" before "@" changed to "s"

In general, please also be wary of anybody offering to sell anything on this forum....

General advice / discussion may be found here and here.
I would also suggest being wary of anyone who directs you to access the wiki PPH version.

Anyone who checks my PPH upload against the official online PPH will see that it contains the correct details.
If anyone has remaining doubts, I could provide a temporary PPH login to verify, if needed.

If you need access to the PPH, please use :
https://sanctionedsuicide.com/threads/pph-dec-2019.30370/

Please read and understand the security points I make in the above thread to avoid getting scammed...

Be cautious of anything that can be publicly edited, like the wiki (unless you know for certain there are controls in place, managed by well respected and trusted individuals).
 
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enjolras

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Feb 13, 2020
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When I arrived here, I hit on a recent ripped copy which had a China supply email. It misled me (there is none). I only realised it was a scam after comparing with the original. Sorry, I don’t remember the thread where this download link is sitting. Back then, I was only contemplating to register on SS so I just moved on
 
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jgm63

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Oct 28, 2019
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Just read the PPH. Head over to the Wiki (https://suicide.wiki/w/Literature) or buy a copy from Exit International (https://exitinternational.net/)
Hi @Death.
As I mentioned to you on another thread, the wiki copy of the PPH that you are directing people to contains bad email addresses, so please be careful, and don't order anything from those addresses.
I'm sure you weren't aware of that, and just made an innocent mistake, however, please don't direct anybody else towards that copy.....

More info can be found here.

Please be careful everybody.....
It appears there may some scammers active on this forum, due to the bad PPH copy we have seen.

In general, please be wary of anybody offering to sell anything on this forum....
 
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Bluesummers

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Mar 16, 2020
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Hi. I wrote to A and he quickly answered asking me to use ProtonMail. I did it but I'm still waiting for an answer, maybe I need to be patient?

Meanwhile I was thinking that, apart from A answering, this could be not the best time to obtain N, because of coronavirus and all the troubles with shipment. Better wait for the end of this period?

Edit: A answered me. According to you, what should I do, ask for N now or postpone the thing?
 
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jgm63

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Hi. I wrote to A and he quickly answered asking me to use ProtonMail. I did it but I'm still waiting for an answer, maybe I need to be patient?

Meanwhile I was thinking that, apart from A answering, this could be not the best time to obtain N, because of coronavirus and all the troubles with shipment. Better wait for the end of this period?

Edit: A answered me. According to you, what should I do, ask for N now or postpone the thing?
Did you email the bad address, that starts with "alejen" ?
If so, then do *not* have any further communications with that email address, and do *not* send any money.

To get A's correct email address, use this :
https://sanctionedsuicide.com/threads/pph-dec-2019.30370/

If you tell A where you are located then perhaps he can check the current postage situation, and advise you.
 
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Bluesummers

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Mar 16, 2020
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I read your message only now. Yes, I was on the right address and he finally answered. He just told me that he is still doing shipments but he doesn't know anything in particular about the situation in my country, that's why I opened another thread, to ask some opinions