- Apr 30, 2020
Planned Vs. Impulsive "ctb", (or somewhere in between)
What do you think, & why?
What do you think, & why?
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I moved to my fathers house and I planned everything. I order Dry Ice, I had the meds and by impulse I fought with my ex till she blocked me. So I would not have what to miss in this world. You can say that this is planned + impulse.Should have clarified the poll, tried edit it but was too late, writing;
Planned (how & when)
Impulsive (how & when)
Planned (how) + impulsive (when)
As someone with a CHL, I have my carry gun near me at almost any time. What's ironic is I'm not planning on using that one. I've got a Beretta 92fs in 9mm that's looking pretty good as I can use it as a single action or my Ruger sr1911 in 10mm if I want really take a chunk of brain with me.. Choices, choices...Impulsively planned. I have tools I carry around with me if I ever need to flick the off switch at any given point. Someone I knew slept next to their gun for the same reason. They flicked the off switch recently.
Selfishly ... Glad you are still here. No shame in backing out. I have It is soooo hard.Planned for Monday, May 11th at 6 pm through SN Method. (so 2 days left).
Planned is a lot better than being impulsive in my own personal experience. I've had two very impulsive and unplanned attempts and they turned out like shit.
I know I backed out of my intention to ctb through SN 5 days ago, but now that I said Goodbye to my mom and hugged her, I feel that I'm ready to go now. That's also why I like planned better, so I can get my affairs in order, give those I love one last hug, and mentally prepare myself.
Planned … as much as I can. Backed out a few times... recently as well. Felt sick and couldn't sleep.
I am so sorry that you experienced this recently as well. Especially the day afterwards is extremely emotionally devastating. Did you feel sick and couldn't sleep due to the Meto? That's what happened to me....the side effects are horrific . I felt like I was on Meth, mind racing, with sweats and diarrhea.
Sending you lots of hugs.
I am sorry you went through all of that ! I think the Meto (30 mg stat dose) made me feel sick or weird as well but I think it was just more anxiety from me being so close to drinking the SN. Because I was only 8 minutes away from drinking it, so I wouldn't have had to deal with any effects cuz I would have been dead hopefully shortly after.Meto made me sick. The most recent time, I didn't even get to take the Meto … I think I made myself sick to my stomach. I don't remember the other side effects now but it's almost been 2 years. Possibly some sweats. I don't remember having trouble sleeping. I started the Meto and remember feeling sick. I was going to take more doses and then go to a motel to finish it. Sadly I didn't get that far.
I was trying the 2 day method … if I attempt again it will be the stat dose. In Stan's Guide... Antacids are mentioned also for SN. I still want to CTB... just a coward. Also have family concerns.I am sorry you went through all of that ! I think the Meto (30 mg stat dose) made me feel sick or weird as well but I think it was just more anxiety from me being so close to drinking the SN. Because I was only 8 minutes away from drinking it, so I wouldn't have had to deal with any effects cuz I would have been dead hopefully shortly after.
Do you have any other methods you would be comfortable using ? (If you still plan on ctb I mean). I wanted to go with a different antiemetic but that one with less side effects is banned in the US.