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okaoki

okaoki

last
Joined
Aug 4, 2018
Messages
226
7 yesterday 6 today , i know i need to plan , but sometimes i wish to just do it get over it.
people that hurts me everyday just won't stop .i dont get it.
 
nnnerve

nnnerve

im so depressed i cant even blink
Joined
Jun 19, 2019
Messages
584
7 right now. I'm so fucking tired of trying to turn myself into a different person because the person I am today can't survive much longer.
 
sadworld

sadworld

my anxiety the size of a planet
Joined
Aug 25, 2020
Messages
139
7.5, i just can't deal with this world anymore, every single day, i feel like i have to leave soon, but even if i try there will be something holding me back, again, again and again. I hate this cycle. I just need one good attempt...
 
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helplessromantic

New Member
Joined
Sep 14, 2020
Messages
1
0 being you're not having any at all to 10 being you're going to ctb very soon because you can't take it anymore. Mine are a 6.5 today
A rare 2. I have Fruity Pebbles coming in the mail which I’m excited about and am waiting for that first then it’s back to a 5 or 6 which is the average.
 
girlwithoutagun

girlwithoutagun

Transgender Chicken Tender
Joined
Jun 29, 2019
Messages
78
It was around a 6 at the start of the day but right now it's being pushed back up to an 8 or 9. If only I could actually do something about it.
 
Sinkinshyp

Sinkinshyp

Master
Joined
Sep 7, 2020
Messages
459
oddly the last 3 years without my son who died in a car accident everyday was an 8-10. My SN arrived 4 days ago and I've been about a 4-6.
 
Lupgevif

Lupgevif

Wise
Joined
Jul 23, 2020
Messages
251
Today it incredibly skyrocketed to 10. Yesterday I'd give it no more than an 8. I had to force myself to calm down, as not to try anything in a hurry, so right now I'm at 9.
 
Xocoyotziin

Xocoyotziin

idk
Joined
Sep 5, 2020
Messages
164
About a 6 last night, and a 4 now. It's constant background noise like an intrusive thought that isn't really intrusive but I don't feel anything very intensely about it except the urge itself.

I could probably go on like this for years and that honestly scares me.
 
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RUnger823

Member
Joined
Aug 26, 2020
Messages
8
About a 5 right now. It changes throughout the day. When I come across my SN in its hiding place, I think more about it. There are some points in the day where it looks like life might actually get better. Other times I'm just ready for the pain to stop.

I've picked a date about 3 weeks from now. If life is trending upward, I'll keep going. Otherwise, I think I'll be ready.
 
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Spitfire

Specialist
Joined
Apr 26, 2020
Messages
355
I'm at 6/10 right now. This is about where my baseline has been staying lately during the days.

It reaches an 8, or 9 out of 10 most mornings, and late at night when I am trying to fall asleep.

I hope for the people getting close to being at a 10/10, that these people find a way to a clear head, and a total calmness.

The time when I made it to a 10/10, was the most clear headed and calm I think I have ever felt my whole life.
 
SuicideBoys93

SuicideBoys93

The f**k I need life? Life is what needed me.
Joined
Feb 10, 2020
Messages
231
I'd say a 6. I went for walk at some trails today. Sad that I was picking out trees that looked good for hanging myself instead of enjoying the beauty around me. It's a quiet trail and if hanging would be my choice I would go their. It's peaceful and shaded nicely with a path that runs along a river. It kind of killed my vibe. Was hoping the walk would help me clear my mind. Went to get some treats and toys for the dogs today. At least somebody is happy in my house. I've now taking a few edibles to numb my mind for a bit. I'll probably end up having another emotional breakdown again. This whole cheating shit has flipped me on my head.
 

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