[Discussion] Notes?

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Lethe

Lethe

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Sep 19, 2019
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Do you intend to leave a suicide note? Have you ever written one before? Are they emotionally charged, or stoic and rational? If you've ever written one before, I'd be interested in reading them. Post them here if you're comfortable doing so.
 
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JimFord99

JimFord99

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I don’t intend to write one. What is the point? Nothing changes. Nothing can be changed. I will be dead. I think it only leaves a bitter taste of guilt behind.
 
JTG1972

JTG1972

Tired of fighting in OR
Oct 2, 2019
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I plan to write at least a short one to my wife—to tell her not to blame herself, and to remind her that she promised me that she would find someone else if I die before her, and to apologize for wasting a decade of her life with me.

I will probably leave a short one for the police also, just stating what I have done, and that I chose to do it myself. Hopefully will prevent them tearing the house up too much like a crime scene, for her sake if not my own.
 
sleepy dog

sleepy dog

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I think everybody should make a video, everybody. A cell phone has a camera. Maybe leave a note about the video on the phone. Suicide notes can be thought of as fake by the police. That puts others at risk of being charged with a crime.
 
Erin Inari

Erin Inari

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Sep 9, 2019
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I wrote a note with a password to my computer and directions to a folder where I kept a running dialogue for the past 5 years or so. Wrote a lot and ranted some but I hope that it at least helps take the edge off of things. As much as can be done in a situation like that or at least give them some insight.
 
clownangel

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I used to write & rewrite frequently. I’ve come back to a note in my phone a few times but I always feel like it’s an absolute mess so I mostly gave up on drafting (and planned to hand write, anyways.) Sometimes it’s been rational (billeted lists, etc) other times it’s just a bunch of yelling.

IIRC the most petty one I’d planned just said “No.”
 
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ReturnToNothing

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Oct 8, 2019
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I need to put some effort into one... need to find some major points to hit. I don’t think there is such thing as a perfect note, but I can’t let that get in the way of writing one. most important point to hit is that the reasoning is internal conflict and my external environment has great, just had a defective brain
 
Lethe

Lethe

Just forget about it
Sep 19, 2019
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All my emails are written & queued in Boomerang to send in 1 week.

I've thought about this, but with my luck I'd fail or decide not to ctb at the last minute, and then the emails would send regardless. That would be embarrassing, lol.
 
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a_strange_day

a_strange_day

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I've thought about this, but with my luck I'd fail or decide not to ctb at the last minute, and then the emails would send regardless. That would be embarrassing, lol.
Boomerang allows you to send delayed emails, so if you decide not to CTB at the last minute you just cancel the programmed emails.
I'll use it myself and my emails will be sent 12h after I'm gone.
 
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babydeer

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I think everybody should make a video, everybody. A cell phone has a camera. Maybe leave a note about the video on the phone. Suicide notes can be thought of as fake by the police. That puts others at risk of being charged with a crime.
I didn’t even think of a video! I like the idea a lot
I toy with the idea of leaving a note to let friends know it’s not their fault and that they couldn’t have done anything but I don’t know if that would actually convince them. At the same time, who knows if I’ll CTB sooner than expected and not have time for a note. I’m not able to post my rough draft in its entirety at the moment but the gist of it is an apology, telling people I love them and am no longer in pain, and thanking them for being with me. And as mentioned above, letting them know that there isn’t anything they could have done.
 
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Sleepwalking

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Sep 29, 2019
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I will be.
I hate not knowing why things happen when they happen, and having made myself a social pariah means I don't get to learn the inside story on much at all anymore. So I guess it's for my own sake, as well as pretending that there'll be someone who'd have the same sort of burning want to know as I would.
My biggest obstacle is how to do it - I want to post it to facebook, but I want it delayed until I'm gone.
I'll also leave a hand written note for my mother
 
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JOARGA

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Oct 8, 2019
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My note.

I am very sorry for the pain that I am going to cause you, but the feeling of emptiness and loneliness that I drag through the death of my mother can no longer bear it.
I have tried to overcome it, pointing out trips, going to a psychologist, taking time on anything, but without success.
Nothing made me feel good.

I want to free myself from this pain. I can't wait to find something to live, since everything that comes to me is for the worse.
(Death of Lupo, loss of work that kept me busy with my thoughts, etc.)

Please try to understand my decision. It simply existed to avoid hurting the mother first, and now you.
Be strong, because many lives depend on you. Do it for your cats.
don't think you could have done something for me

, since I have always had the feeling of not connecting with the world and wishing to be free.

He thinks that mom had a quick and painless death, and much suffering was avoided.
Lupo, with his euthanasia, stopped suffering.
I just pretend the same.
Therefore, do not suffer for what was a liberation for us.
A hug. I love you, even if you always doubt it.
translated from Spanish to English, sorry if there are errors
 
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