My Goodbye Note to SS - SN

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AnxiouslyDepressed

AnxiouslyDepressed

Stuck- the guilt of leaving or the pain of staying
Nov 8, 2019
150
831
Glasgow, UK
Sorry I’ve not been able to reply to everyone - overwhelmed by the support I can’t thank you enough.

As it’s now 11:30PM, one hour away from SN, I’ve taken:

  • 1000mg paracetamol
  • 1mg xanax
  • 4mg diazepam
  • 120mg propanolol
I’ll keep updating as time goes on. Thanks again folks.
 
Sideswipe

Sideswipe

I have 2 Simian Palms... DNA is [email protected]£ked
Nov 20, 2019
30
75
UK
I’ve taken all my usual junk meds that I have to take at night, if It knocks me out (benzos/morphine) I really hope it all goes well and you suffer nothing. If there is an afterlife I hope it’s everything you want it to be. I will hopefully be awake but ai have only had about 6 hours in 3 days...
I want to be here so will fight the sleep but if I don’t talk to you in your final moments I just wanted you to know I care and I wish you a safe journey :happy::heart:
 
A

Ark

Wise
Oct 18, 2019
228
475
I hope you find the peace you deserve. And I hope the transition is peaceful. You are in my thoughts and know that you have support from many, no matter what.
 
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AnxiouslyDepressed

AnxiouslyDepressed

Stuck- the guilt of leaving or the pain of staying
Nov 8, 2019
150
831
Glasgow, UK
I’ve taken all my usual junk meds that I have to take at night, if It knocks me out (benzos/morphine) I really hope it all goes well and you suffer nothing. If there is an afterlife I hope it’s everything you want it to be. I will hopefully be awake but ai have only had about 6 hours in 3 days...
I want to be here so will fight the sleep but if I don’t talk to you in your final moments I just wanted you to know I care and I wish you a safe journey :happy::heart:
No pressure. Thank you so much. You get your well deserved rest, I’ll be fine.
 
AnxiouslyDepressed

AnxiouslyDepressed

Stuck- the guilt of leaving or the pain of staying
Nov 8, 2019
150
831
Glasgow, UK
11:45pm - 30mg of metoclopramide.

Feeling calm which is a MASSIVE surprise. Don’t feel too sedated or “out of it” on the benzos either, although time will tell.

50ml of water is measured out in a glass and I will only add the SN right before stirring and drinking.

I will be using a funnel to bypass my tongue and hopefully the gag reflex.

Will update once I’ve taken my antacid and let you all know how I am feeling, then I need to bookmark the self-ban page.
 
AnxiouslyDepressed

AnxiouslyDepressed

Stuck- the guilt of leaving or the pain of staying
Nov 8, 2019
150
831
Glasgow, UK
Just before midnight here in the UK so:

12:00am - 20ml of milk of magnesia (antacid)
texture is funny but the taste was quite nice, minty.

Still feeling good. All feelings of guilt are gone. Never thought I would say this, but feeling very content.

30 minutes to go until SN. I love you all.
 
TowerUpright

TowerUpright

Wise
May 26, 2019
277
442
Peaceful travels. May things go off without a hitch. Wish I could have my time, soon.

Sounds like a good plan. Wish I knew you better. I'm just too introverted.
 
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AnxiouslyDepressed

Stuck- the guilt of leaving or the pain of staying
Nov 8, 2019
150
831
Glasgow, UK
12:40am / 20g of SN in 50 ml water of water.

Gagged somewhat and a salett taste in the back of my throat. No SI panic or regret in sight.

I will not clutch my notes and the photo of my unborn.

a thank you soo so much. I will miss you all.
 
TowerUpright

TowerUpright

Wise
May 26, 2019
277
442
12:40am / 20g of SN in 50 ml water of water.

Gagged somewhat and a salett taste in the back of my throat. No SI panic or regret in sight.

I will not clutch my notes and the photo of my unborn.

a thank you soo so much. I will miss you all.
Save travels on the bus, my friend
 
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