My euthanasia part 5 and fucking corona

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Berlin76

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Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

part 5

My euthanasia process have been going on since my application in august 2018.
The first interviews started in November of 2019 and went on for the past year.
2 weeks ago I had my last interview with the scen-doctor who had to check if all protocols have been met and everything was correct.
Last week I got the third green-light and my euthanasia team called me to verify if i wanted to proceed with the euthanasia.
I answered yes I still want to die and go on with the euthanasia, we planned a date in the days of 30 / 31.

Because her direct colleague is sick and out of work long term she need to find a replacment.
So a agreed on her situation she needed to find a replacement nurse to support her during the euthanasia.
This is problematic because also because of the risk they take when performing the euthanasia and the justice department.
So totally agreed on the situation and waited.

Now this bloody virus is going around I got a call today,
They euthanasia clinic is shutting down all cases as from now on because of risk of infection.
The government of The Netherlands have locked down the country till 6 of April.

They are not allowed to visit people anymore so euthanasia is off for now.
She ask me to wait till next week so they have more information on the situation also.

This situation pissed me so of this morning I feel so fucking restless now
I am going to call them again tomorrow morning and demand my euthanasia in the week of 30 or the 7th.

Sick and tired of this process I WANT TO DIE.
 
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I imagined myself in your situation and I would be annoyed to the extent I cannot even imagine.
You are extremely patient, I would not be able to wait for so long.
I wish you more strength in this process and hope the clinic will be open soon...
 
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I imagined myself in your situation and I would be annoyed to the extent I cannot even imagine.
You are extremely patient, I would not be able to wait for so long.
I wish you more strength in this process and hope the clinic will be open soon...
Really i am so pissed of on the whole situation now.

Even my doctor says what kind of bullshit is this she is working all day with patients.
So why are they not fulfilling their responsibility.
 
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I remember you wanting an extra stash of N. Who would've imagined this. I'm in a similar situation with the coronavirus, I was about to ctb but now I have to worry about my parents and family. I have the N though, but feel selfish to use it.
 
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Berlin76

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I remember you wanting an extra stash of N. Who would've imagined this. I'm in a similar situation with the coronavirus, I was about to ctb but now I have to worry about my parents and family. I have the N though, but feel selfish to use it.
Yeah wanting my own N again that is getting more now that wish.

I dont feel selfish because I know my diagnosis and mental state / damage.
So i just want to be released of this life with my head. But now even the doctors are backing of because of the corona.

I will call the clinic tomorrow
Really want to know how this situation can be resolved. I am not waiting around for a other month.
 
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Really i am so pissed of on the whole situation now.

Even my doctor says what kind of bullshit is this she is working all day with patients.
So why are they not fulfilling their responsibility.
Honestly, that is a shame that somebody's death can be rescheduled due to a very unlikely thing.
I guess the managers were told to shut down the euthanasia temporarily.
People start showing off their real face.
In the city I am currently studying there is one University and all the students were told to leave student accommodation. Irish people were given 2 days, International students were given 3 days. Cmon, just get outta there. Look for rooms/apartments on your own.
 
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I'm so sorry. This must be very frustrating with all the time you have spent going through all the steps. I hope it gets sorted out soon.
 
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Honestly, that is a shame that somebody's death can be rescheduled due to a very unlikely thing.
I guess the managers were told to shut down the euthanasia temporarily.
People start showing off their real face.
In the city I am currently studying there is one University and all the students were told to leave student accommodation. Irish people were given 2 days, International students were given 3 days. Cmon, just get outta there. Look for rooms/apartments on your own.
Pfff totally agree with you just bizar that they are doing this with my and others exit.

The normal flue kills 600,000 a year. Fuck corona
 
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Pfff totally agree with you just bizar that they are doing this with my and others exit.

The normal flue kills 600,000 a year. Fuck corona
True, if all the flights cancelled, bye bye Mexico or South America, will have to take a bus to Northern Ireland to drink some English beer and... SN
 
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I'm so sorry. This must be very frustrating with all the time you have spent going through all the steps. I hope it gets sorted out soon.
Yes i hope so to.
She answered she will update ne next Tuesday. But i am so FUCKING done, i am calling tomorrow.

Because by law after the scen-doctor i need to die in 4 weeks. Or else they will reject the whole case.
 
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So this means people who are in the intensive care unit for Covid 19 and need a ventilator but cannot get one because of lack of resources do not even get assisted suicide but have to die slowly and painfully?
 
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Yes i hope so to.
She answered she will update ne next Tuesday. But i am so FUCKING done, i am calling tomorrow.

Because by law after the scen-doctor i need to die in 4 weeks. Or else they will reject the whole case.
And they won't even postpone the term due to closure?
 
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Berlin76

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And they won't even postpone the term due to closure?
I hope.
Thats why i am calling them tomorrow.
Because this is not ok at all.
I need to get assurance that it won't be a problem because it is by law.
I am so sorry Berlin. This is the worst timing!
Tell me about it
So this means people who are in the intensive care unit for Covid 19 and need a ventilator but cannot get one because of lack of resources do not even get assisted suicide but have to die slowly and painfully?
No..
This is purely the psychiatrist and nurses of the euthanasia clinic. I am in euthanasia process. So my team cannot visit me at home or perform the euthanasia because of the lock down and infection risk.
 
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Yes i hope so to.
She answered she will update ne next Tuesday. But i am so FUCKING done, i am calling tomorrow.

Because by law after the scen-doctor i need to die in 4 weeks. Or else they will reject the whole case.
OMG, that is terrible!! I hope the doctors postpone the CTB instead of rejecting the case :mmm:
 
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OMG, that is terrible!! I hope the doctors postpone the CTB instead of rejecting the case :mmm:
yeah I hope so to.
she said they know we are not infected but still cannot come by for the last meeting at home.
And also not allowed to perform euthanasia for now in these weeks.
but my home doctor said we already know this situation will take longer then only 3 weeks.
The government want people to not get all sick at once but more stretch out over a couple of months.
so probably till july this lock down will stay in countries
 
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Berlin76

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So I just called the euthanasia clinic.
They informed me that this situation of corona can take months. But they can't say when they can be back in operation with the interviews and euthanasia.

The 4 week law that i was supposed to die within this time frame is now not a subject thank god. And they say in only some rare cases its needed to send a new scen doctor to verify my request for euthanasia again for the last time.

So i am happy to hear its not a problem thank god. But stil it sucks to again make a new date for my exit.
Its stressful
 
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That is some good news...but it's still so hard to wait I'm sure. I'm sorry.
 
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That is some good news...but it's still so hard to wait I'm sure. I'm sorry.
Yeah its good news.
But still when you are really planning and working on this process of dying in this way its very hard and stressful especially because I have been busy with it for 2 years now.

So its really hard when it gets canceled when you work on it towards your death in these weeks
 
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Have been following your story silently for awhile. So sorry that all of this has delayed your date. Wishing you relief and peace. Many hugs to you
 
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Have been following your story silently for awhile. So sorry that all of this has delayed your date. Wishing you relief and peace. Many hugs to you
Thank you.
Just have to wait now until they know when they can continue with their work.
But it will be probably later in April.
Will keep updating here also
 
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I just want to ask if you can email me I am literally in the same boat as you actually about to start the process with Dignitas I have a few questions i dont know if it will be okay for me to email you? Please it will be a life saver if you can I am new to this website idk if theres any way to message you as well?
 
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This sounds so annoying, I assume you don't feel there's any alternatives? Perhaps it would be better. But either way, you've waited so long, you can wait just a bit longer.
 
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I just want to ask if you can email me I am literally in the same boat as you actually about to start the process with Dignitas I have a few questions i dont know if it will be okay for me to email you? Please it will be a life saver if you can I am new to this website idk if theres any way to message you as well?
Yea you can pm me
This sounds so annoying, I assume you don't feel there's any alternatives? Perhaps it would be better. But either way, you've waited so long, you can wait just a bit longer.
Yes thats true
Yesterday she called back and next week is my closing interview
And on 2 april i will have the euthanasia
 
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Yesterday I saw on tv as your "health minister" fained at Parlament, like exhausted.
After that, he could raised up for herself.
To be honest, I remembered of you. On a good way, of course.
 
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Yesterday I saw on tv as your "health minister" fained at Parlament, like exhausted.
After that, he could raised up for herself.
To be honest, I remembered of you. On a good way, of course.
Yes the person of the parlement he resigned off. He no longer is working because he is over the edge. So a other has taken over his tasks
 
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Yes the person of the parlement he resigned off. He no longer is working because he is over the edge. So a other has taken over his tasks
very polite. A gentleman.
I thought that you were going to answer me using a phrase like "Damned Health Ministry"......or "I have a bullet with his name."
 
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Ok update

So yesterday the psychiatrist called me.
They had a meeting about my and other cases that are approved for euthanasia.
The corona situation is bad but they agree on euthanasia now in the mext few week.

So she ask me when i want to go because the road ia clear to go.
So i have set my euthanasia date on 2 april at 11:00 in the morning.

Only next week I have a last interview for round up of the whole thing.

So i will update on my regime of Metoclopramide in the days and the final stuff of this process in part 6
 
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Less than two weeks. It's kinda ironic that an allegedly deadly virus almost kept you from killing yourself. But I'm glad they didn't even consider restarting the process, that would've been absurd and complete torture.

Did follow your story and know what you mean about not feeling any joy in life. It's one of the worst bits, and really a tragedy we're not there yet when it comes to fixing these issues. Maybe in a different time a lot of us would've received the help we need and went on to live happy lives. Thought it was kinda sad when they told you in P3 that they actually couldn't do anything more for you, possibly even making it worse. That's something they'll always avoid saying everywhere else where euthanasia is illegal. Can't say how many of us are beyond help, but the vast majority of us are certainly prefectly sane and reasonable, and well aware of what we're contemplating.

Will you be making a goodbye thread?

Just want to tell you that I very much appreciate your attitude in a discussion. You may not be happy, but you're far more rational than the vast majority of "healthy" people out there, who can't accept an argument if it goes against their way of thinking or undermines their point of view somehow. I respect that and wish we had more people like that.

Will probably be here when you leave, but wish you all the best and am happy for you.