Molly (MDMA) before ctb?

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Whynot32

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I haven’t felt peace and happiness for a very, very long time. I would like to feel that one last time and was considering taking a small dose (maybe a point or two) followed by a good amount of booze before I use fentanyl. I was planning to do an IV drip of high amounts of fent and thought about opening the valve as I listen to my favorite music and doze off.

also is inserting an IV into oneself an easy task to learn? I’ve never shot up but it seems like it wouldn’t be that difficult.

I own my own home and can expect several days before a warrant would be issued for a welfare check. Thoughts?
 
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Whynot32

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It may be counterproductive, because an excess of happiness could stop your desire of death in the very last moment, but at the same time I can understand you deserve a last time of joy. It's up to you.

Don't know anything about injecting drugs, however it should not be very complicated.
I honestly believe I would be happy to release the valve in the iv bag. If it was non productive I could abort but I just see it as more than likely ctb with a smile on my face instead of balling my eyes out.
 
enlightened_suicide

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It all depends if you enjoy uppers or downers .
I like downers so a Fent IV would put a smile on my face
 
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ChristopherWalken

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Molly might make you happy and want walk out the door and talk to strangers. Other than that I think you might as well feel as good as possible when you go.
 
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Finis Autem Spero

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I don't think I'd be able to CTB while rolling, though if you have it all prepped beforehand, I can see it being easier.
 
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ChristopherWalken

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You can experiment with shrooms. I've found that as I'm coming down from shrooms my SI is nill. In fact I sometimes have to remind myself not to go ahead and not to ctb because it's not time yet. With molly you're guaranteed to feel great unless you get some that's been cut with meth or something. With shrooms it can turn into a good or a bad trip.
 
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Whynot32

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You can experiment with shrooms. I've found that as I'm coming down from shrooms my SI is nill. In fact I sometimes have to remind myself not to go ahead and not to ctb because it's not time yet. With molly you're guaranteed to feel great unless you get some that's been cut with meth or something. With shrooms it can turn into a good or a bad trip.
Couldn’t do shrooms, I’m sure of it that would send me into a tailspin. Something tells me that a good roll with everything in place (gram of F in gravity drip IV already inserted on top of forearm) so all I would have to do is relax and when felt happy enough to release the IV switch and fade off. I’m not much of an adventure on molly, I like to lay in bed and feel the waves. Listen to music, move my body a little. This combined with thinking of my favorite times in life while nodding off super quick just seem like the perfect exit to me.
 
souljahwitch

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i wouldn't take a low dose of molly, you need to reach a certain dose which is different from person to person so that it "kicks in". the feeling is unbelievable tho, definitely something nice to do before ctb
nvm i haven't read your last text i think you know what youre doing
 
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