[Resource] Megathread N from C + Alternative N Sources

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Commitmentphile101

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Hi everyone, I’m new here- people abbreviate the methods SN, N , and books like the PPH and other stuff I assume so these pages are not able to be googled easily? It took a while to find out what they all meant.

I was convinced I wanted to use SN but then people were saying that it was not as peaceful as others were making out, and that to feel no pain you would need the PERFECT dose for your age, sex, bodyweight, medical condition etc... Otherwise facing a potential final 30 mins of at least SOME discomfort.
That’s when I decided N was far better, the only barrier being money. What a beautiful method. Peaceful, quick, during sleep, and dignified. I don’t care how expensive it is. For me this is a price worth paying.
Sadly though this attracts scammers because of easy money due to price. I am in England.

Its all good reading you can get it from A,B, C, D and be prepared to pay for it but if no one is willing to say where A,B,C,D can be contacted/purchased from (which I totally understand because the nobody wants the P to know about this), then what am I supposed to do? What confuses me is how others have found C if no one is willing to share information.
I really need to get N from C. Someone help me please. PM me or something. anything.
 
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Energy Control hasn't been responding to my emails for over 14 days. I don't think I will be able to verify the purity of my N, considering they simply ignore my request and it still says "payment pending" on my order despite me paying them like 3 weeks ago. And I don't want to send around samples of such an expensive drug to companies that ignore my messages and pretend like they didn't receive my money. Just a quick update, in case anyone still hoped to see the purity of my N. If anyone can recommend another legit, trustworthy lab I'll look into them, otherwise I'll keep my product untested - for now. I completely trust C and considering all the reports of experiments with his substance in this thread and all the purity results I've seen so far, I think it's legit and I think the purity of my N will also be around 65-75%, which seems to be the average purity of his product. I think I can ctb with my N without any worries of ever waking up again and that's enough for me. I don't need to know the specific purity of it if the N does its job properly.

Sorry people.

This leads me to my next question though: what dosage would you recommend for N that has an approximate 70% purity? I'm not quite sure if I should just chug it all. I know my N from A (I have 2 bottles) contains 12g of pentobarbital and that's a very lethal dosage for average people. And if C's product is 70% pure, it means I have 18g of pentobarbital in that 25g of powder. Would you say taking half of that is enough? That would mean it's 9g of pentobarbital. I'm female and my weight is 62kg.
 
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rikamonie

rikamonie

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You're right, better to not tell the carriers on the forum.
You never know.



I think that Samsa was hinting us to not talk about what carrier is bringing us the package (you wrote it in your post), since authorities could track that down. Perhaps it'd be the best to edit the message.
ah i see, i will do

it wouldnt let me edit i guess its been too long since i posted it? >:(
 
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no.place

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Energy Control hasn't been responding to my emails for over 14 days. I don't think I will be able to verify the purity of my N, considering they simply ignore my request and it still says "payment pending" on my order despite me paying them like 3 weeks ago. And I don't want to send around samples of such an expensive drug to companies that ignore my messages and pretend like they didn't receive my money. Just a quick update, in case anyone still hoped to see the purity of my N. If anyone can recommend another legit, trustworthy lab I'll look into them, otherwise I'll keep my product untested - for now. I completely trust C and considering all the reports of experiments with his substance in this thread and all the purity results I've seen so far, I think it's legit and I think the purity of my N will also be around 65-75%, which seems to be the average purity of his product. I think I can ctb with my N without any worries of ever waking up again and that's enough for me. I don't need to know the specific purity of it if the N does its job properly.

Sorry people.

This leads me to my next question though: what dosage would you recommend for N that has an approximate 70% purity? I'm not quite sure if I should just chug it all. I know my N from A (I have 2 bottles) contains 12g of pentobarbital and that's a very lethal dosage for average people. And if C's product is 70% pure, it means I have 18g of pentobarbital in that 25g of powder. Would you say taking half of that is enough? That would mean it's 9g of pentobarbital. I'm female and my weight is 62kg.
I don't think it would make sense to take less than the total product you have. I'd just take it all to be extra sure (and would take even more if I got it) to definitely ctb by the substance. .

ah i see, i will do

it wouldnt let me edit i guess its been too long since i posted it? >:(
Yeah, I guess so.. Don't worry tho, it was just to say to avoid talking about carriers' names or country where they arrive in the future, so we can play it safe.
 
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a_strange_day

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This leads me to my next question though: what dosage would you recommend for N that has an approximate 70% purity? I'm not quite sure if I should just chug it all. I know my N from A (I have 2 bottles) contains 12g of pentobarbital and that's a very lethal dosage for average people. And if C's product is 70% pure, it means I have 18g of pentobarbital in that 25g of powder. Would you say taking half of that is enough? That would mean it's 9g of pentobarbital. I'm female and my weight is 62kg.
I weight 66kg and got confirmation from two different end of life orgs that 10g of pure N is plenty for someone my weight. Same answer from the PPH forum. I was ready to take up to 15g, but they all told me that it would be overkill and totally unecessary.
 
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Energy Control hasn't been responding to my emails for over 14 days. I don't think I will be able to verify the purity of my N, considering they simply ignore my request and it still says "payment pending" on my order despite me paying them like 3 weeks ago. And I don't want to send around samples of such an expensive drug to companies that ignore my messages and pretend like they didn't receive my money. Just a quick update, in case anyone still hoped to see the purity of my N. If anyone can recommend another legit, trustworthy lab I'll look into them, otherwise I'll keep my product untested - for now. I completely trust C and considering all the reports of experiments with his substance in this thread and all the purity results I've seen so far, I think it's legit and I think the purity of my N will also be around 65-75%, which seems to be the average purity of his product. I think I can ctb with my N without any worries of ever waking up again and that's enough for me. I don't need to know the specific purity of it if the N does its job properly.

Sorry people.

This leads me to my next question though: what dosage would you recommend for N that has an approximate 70% purity? I'm not quite sure if I should just chug it all. I know my N from A (I have 2 bottles) contains 12g of pentobarbital and that's a very lethal dosage for average people. And if C's product is 70% pure, it means I have 18g of pentobarbital in that 25g of powder. Would you say taking half of that is enough? That would mean it's 9g of pentobarbital. I'm female and my weight is 62kg.
You have enough for 3 people .. and most can’t get enough for 1..
 
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rhiino

rhiino

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I think that Samsa was hinting us to not talk about what carrier is bringing us the package (you wrote it in your post), since authorities could track that down. Perhaps it'd be the best to edit the message.
That was what I wanted to say, too.
Better delete your reply too.
You should also delete your quotation of his reply then ;-D
This leads me to my next question though: what dosage would you recommend for N that has an approximate 70% purity? I'm not quite sure if I should just chug it all. I know my N from A (I have 2 bottles) contains 12g of pentobarbital and that's a very lethal dosage for average people. And if C's product is 70% pure, it means I have 18g of pentobarbital in that 25g of powder. Would you say taking half of that is enough? That would mean it's 9g of pentobarbital. I'm female and my weight is 62kg.
I asked myself the same question. I am male and 80 kg. Taking everything might increase the risk of vomiting, so just taking everything even if not needed is also not wise.
 
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You should also delete your quotation of his reply then ;-D
You only have 6 hours to edit a post .. after that you have to ask the mods to do it. You can report the posit and state the reason why.
 
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rhiino

rhiino

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I really need to get N from C. Someone help me please. PM me or something. anything.
You can communicate via PM after 5 posts, so you need to post a bit more. C is very easy to find once you have access to dark net markets. He is the only one with a noteworthy number of reviews.
 
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Commitmentphile101

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You can communicate via PM after 5 posts, so you need to post a bit more. C is very easy to find once you have access to dark net markets. He is the only one with a noteworthy number of reviews.
Ah I see- thank you I will try and go to other threads and post to meet quota quickly now. It seems now looking through the earlier parts of the thread there are only two someone reliable suppliers A and C and both plenty of cases where there are claims of poor service and/or non delivery. Does this not make people somewhat nervous given it costs so much money?
 
C

Commitmentphile101

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You can communicate via PM after 5 posts, so you need to post a bit more. C is very easy to find once you have access to dark net markets. He is the only one with a noteworthy number of reviews.
rhiino could you PM me please about A and C? I have made 5 posts but can’t PM you for some reason
 
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no.place

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May 28, 2020
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FINAL UPDATE:

Ok guys.. I thought I would be shaking like a leaf in that situation, but I didn't. At all.
Something came to my post today.
A package from C.

I took it, brought it home, went to my room, opened it.
And it was it, the legendary N, right in the package.

It feels wonderful just to have it.. You feel finally at PEACE, in control, that you have a way out and that your worries are finally over.

Thank you guys for all the help provided during this journey. I can finally confirm that there IS indeed a good source for N and I would have never believed in all these years of suffering that I would be ever be able to get such an oppotuity to peacefully ctb. A place where people die everyday in all painful and worst ways possible, where people have accidents, where people ctb in the only ways they can acess... But not me. I really feel good about this and I'm happy that after all this it will be over like nothing happened, like I just fell in a blissfull and eternal sleep.

Can say with confidence that it's worth it (at least for now I'm sure as hell). The price, the waiting time, the risks, everything.

Thanks for everything, hope you will all get what you order if you'll decide to do it.
This event is revolutionary.

P.S: In my opinion, please for now do not contact the PPH otherwise the authorities will already put all their efforts into finding him. Let all this grow for now and more people get their opportunity, then we might contact them to let them know about this. Still I don't think it's a good idea for now.
 
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rhiino

rhiino

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It seems now looking through the earlier parts of the thread there are only two someone reliable suppliers A and C and both plenty of cases where there are claims of poor service and/or non delivery. Does this not make people somewhat nervous given it costs so much money?
They are black market sellers after all. They can afford being not a 100 percent reliable and in the end only care for the money.
 
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Care to explain? So I can correct my message.
Perhaps I let myself go because of the moment.

For now I edited some details.
Are you gonna test the purity?
I mean, seriously, wouldn’t you have to since you can wake up a vegetable if It’s not pure enough?

How are you going to use it ? Dissolve it in water?
 
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no.place

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Are you gonna test the purity?
I mean, seriously, wouldn’t you have to since you can wake up a vegetable if It’s not pure enough?

How are you going to use it ? Dissolve it in water?
No I'm not gonna test anything, I know it's a risk and that it's wrong but I trust the results that the users brought to the forum and that C sent me legit stuff.
If they say it's 67/74% then it's pure enough for me. I already saw posts about N survivors and I don't think you can wake up as a vegetable.
If you all want to test it, send it to labs, pay for it and whatever you want then feel free to do it. I won't do it, I think I have enough about it to decide what to do and won't wait any further.
Take care.

P.S: Yes, I think I'll dissolve it in water or alcohol and drink it after having taken the antiemetic way before and numbing my mouth with lidocaine.
 
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No I'm not gonna test anything, I know it's a risk and that it's wrong but I trust the results that the users brought to the forum and that C sent me legit stuff.
If they say it's 67/74% then it's pure enough for me. I already saw posts about N survivors and I don't think you can wake up as a vegetable.
If you all want to test it, send it to labs, pay for it and whatever you want then feel free to do it. I won't do it, I think I have enough about it to decide what to do and won't wait any further.
Take care.

P.S: Yes, I think I'll dissolve it in water or alcohol and drink it after having taken the antiemetic way before and numbing my mouth with lidocaine.
Ok!

What type of lidocaine are you gonna use? Gel? Where did you get it? Have you considered honey too?

Will the strenght of N be the same even if you dissolve it in water?

How long did it take for you to get the N from C?

Sorry for all the questions but I really want to die using N. Thanks.
 
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no.place

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Ok!

What type of lidocaine are you gonna use? Gel? Where did you get it? Have you considered honey too?

Will the strenght of N be the same even if you dissolve it in water?

How long did it take for you to get the N from C?

Sorry for all the questions but I really want to die using N. Thanks.
I think it's better for you to PM in private to ask these type of questions, so we don't start a conversation here and hijacking the public thread.

But anyway, I'll take lidocaine gel to lick, powder or something like that I guess. There is also toothpaste from some countries but for me it would take too much.
For the strength I don't know.. Perhaps alcohol makes it stronger, I knew that in switzerland they dissolve it in ethanol for their patients.
I ordered it on 31th may and got it today.

You're welcome
 
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I think it's better for you to PM in private to ask these type of questions, so we don't start a conversation here and hijacking the public thread.

But anyway, I'll take lidocaine gel to lick, powder or something like that I guess. There is also toothpaste from some countries but for me it would take too much.
For the strength I don't know.. Perhaps alcohol makes it stronger, I knew that in switzerland they dissolve it in ethanol for their patients.
I ordered it on 31th may and got it today.

You're welcome
do you have set a date when you take it or will you just store it for a while?

By the way,it tastes awful. dissolved just like 150 mg in water for a small test.. brrrr
 
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no.place

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do you have set a date when you take it or will you just store it for a while?

By the way,it tastes awful. dissolved just like 150 mg in water for a small test.. brrrr
For now I will order and wait for the lidocaine, then I'll set a near date for me to take it.
And I will have to write my note in these days as well.
 
rhiino

rhiino

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I tested with a lidocaine spray once, but I just gargled with it instead of spraying. It was lidocaine dissolved in alcohol. Did not taste anything afterwards, but it also makes swallowing harder and is kind of a weird feeling. Also not what I would want in my last minutes. Shouldn’t it be otc in most countries?

Sorry to tell you but C doesn't sell on EM anymore.
Either on his private shop or WHM.
I would use WHM because of Escrow. Shipping speed seems to be the same.
 
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cloreanne

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FINAL UPDATE:

Ok guys.. I thought I would be shaking like a leaf in that situation, but I didn't. At all.
Something came to my post today.
A package from C.

I took it, brought it home, went to my room, opened it.
And it was it, the legendary N, right in the package.

It feels wonderful just to have it.. You feel finally at PEACE, in control, that you have a way out and that your worries are finally over.

Thank you guys for all the help provided during this journey. I can finally confirm that there IS indeed a good source for N and I would have never believed in all these years of suffering that I would be ever be able to get such an oppotuity to peacefully ctb. A place where people die everyday in all painful and worst ways possible, where people have accidents, where people ctb in the only ways they can acess... But not me. I really feel good about this and I'm happy that after all this it will be over like nothing happened, like I just fell in a blissfull and eternal sleep.

Can say with confidence that it's worth it (at least for now I'm sure as hell). The price, the waiting time, the risks, everything.

Thanks for everything, hope you will all get what you order if you'll decide to do it.
This event is revolutionary.

P.S: In my opinion, please for now do not contact the PPH otherwise the authorities will already put all their efforts into finding him. Let all this grow for now and more people get their opportunity, then we might contact them to let them know about this. Still I don't think it's a good idea for now.
What country do u live in?
 
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I tested with a lidocaine spray once, but I just gargled with it instead of spraying. It was lidocaine dissolved in alcohol. Did not taste anything afterwards, but it also makes swallowing harder and is kind of a weird feeling. Also not what I would want in my last minutes. Shouldn’t it be otc in most countries?

I would use WHM because of Escrow. Shipping speed seems to be the same.
I don’t understand this part about the bad feeling you get. Are you saying lidocaine caused the weird feeling or what? Clarify thank you.
Also what’s WHM and where’s his private website ?
 
RainAndSadness

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Is there a way to get a refund with Energy Control? They're complete jerks at this point, ignoring all my mails on purpose. I also would like to know an alternative to Energy Control because I wanna know how pure my product is.
 
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