[Venting] Life is so shitty and boring!

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justanotherday

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Life is this way because it wasn't designed by an intelligent creator. It was designed by blind forces that had no grand purpose. Sentient beings are so poorly designed.
I agree with you on that. And if there was a creator, he/shel sure did a terrible, sick job of creating this sick, screwed up world.

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ihatepain

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I agree with you on that. And if there was a creator, he/shel sure did a terrible, sick job of creating this sick, screwed up world.

I agree
Yes. I envy the unborn. Once someone is born, the only thing to do is die as soon as possible. Suicide will not make up for the suffering you went through in the past but it will prevent future suffering. So the best thing to do is not reproduce and die asap. But if you are feeling philanthropic, stick around abit longer and do some antinatalism activism. There's nothing else to do tbh.
 
Burzolog

Burzolog

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I want to feel good and don't want to feel bad. (I assume most people stick to that too.) But at the same time I'm strongly dissatisfied with my life and what I have done so far. Isn't it obvious? Doesn't it show that I was and am incapable of making a decent life with instruments I have? I envy those who have circumstances more fitting for a good life. It's useful feeling. Not pleasant, but it serves it's purpose, to guide me out of this life. No reason to hate someone who has it better, or finding someone to blame for my distress. In the end, I am the one who has to deal with it.
 
ThatsEnoughForMe

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I don't even accept 1 min of work because that just means 1 min of pain. Why go through even 1 min of pain when there is a state I can be in which contains absolutely no pain at all? (i.e. non existence)
My friend i agree with you this world is cruel and boring but maybe you can find a job that you can enjoy. For example im a musician. Actually i lived a good life. I was working just 10 hours per week. If i had not mental problems and childhood traumas, i think i could have a good story at this time. So maybe you can find something to do that make you happy for money. But still i agree with you about world. We can be happy with our personal lifes but cant change that someone must be sacrifice themselves for our hapiness. A chinese young boy working 10 - 12 hours for 15 dollars a day. This world compels people with an unconcerned motivation to continue living.


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marcusuk63

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I hate football/soccer , i just cant work out why kicking a bag of air about and getting paid millions is so popular , why people get violent when "their" team loses , which usually isn't even their home town and most of the players dont come from the city or even country the football team is based and whe people spends hundreds on dressing up like them
Then again i wasn't brainwashed at a you age by getting a football kit when i was 2 , taken to football matches as soon as i could walk and then to kick a ball about in the park by my dad , a bit like a religion .

point being people who say you can change or do this and that are like people saying to me you can learn to love football ,
I think most of us would like to be "normal" have friends , hobies , interests , go on holidays , learn new things , get better educated , better job etc etc but for the majority of us on here it`s not in our wiring .

Some days i know i will need milk before the shops shut and the shop is only 8 houses away but it takes me all day until 10 minutes before they close to muster up the energy to go out and get it .
 
Now_And_Then

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Life is what you make it. You create your own reality. You need to find novelty and structure in life otherwise there is no pleasure. If not then you know where the nearest rope is.

Life is not always what YOU make it . You can try your best and still fail , because you do share this world with other people , who sadly may be toxic and so busy un-making you that it is hard to make a life for your self
I hate football/soccer , i just cant work out why kicking a bag of air about and getting paid millions is so popular , why people get violent when "their" team loses , which usually isn't even their home town and most of the players dont come from the city or even country the football team is based and whe people spends hundreds on dressing up like them
Then again i wasn't brainwashed at a you age by getting a football kit when i was 2 , taken to football matches as soon as i could walk and then to kick a ball about in the park by my dad , a bit like a religion .

point being people who say you can change or do this and that are like people saying to me you can learn to love football ,
I think most of us would like to be "normal" have friends , hobies , interests , go on holidays , learn new things , get better educated , better job etc etc but for the majority of us on here it`s not in our wiring .

Some days i know i will need milk before the shops shut and the shop is only 8 houses away but it takes me all day until 10 minutes before they close to muster up the energy to go out and get it .

Very , very , very , very well said
 
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Life is not boring and definitely not the same. If it is boring or samey to you, it's because you're experiencing death, not life.

I think that that's the main misunderstanding between the nicknamed 'pro-lifers' and the anti-pro-lifers. One experience life, the others - death. One is pro-life, the other sees it as "pro-death". There are two worlds out there, but people think there's only one and fight over who is right.
 
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Burzolog

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Life is not boring and definitely not the same. If it is boring or samey to you, it's because you're experiencing death, not life.
Makes sense, if 'death' and 'boredom' are synonyms. I think boredom resides in the domain of living. Have you experienced death? What does it feel like?
 
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I'm feeling almost with super powers because thanks to testosterone replacement therapy and dianabol my mood is superior, depression gone.

I learned programming, I'm programming myself an NFL betting game which I will make some money from.

5 years ago I worked for some mafia guys, now they will do me a favor and share some resources they got to build a second income stream..

I saw a beautiful young woman and my desire to have a partner is back , but focus, first my NFL fantasy game business since season is about to start.

Life ain't shitty all the time, in my own particular case, dianabol and testosterone are helping me build and create my own life. And exercise, I'm walking to the gym now.


This wasn't possible before, in my case it was not just my mind, but chemicals inside me, testosterone and stuff.

On top of that, after that, sure willingness to hit the gym and the mindset surely affects life. Desires must be pursued.
Balls must grow on you, in my case difficult before with such low testosterone levels.
 
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Burzolog

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@dandan
I am usually feeling envious to those who enjoy life more than not, and are more willing to cultivate a few sunflowers than wallowing in dirt, but strangely enough, I'm glad to hear that things are working out for you, and that you seem to enjoy what you are doing so far.
 
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Fr2

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Makes sense, if 'death' and 'boredom' are synonyms. I think boredom resides in the domain of living.
There is a difference between "this occupation or movie is boring" and "life is boring". The first is a fluctuation in life, the second is life not taking place at all.
Have you experienced death? What does it feel like?
There is life, and there is the other thing. I readily call it death. I can invent other words for it, to avoid sassy reactions to my post. I can name it counter-point, whatever, which is not a variation of life, but a whole real dimension of existing, which is confounded with life only because both of them imply a body not rotting.
 
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There is a difference between "this occupation or movie is boring" and "life is boring". The first is a fluctuation in life, the second is life not taking place at all.

There is life, and there is the other thing. I readily call it death. I can invent other words for it, to avoid sassy reactions to my post. I can name it counter-point, whatever, which is not a variation of life, but a whole real dimension of existing, which is confounded with life only because both of them imply a body not rotting.
I think I might see where you stand. How do you know if life takes place then? How does it feel like? How it differs from death, aside from boredom part? (If it does.)
 
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Life is not always what YOU make it . You can try your best and still fail , because you do share this world with other people , who sadly may be toxic and so busy un-making you that it is hard to make a life for your self
Yes that can be true too.
 
ihatepain

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My friend i agree with you this world is cruel and boring but maybe you can find a job that you can enjoy. For example im a musician. Actually i lived a good life. I was working just 10 hours per week. If i had not mental problems and childhood traumas, i think i could have a good story at this time. So maybe you can find something to do that make you happy for money. But still i agree with you about world. We can be happy with our personal lifes but cant change that someone must be sacrifice themselves for our hapiness. A chinese young boy working 10 - 12 hours for 15 dollars a day. This world compels people with an unconcerned motivation to continue living.


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Even the best human lives contain so much more bad than good. Even if I found a job I enjoyed, life would still contain pain. Continuing existence can never be beneficial for the individual. So anybody that wants to continue existing is being irrational and myopic. Nothing beats non-existence -- that will always be the best and I can prove it if you don't believe me.
I'm feeling almost with super powers because thanks to testosterone replacement therapy and dianabol my mood is superior, depression gone.

I learned programming, I'm programming myself an NFL betting game which I will make some money from.

5 years ago I worked for some mafia guys, now they will do me a favor and share some resources they got to build a second income stream..

I saw a beautiful young woman and my desire to have a partner is back , but focus, first my NFL fantasy game business since season is about to start.

Life ain't shitty all the time, in my own particular case, dianabol and testosterone are helping me build and create my own life. And exercise, I'm walking to the gym now.


This wasn't possible before, in my case it was not just my mind, but chemicals inside me, testosterone and stuff.

On top of that, after that, sure willingness to hit the gym and the mindset surely affects life. Desires must be pursued.
Balls must grow on you, in my case difficult before with such low testosterone levels.
One of the reasons I want to ctb is because I have to share the world with people like you. I'm completely disgusted by people like you. I want nothing to do with your kind. There is no point even pointing out how you are wrong because pollyannas like you are living in your own imaginary fantasy land. You are a perfect example of someone I would NEVER want to become. I almost vomited reading your comment. Yuck!
 
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justanotherday

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Even the best human lives contain so much more bad than good. Even if I found a job I enjoyed, life would still contain pain. Continuing existence can never be beneficial for the individual. So anybody that wants to continue existing is being irrational and myopic. Nothing beats non-existence -- that will always be the best and I can prove it if you don't believe me.

One of the reasons I want to ctb is because I have to share the world with people like you. I'm completely disgusted by people like you. I want nothing to do with your kind. There is no point even pointing out how you are wrong because pollyannas like you are living in your own imaginary fantasy land. You are a perfect example of someone I would NEVER want to become. I almost vomited reading your comment. Yuck!
It may be the testosterone talking. Hormones can be powerful...

"testosterone high"
 
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Done at Fifty

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Agree. I can't take how boring and horrible life has become. I have tried to feel guided and on the right path so many times, only to end up bored, working myself to death and now I also have severe anxiety. I'm either imagining worst case scenarios or taking so much medication that my eyesight goes blurry.

I have tried to have hope. Tried manifesting, believing, working hard and gathering degrees, but it all amounts to delusional behaviour. Hope if like an affliction evolved in us to keep us striving when there's nothing to believe in. Sometimes I'm glad I'm suicidal because its the first time in my life I've been honest with myself.
 
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pigglywiggly

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@thrw_a_way1221221 Right? I’m 27 and I don’t see life somehow becoming better. I look at older people I know that have been working the same job for 25 years, and it makes me want to kill myself even thinking about doing the same thing at the same environment for 25 years...
So often it feels like I am already dead, but trapped inside of this meat suit. I'm not truly living, I just stay in bed as often as I can, I hate leaving the house, nothing makes me happy anymore.
 
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I think I might see where you stand. How do you know if life takes place then? How does it feel like? How it differs from death, aside from boredom part? (If it does.)
Life is the state of flowing. Your mind feels continuously widening, you feel like you are motion (I mean it exactly like that, motion, not in motion).
Sometimes people stop from flowing (for very different reasons), many do so around the age of young adulthood, so they mistake this feeling (stopped, trapped, stuck) with becoming or being an adult.
 
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@thrw_a_way1221221 Right? I’m 27 and I don’t see life somehow becoming better. I look at older people I know that have been working the same job for 25 years, and it makes me want to kill myself even thinking about doing the same thing at the same environment for 25 years...
Same! I'm around the same age range and i keep thinking what keeps these people going?! How can they do this for this long?
 
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Damn it hurts to remember the great unrealistic expectations I had as a child.
Maybe it's because I found my comfort in fiction, but I guess I believed it's gonna be more, well... Lively. You know the drill: Adventures, parties, epic love & friendship stories...
Turns out it's just 12 years of school and at least 40 years of work with minimal joy inbetween, over and over, until you die.
Good to know all my childhood daydreams were a lie.
(Okay now that I think of it some people already did all of that so it's probably just my life that's boring but still.)
 
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Done at Fifty

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Same! I'm around the same age range and i keep thinking what keeps these people going?! How can they do this for this long?
Bizarre hope has kept me going (and meds on and off). The survival instinct is driven by 'Hope", which is just a bad affliction. It keeps us going and deluding ourselves when we should bump ourselves off. I'm in my early 50s and all the things I hoped for in my 20s not only didn't happen I'm deeply in debt and have literally nothing and no one. The only consistency in my life is working myself half to death. i've had several episodes of deciding to make a change and setting goals, etc etc, some successfully, but I wind up back in the same spot. I tried suicide when i was 29 - unfortunately it didn't work.
 
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