[Venting] Life is so shitty and boring!

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Rallyon

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I totally agree. With me i don't want to life and am to cowardly to end it. I spent the last week crying trembling and panicking. I just dont see the point i cannot function my head a mess.

My thoughts are with u , it hurts so bad feeling so crappy every day
 
ihatepain

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I totally agree. With me i don't want to life and am to cowardly to end it. I spent the last week crying trembling and panicking. I just dont see the point i cannot function my head a mess.

My thoughts are with u , it hurts so bad feeling so crappy every day
If we were never born, we wouldn't even have to kill ourselves. I envy the unborn :(
 
TheGoodGuy

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I literally asked myself that last night while making a vlog. As a teenager I lived more in 1 year than I have done in the last 7 years as an adult as a child and teenager we live as an adult we just exist life is so boring and trivial I just want it to end.
 
ihatepain

ihatepain

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If u ever need to talk u can message me. And i defenetly understand what u saying. What hurts me is the way everyone seems to be happy and get on and im constantly been chipped away at soon ill be so numb i may as well not exist
I will message you. When you say you are numb, do you mean emotionally or physically?
 
ihatepain

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I literally asked myself that last night while making a vlog. As a teenager I lived more in 1 year than I have done in the last 7 years as an adult as a child and teenager we live as an adult we just exist life is so boring and trivial I just want it to end.
I also have felt the same way and I think it is because as adults, we are less ignorant and we are more aware of how bad life is. The way I see it is that life was just as bad when I was a child as it is now. The only difference is that the adult version of me is aware of it.
Emotionally yes do and we can talk. I am Terrified of what going to happen me today my ex gone crazy ive so strength to fight him
Sorry to hear about your predicament. You may message me if you want to.
 
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TheGoodGuy

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I also have felt the same way and I think it is because as adults, we are less ignorant and we are more aware of how bad life is. The way I see it is that life was just as bad when I was a child as it is now. The only difference is that the adult version of me is aware of it.
ignorance is bliss which I have also talked about in this thread https://sanctionedsuicide.com/threads/childhood-and-teenage-years-is-living-adulthood-is-existing.18118/

But my childhood was amazing it was heaven on Earth, too bad yours wasn´t.
 
ihatepain

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ignorance is bliss which I have also talked about in this thread https://sanctionedsuicide.com/threads/childhood-and-teenage-years-is-living-adulthood-is-existing.18118/

But my childhood was amazing it was heaven on Earth, too bad yours wasn´t.
When I was a child, I was sometimes happy because I couldn't see the bigger picture. But I do prefer to not live in ignorance (that is my preference).
ignorance is bliss which I have also talked about in this thread https://sanctionedsuicide.com/threads/childhood-and-teenage-years-is-living-adulthood-is-existing.18118/

But my childhood was amazing it was heaven on Earth, too bad yours wasn´t.
I believe there is no such thing as a good life. I believe it is always better to have never been born (generally speaking)
 
thrw_a_way1221221

thrw_a_way1221221

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I'd say I had this feeling since I started college and also more so after college, so I can relate to some degree. As of now, as someone who is nearing 30, I could say that adult life sucks. It is the day in day out grind just to pay bills, exist, and consume. There are small, but significant things in life that I wish to chase, but it's a quandary such that you either have the time and energy, but lack money to do so, or have the money, but lack the time and energy to go and do it. While I'm just getting by as of now, I could only imagine it getting worse when I go full time, even less time to pursue my hobbies the way I like and also getting older, my energy is just not there anymore, it is not the same as if I am in my teens or early 20's.

While I am currently not wanting to desperately exit this shitty existence, I'm just tolerating life enough to exist; though I am passively suicidal. I still wished that I would die peacefully and painlessly.
 
Kjo

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Life is full of shit. I do the same thing everyday and there's barely any pleasure. Wtf is this crap called "life" !!!!!!!
I can't help but question why not change it up? Why do the same thing every day? Maybe look for other jobs or take a trip on a day off or meet new people or try something new... I agree there's barely any pleasure in life, but I've never understood boredom too well
 
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I can't help but question why not change it up? Why do the same thing every day? Maybe look for other jobs or take a trip on a day off or meet new people or try something new... I agree there's barely any pleasure in life, but I've never understood boredom too well
There is a time when you are just withdrawn from everything and become bedridden . I’m in that phase. I can’t even plan my own sucide left alone do something good for myself. I want to die but no way out.
 
LifeOver

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I feel you. This describes the life of every person:

birth play play play school school school school school school school school work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work work retire die

So meaningless and stupid.
 
ihatepain

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I can't help but question why not change it up? Why do the same thing every day? Maybe look for other jobs or take a trip on a day off or meet new people or try something new... I agree there's barely any pleasure in life, but I've never understood boredom too well
Finding new work is like moving from pulling out my eyeballs out to cutting my balls off. It will just be a different kind of painful experience. Its retarded. I never wanted to be born. This world sucks. Existence contains pain whereas non-existence contains no pain. If I had never been born, I wouldn't even have to kill myself and I would have been spared years of wasted suffering.
 
Kjo

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There is a time when you are just withdrawn from everything and become bedridden . I’m in that phase. I can’t even plan my own sucide left alone do something good for myself. I want to die but no way out.
I'm so sorry to hear that. It's such a relatable feeling. I do hope you find some peace or relief. I'm sorry.
 
ThatsEnoughForMe

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The difference between classical slavery and modern slavery is that modern slaves have the freedom to refuse to work and starve to death. I can accept six hours a day. The average working hours in my country 10. I never understood how a person would accept such a life.

Translated by Holy Google
 
GeorgeJL

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Life is what you make it. You create your own reality. You need to find novelty and structure in life otherwise there is no pleasure. If not then you know where the nearest rope is.

EDIT: Yes I also understand that some people can't create their own reality either because of obstacles in genetic, or environmental or both. But to those that are able to rise up and beat the odds against them. More power to them.
 
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Life is what you make it. You create your own reality. You need to find novelty and structure in life otherwise there is no pleasure. If not then you know where the nearest rope is.
That would only be true if life was fair. But it’s not, a lot of people have mental and physical illnesses. You can’t just create a reality and that stuff is gone.
 
GeorgeJL

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Life is not always what you make it. There are plenty of things a lot of us have no control over.
I agree with that.

That would only be true if life was fair. But it’s not, a lot of people have mental and physical illnesses. You can’t just create a reality and that stuff is gone.
Yes and no. Yes you can create your own reality if certain criteria are meet psychologically and physically. On the other hand you can't create your own reality if you don't have the mental hardware and software needed for that. Some people can gain the mental hardware and software needed to create their own reality despite having grown up in terrible situations.

Given all that I do admit that there is a lot of luck involved. But it's a none starter if you don't believe you create your own reality, because at the end of the day our actions to have consequences.

Thanks for chiming in.
 
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ihatepain

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The difference between classical slavery and modern slavery is that modern slaves have the freedom to refuse to work and starve to death. I can accept six hours a day. The average working hours in my country 10. I never understood how a person would accept such a life.

Translated by Holy Google
I don't even accept 1 min of work because that just means 1 min of pain. Why go through even 1 min of pain when there is a state I can be in which contains absolutely no pain at all? (i.e. non existence)
Life is what you make it. You create your own reality. You need to find novelty and structure in life otherwise there is no pleasure. If not then you know where the nearest rope is.
I don't want to live in a planet with the "no pain, no gain" rule. It should be "all gain, no pain" and since it can't be that, I will gladly take the nearest rope. :)
 
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I don't even accept 1 min of work because that just means 1 min of pain. Why go through even 1 min of pain when there is a state I can be in which contains absolutely no pain at all? (i.e. non existence)

I don't want to live in a planet with the "no pain, no gain" rule. It should be "all gain, no pain" and since it can't be that, I will gladly take the nearest rope. :)
I agree and always wondered why must life on this planet be that way? That whole dynamic of no pain no gain is crazy.... just crazy
 
ihatepain

ihatepain

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I agree and always wondered why must life on this planet be that way? That whole dynamic of no pain no gain is crazy.... just crazy
Life is this way because it wasn't designed by an intelligent creator. It was designed by blind forces that had no grand purpose. Sentient beings are so poorly designed.
 

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