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Syn1991

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If you could eat anything before Ctb what would it be ? For me its berries and a Nice cup of fancy coofee. Im having it right now as im trying to find the courage for full suspension from a doorknob. Really hard to Do as im scared to break the door.
 
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Anything my grandmother used to cook (she's deceased now).

If you're not ready yet, don't push yourself. Are you worried the door will collapse?
 
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JoeFailure

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Most days I can’t enjoy food anymore so it wouldn’t really matter.

But if I felt more free because I was leaving, probably a really fat, juicy double or triple cheeseburger.

What’s ironic is I’m kind of a health food guy and only socially drink a little and don’t smoke or do drugs, which are all probably prolonging a life that I don’t want anymore.
 
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I'm not so sure I want to eat anything beforehand.... Just sounds like it would be nauseating....
 
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JoeFailure

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Also to the OP, hopefully you can make sure this is legit going to work. I understand those days, I just went through 2 of them when I didn’t think I’d make it literally another minute.

But you don’t want to survive and be severely injured.
 
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Most days I can’t enjoy food anymore so it wouldn’t really matter.

But if I felt more free because I was leaving, probably a really fat, juicy double or triple cheeseburger.

What’s ironic is I’m kind of a health food guy and only socially drink a little and don’t smoke or do drugs, which are all probably prolonging a life that I don’t want anymore.
Then run out for a cheeseburger and smokes ASAP! :heh:
 
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Syn1991

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Anything my grandmother used to cook (she's deceased now).

If you're not ready yet, don't push yourself. Are you worried the door will collapse?
Im worried about the doorknob breaking,since I live in an appartment and explaining that to my landlord would be awkward Xd
 
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Im worried about the doorknob breaking,since I live in an appartment and explaining that to my landlord would be awkward Xd
True. They'd consider it property damage.
 
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i can’t enjoy food bc of a metabolic disease due to my thyroid. but i’d have some mc donald, pizza and sushi
 
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I might eat some ice cream and pizza before I start fasting and before starting the anti-emetic regimen.
 
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Also to the OP, hopefully you can make sure this is legit going to work. I understand those days, I just went through 2 of them when I didn’t think I’d make it literally another minute.

But you don’t want to survive and be severely injured.
My SN got seized by customs last month so yeah im getting those days a lot lately . Thanks its sad but comforting to know im not alone. Ordered Sn again but waiting 2 more weeks not knowing if Ill get it is torture.
 
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If you could eat anything before Ctb what would it be ? For me its berries and a Nice cup of fancy coofee. Im having it right now as im trying to find the courage for full suspension from a doorknob. Really hard to Do as im scared to break the door.
There is a whole thread on this in the offtopic section :). Honestly, i have dieted and restricted myself my whole life due to vanity. I always assumed that i would be joyously eating anything and everything if i knew my days were numbered, but nothing tastes good at all nor is there any joy in it.
 
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Syn1991

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Offtopic but never step on a bucket to Ctb bucket broke and my feets hurt
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I'm waiting for SN, but it's hard to get in Canada because of customs. If I don't receive it, I will try to get N shipped through a private courier.
What about you?
 
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I'm waiting for SN, but it's hard to get in Canada because of customs. If I don't receive it, I will try to get N shipped through a private courier.
What about you?
I'm thinking CO in a rental car but I'm not sure yet. Getting all these drugs sounds difficult. OTOH N sounds like the Rolls Royce of suicide and you only go once.

I have good hanging supplies on hand but I'm too much of a pussy. Maybe I can ease into a partial. If people can die peacefully with a scarf and a doorknob, I can use a pullup bar and climbing rope.
 
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I'm thinking CO in a rental car but I'm not sure yet. Getting all these drugs sounds difficult. OTOH N sounds like the Rolls Royce of suicide and you only go once.

I have good hanging supplies on hand but I'm too much of a pussy. Maybe I can ease into a partial. If people can die peacefully with a scarf and a doorknob, I can use a pullup bar and climbing rope.
CO would be a nice way to go, but the preparation seems difficult, there's been quite a few people on here who have failed. N would be the ideal way to go, if you can get it through customs.

You're not a pussy, SI makes it difficult for everyone, especially with hanging.
 
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