Discussion Known anyone who has killed themselves?

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I’ve personally known quite a few people who have killed themselves. There was a work colleague who hanged himself in our workplace. The strange thing about his suicide is that before it happened he wanted me to read the Tarot for him. I asked him to draw just one card. The card he drew unnerved me considerably because it was the Ace of Swords reversed which I felt had a self-destructive meaning. It was like a Roman impaling himself on his own sword in self-defeat. The funny thing about it all is that I didn’t even reveal the Tarot card to him nor the self-destructIve meaning I ascribed to it. There was no way I could have cued him to kill himself because I told him he should be more confident.
 
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My cousin jumped off the top floor of Mall of America in 2010, apparently it made semi-national news from what I heard. His brothers, (my two other cousins) where killed in a ATV accident the year earlier, Less then 5 miles from our house.
 
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There are others who I’ve known who have killed themselves. I hope nobody is of a squeamish disposition. My Pakistani plumber jumped in front of an underground train after his fiancée in Pakistan left him for someone else. A schizophrenic in a church I used to attend slashed his wrists one Friday in a graphic enactment of the crucifixion. He left a blood trail behind him when he crawled to the bathroom in excruciating agony in a vain attempt to turn on the bath taps to dull the pain. He was found slumped dead halfway to the bathroom.
 
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I’ve personally known quite a few people who have killed themselves. There was a work colleague who hanged himself in our workplace. The strange thing about his suicide is that before it happened he wanted me to read the Tarot for him. I asked him to draw just one card. The card he drew unnerved me considerably because it was the Ace of Swords reversed which I felt had a self-destructive meaning. It was like a Roman impaling himself on his own sword in self-defeat. The funny thing about it all is that I didn’t even reveal the Tarot card to him nor the self-destructIve meaning I ascribed to it. There was no way I could have cued him to kill himself because I told him he should be more confident.
Tarot cards cause the very thing they warn about. They tell you what they are going to do to you.
 
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There are others who I’ve known who have killed themselves. I hope nobody is of a squeamish disposition. My Pakistani plumber jumped in front of an underground train after his fiancée in Pakistan left him for someone else. A schizophrenic in a church I used to attend slashed his wrists one Friday in a graphic enactment of the crucifixion. He left a blood trail behind him when he crawled to the bathroom in excruciating agony in a vain attempt to turn on the bath taps to dull the pain. He was found slumped dead halfway to the bathroom.
Omg both of these sound brutal especially the latter
 
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One sticks out in my head particularly. Was the happy go lucky guy. Didn’t expect it. I was out of town and a friend called me to tell me. I’m like the fuck. It was a shocker
 
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My boyfriend of 7 years, we where actually engaged I just hate the word fiancé. I was the one struggling with mental illness and he supported me nobody had any idea what he was going through it was totally out of the blue...I suppose that what made my urge to do it even more
 
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My son, last year. He was 12 and I have thought about it everyday since. I used to love life, but a big part of who I was died with him. I hardly have the will to do anything. Sometimes I stay in his bed for days. Every day is a day closer to being with him. I just want to die peacefully and I know that is a hard to accomplish.
 
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My 2 best friends. We lived together, moved around the state together, were homeless together. We were the 3 amigos, ed edd and eddy (I was double d). We eventually split to do our own things

V died after he robbed my parents, after all they did for him. I was furious, called him up and told him he'd never get better, that he should just kill himself, knowing that he was suicidal. And he did, ODed on a massive amount of fentanyl

J died in prison. He had gotten addicted to meth and heroin real bad, lost his kid, and was homeless. I tried to get him to come down and live with me but he wouldn't. He was suicidal but nothing worked, from gram shots of H to shooting bleach. I sent him a song that I knew he'd relate to, one that I couldn't get out of my head because it sounded like he wrote it (Forever Close My Eyes by Dalek) but it was about suicide and I knew it'd push him over the edge. After I sent him that he responded with some ominous shit, then the next day he told me about this guy he was gonna rob who was pimping out these underage girls, although I knew it was a way for him to go out in a blaze of glory doing something decent. When he got there with the man he was with (who told me about this) there were some of the girls there unexpectedly. The guy started shooting at J so he shot back and accidentally hit one of the girls. She's okay, just grazed, but still got shot. J went to jail and hung himself after being raped in there

So yeah. I'm basically responsible for the death of my 2 best friends
 
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Most recently my grandfather, who died alone in a hotel room rather than be a "burden".

My friends daughter, leaving three children orphans. I adopted her cat.

My aunt and uncle, both due to terminal illnesses.
 
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My son, last year. He was 12 and I have thought about it everyday since. I used to love life, but a big part of who I was died with him. I hardly have the will to do anything. Sometimes I stay in his bed for days. Every day is a day closer to being with him. I just want to die peacefully and I know that is a hard to accomplish.
I worry that my parents will be like this. I wouldn’t want them to suffer like I did. I hope your well.
 
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Yes, my ex killed himself after we broke up :notsure:
i almost killed myself due to my ex dumping me as well. i'm so sorry you had to go through that... coming from someone who is likely thinking the same as him, it definitely wasn't your fault.

for me, part of it was these thoughts that got me into this situation in the first place.
 
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My 2 best friends. We lived together, moved around the state together, were homeless together. We were the 3 amigos, ed edd and eddy (I was double d). We eventually split to do our own things

V died after he robbed my parents, after all they did for him. I was furious, called him up and told him he'd never get better, that he should just kill himself, knowing that he was suicidal. And he did, ODed on a massive amount of fentanyl

J died in prison. He had gotten addicted to meth and heroin real bad, lost his kid, and was homeless. I tried to get him to come down and live with me but he wouldn't. He was suicidal but nothing worked, from gram shots of H to shooting bleach. I sent him a song that I knew he'd relate to, one that I couldn't get out of my head because it sounded like he wrote it (Forever Close My Eyes by Dalek) but it was about suicide and I knew it'd push him over the edge. After I sent him that he responded with some ominous shit, then the next day he told me about this guy he was gonna rob who was pimping out these underage girls, although I knew it was a way for him to go out in a blaze of glory doing something decent. When he got there with the man he was with (who told me about this) there were some of the girls there unexpectedly. The guy started shooting at J so he shot back and accidentally hit one of the girls. She's okay, just grazed, but still got shot. J went to jail and hung himself after being raped in there

So yeah. I'm basically responsible for the death of my 2 best friends
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And you sound proud of this, why? This is a pro choice forum but what you did doesn’t seem very pro choice.... they were suicidal but not actually planning on acting until you chose to purposely give them things or tell them things that you knew would gut them? I would be willing to bet if I looked you just very recently made your account and that you are a troll. These stories are absolutely ridiculous and who could ever be proud of this? It’s like you were bragging. It’s gross and not very pro choice at all.
 
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My brother hanged himself when I was 6 y/o.

I only recently found out. I knew that he had died, but always thought it was a car accident. I have vivid memories of seeing a news article about the crash, and us driving by the crash site. An S-curve with the village name on a road sign and a lot of bushes and trees around. He supposedly went too fast and off the road.

But when I told my mother about it, she had no idea what I was talking about.
 
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my ex boyfriend.

he killed himself this year, and was found dead the day before I was meant to stand in court against him for a horrible, traumatising crime he committed against me.

just over a week ago I found his profile on SS by accident. today it shows on the members page as his 21st birthday.

if it were not for me, he would not be dead.
 
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A girl I used to follow on Tumblr said she was going to go one day. I frantically tried to find her real location and call the cops to no avail. I had to fly through her instagram to find friend she used to hang out with to tell them. I was lucky, enough. They found her body a few hours later. Left behind a 3 year old daughter....
 
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A very close friend. ;-; ;-; idk how to go on.Life is hell.
 
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Do I really sound proud of it? Jesus christ that's the worst shit I've ever done, it haunts me constantly. I killed my best goddamn friends in the entire world! Proud. Wow. Fuck. I'm sorry I came off that way, that must've felt really shitty to read thinking I was proud of that. The thought makes me sick to my stomach tbh. Anyways, I don't see it, but I guess if that's how it comes across I'll delete the post. Sorry
*edit* so the forum isn't letting me delete that, guess it's just gonna stay up there. Fucking hell
 
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A guy I use to talk to who taught me the ropes of living in my car when I first became homeless. Didn't find out until the next day but before going into work on the day he CTB, I sat in my car and said aloud to myself, "today is going to be a weird day." I normally feel when things are off or when people I had a deeper connection to leave the earth.
 

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