Story I've quit alcohol

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That's it. I've had enough. I love alcohol and that feeling of being drunk, happy and talk about anything while I laugh and forget this damn reality I'm living in but I hate these hangovers which are only getting worse and making me feel more suicidal than ever.
I've been having terrible panic attacks, anxiety and negative thoughts these days! I quit last Sunday. Just like some people on AA, I might screw it up and drink again but I'll do my best not to.

That's it people. Hope if you have alcohol or any drugs problem, can quit too. They're nice because they make us feel better but in my case, I can't stand such sad hangovers any longer!

Thanks for reading me,

Hugs and love to all,

Matt
 
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Wow, that takes immense strength of will!

It stinks that something that makes you feel so good has to come with a “catch” though!
Yeahh, there's always "that catch."
For instance, I've tried ecstasy pills and I felt the happiest person on Earth for 4 hours and then the world sucked and I was the worst human being on Earth lol.
I think "weed" is the only thing that doesn't affect people so badly. I should try to get some!
 
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Thank you so much! It's been only two days but I'm feeling already "clean" and less suicidal lol
That is amazing WornOut!!

I am glad it has helped you and hopefully it is for the best for you. Drinking makes me feel bad and I mostly avoid it because I should not really drink anything to be honest, but sometimes I got myself a 24oz can in the past and would drink one or two of those at night for a few days in a row and then I stopped drinking again. I always feel better without it because it makes me sick after drinking it a few days, even drinking only a couple of beers in my case. I rambled but good job man!
 
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Yeahh, there's always "that catch."
For instance, I've tried ecstasy pills and I felt the happiest person on Earth for 4 hours and then the world sucked and I was the worst human being on Earth lol.
I think "weed" is the only thing that doesn't affect people so badly. I should try to get some!
Lol yeah, weed will only make you hungry. Seems like a worthwhile trade-off in my view.
 
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Thank you so much! It's been only two days but I'm feeling already "clean" and less suicidal lol
Forgot to add that if you fall off the wagon it doesn’t mean you’re a failure. Just keep trying, that’s what counts. I’m not sure if you were a daily drinker, but if you have an AA group in the area you can make some wonderful friends there who will understand what you’re going through and support you along the way.
 
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Yeahh, there's always "that catch."
For instance, I've tried ecstasy pills and I felt the happiest person on Earth for 4 hours and then the world sucked and I was the worst human being on Earth lol.
I think "weed" is the only thing that doesn't affect people so badly. I should try to get some!
I wouldn't try weed at all why mess with something that is known to induce psychosis.
 
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That's great news @WornOutLife . Hope you feel better for it!

Im working really hard to cut down too. I've only had 1 night drinking since the start of Jan, and I definitely felt my lowest the day after.

Its weird alcohol can somehow convince you its making you happier when its absolutely not!

Massive good luck! Keep us up to date how you get on!
 
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I think what you are going through is called Kindling. I have it too. It happens to people who have abused alcohol and benzos especially, giving us a terrible hangover.

For close to a year i would get out of my mind on benzos and drink like a monster, because i wanted to not wake up. I would take like 6 xanax and drink a bottle of whiskey. I would wake up so fucking scared that i couldn't believe how i was feeling. I ended up going to church once because i had no idea what else to do, i was completely terrified. I got to a point i stopped taking benzos, BUT! Then when i would just get hammered on whisky or the likes, i would feel the exact same fucking thing! The only thing i can properly drink now is beer, but if i have some whiskey or rum then i can only drink a little, or else i know the morning after i will suffer from heavy kindling. If you look up alcohol kindling you can read up on it!

Sorry you feel this way bro, the good thing is that after 3-4 days, your brain goes back to normal :) So if you can kind of control your emotions or not rage at family or friends for those 3-4 days after that you are golden
 
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Congrats @WornOutLife.
Recovery is a journey and life becomes more vivid.
At one point in our lives alcohol was fun and stress relieving and cool...those days have long past.
Our love affair with alcohol serves it better than us. It leaves us feeling anxious, empty, and embarrassed.
Be rid of it. Find a group near you. We are all the same and there is an amazing energy amongst a group of recovering folks.
Be well
 
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Just to make clear i sympathise with your posts a lot, i am an alcoholic also, and i dont think i will ever not be. If i had the money and an ok place to live by myself, i would never EVER stop drinking, it is the only thing in this world that has truly helped my depression (but ironically the thing that makes me suicidal the most!). I have been an alcoholic for close to 4 years now. This includes me going absolutely shitfaced to work, making a fool out of myself, hurting people, embarrassing myself, moving countries one day to the next, everything you can put in a list that an alcoholic might do. I've used it as a crutch for pretty much all my problems lol including going out with girls, or meeting new people and now realising that without it i am pretty much nothing. Hope you feel better man!
 
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This is great news! Congrats!
I honestly don't know if I would have ever been able to stop if it weren't for the horrible hangovers that lasted for days and especially the 'hangxiety' that was absolutely crippling. Of course, I already have anxiety, but it is far worse when drinking. Even if I did nothing wrong or embarrassing, it still felt like I did afterward. So when I actually did do something embarrassing (which was often), it was just way too much to handle. I made an absolute fool of myself far too many times. Whenever I started drinking heavily, things would get really dark for me and yeah, I'm definitely way more suicidal. I may be depressed now, but I much prefer how I feel currently than how I feel when I'm drinking. If I started drinking again, I wouldn't stand a chance. I know I'll never go back to that.
I wish you the best of luck! It isn't easy, but you can definitely do it!
 
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I drank every day but quit for 14 months (treatment, meetings, etc.) then went back to bingeing last summer which is highly problematic but I don't know how else to break up my depressive, lonely unemployed lockdown malaise. If I had some kind of life I reckon I'd be more up for quitting again.
 
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Good job! Your wallet and lack of hangovers will thank you. You should for sure try weed. It’s all the good aspects and none of the hangover.
 
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