- Aug 21, 2018
The method is partial suspension this will be my second ever attempt. I know how to set everything up and wondering if there are any drugs i can buy to help me get over survival instinct. The first time i tried i just couldn't let go when i started to feel myself passing out i was unsure i really wanted to die at the time but things are different now. I am certain about doing this and i need to do it within the next few weeks because i can't take it anymore. My life has been terrible social anxiety completely destroyed it and if someone laughs at me again because of my anxiety i might kill them. Then there is the fact i am 30 and a virgin never had any love i just can't take it too much pain. I have to end it guys before the end of the year at the latest i am determined to go back to what it was like before i was born it needs to happen guys. I am scared but the pain has to stop i know this will destroy my parents but their son needs to be out of pain no good suffering so much everyday. I'm at peace with leaving everything behind job needs to be done i don't have much more to say i feel awful about how my life has been and i have no regrets by the end of the year i have to be dead no backing out this time or fucking around on suicide forums i have to be brave and get myself out of pain.