- Feb 22, 2020
I have BPD. My FP just left me for the 2nd time and went NC after briefly getting back together. For a brief moment, I had her in my life again and things were going back to normal. Now, she despises me and want nothing to do with me. I failed her. I fucked up. And in e again, I wanna die. I'm tired of destroying the people I care about. I've been drinking and I took some pills, but it'd be nice to talk to someone before I wake up tomorrow or don't. At this point idk what to expect anymore. I miss her. I miss taking to her every day. I'm just tired.