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Final Escape

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Depends if u have opportunity to meet people. If u are able to meet people than u might meet someone but if your options are severely limited than it’s going to remain pretty lonely. I’ve decided this is one of my reasons I’m exiting. I’m unable to meet anyone and I’m too old on top of it.
 
LostLife

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Depends if u have opportunity to meet people. If u are able to meet people than u might meet someone but if your options are severely limited than it’s going to remain pretty lonely.
I have no idea what my opportunities are. I work and that’s about it. I go out if I can when I can and I click with almost no one. I can’t keep people wanting to talk to me. Convos always die. I feel so unfulfilled and unwanted. Loneliness is a painful ache
 
LostLife

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Idk i say lmao cus it’s pathetic
Can relate, will probably stay alone until I pass.
I just want one person in my life who will understand me :/
I’m sad af from the loneliness I feel like I give and am putting a happy face on FOR PEOPLE but for me it’s doing nothing. I need someone to see me. I’m sad and hurting
 
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I have no idea what my opportunities are. I work and that’s about it. I go out if I can when I can and I click with almost no one. I can’t keep people wanting to talk to me. Convos always die. I feel so unfulfilled and I’m wanted. Loneliness is a painful ache
I totally understand this. I’m great at conversation and often people really like me at first but I just can’t feel a deeper connection and truly form meaningful enduring relationships. They are disappointed that I seem to present so well but I’m a deeply dysfunctional broken person who cannot maintain the connection for long. Eventually the dark side of me shows up and sabotages things. I’m unable to love myself and I can barely take care of myself in reality and pretty soon they see it.
 
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I totally understand this. I’m great at conversation and often people really like me at first but I just can’t feel a deeper connection and truly form meaningful enduring relationships. They are disappointed that I seem to present so well but I’m a deeply dysfunctional broken person who cannot maintain the connection for long. Eventually the dark side of me shows up and sabotages things. I’m unable to love myself and I can barely take care of myself in reality and pretty soon they see it.
Yeah that’s about it. It’s pretty painful. I find myself alone with a knot in my throat and wanting more from life. I’ll make attempts by putting myself out there but it’s always the same. My own family doesn’t even want anything to do with me
 
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what counts as a "good" reason for suicide varies from person to person. there's no way to objectively know, since everybody has their own definition of "good". nobody else is able to tell you whether or not your reasons are valid, because they aren't you nor have they lived your exact life. sorry if this wasn't the feedback you were looking for.
 
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I've realised that i don't need people anymore. They either disappoint, hurt or can't connect with me. I've always called and texted more than the other person. Being a backup friend to 2 of my school mates that i considered good friends fucked up my trust and interest in friendships. Cared about my ex a lot and was blind to see that she didn't. Trusting is like exposing yourself in hopes of understanding that never comes. The risk is not worth it
 
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Why do u think the convos die? What happens when u are talking to someone? I often start with how’s it going? But I kind of size up the person a little first to see if they might even be interested in talking. Then I often bring up some current event that they likely know about or also dealing with. Current events are great convo starters. Especially ones that u would have to be under a rock not to hear anything about. I guess it depends on what age the person is. Also start very small talk feel it out first before u bring up anything heavy. Some people only like to keep it light but I tend to get heavy in my convos lol! So u gotta feel it out first. Ask them questions is another great thing to do. Basic ones that are not going to offend them. How old are u if u don’t mind me asking? If u are a young lady definitely I wouldn’t give up just yet.
idk I just want to know a person :( I haven’t been close to anyone for a very long time. It breaks my heart.
I’m constantly nice and I know it’s just me overcompensating because I’m hurting inside. But it’s real at the same time of that makes sense. I just want to someone to be fond of me and also someone who I also click with :( my whole personality feels like a sham. I’d love for just someone to see how hurt I am inside without me saying too much because I hate to burden anyone but its a fantasy... I know that’s extremely rare too...
 
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Why do u think the convos die? What happens when u are talking to someone? I often start with how’s it going? But I kind of size up the person a little first to see if they might even be interested in talking. Then I often bring up some current event that they likely know about or also dealing with. Current events are great convo starters. Especially ones that u would have to be under a rock not to hear anything about. I guess it depends on what age the person is. Also start very small talk feel it out first before u bring up anything heavy. Some people only like to keep it light but I tend to get heavy in my convos lol! So u gotta feel it out first. Ask them questions is another great thing to do. Basic ones that are not going to offend them. How old are u if u don’t mind me asking? If u are a young lady definitely I wouldn’t give up just yet.
Genuine interaction is about the heaviest stuff ain't it?
 
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idk I just want to know a person :( I haven’t been close to anyone for a very long time. It breaks my heart.
I’m constantly nice and I know it’s just me overcompensating because I’m hurting inside. But it’s real at the same time of that makes sense. I just want to someone to be fond of me and also someone who I also click with :( my whole personality feels like a sham. I’d love for just someone to see how hurt I am inside without me saying too much because I hate to burden anyone but its a fantasy... I know that’s extremely rare too...
And to answer your question as to why I think convos die is because the real me is someone who is not like able
what counts as a "good" reason for suicide varies from person to person. there's no way to objectively know, since everybody has their own definition of "good". nobody else is able to tell you whether or not your reasons are valid, because they aren't you nor have they lived your exact life. sorry if this wasn't the feedback you were looking for.
No this was perfect. Idk what I’m asking for, maybe an answer from someone who knows that after a certain age that shit won’t change. Idk. I’m desperate for hope yet tired of it
 
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You have to ease into it though. I always have to feel people out. I also look for signs they might be receptive to me first. I think I have a radar at this point to know who might like me and who won’t lol! I don’t mean just with opposite sex. I also strike up convos with women too.

Oh bullshit lol! I think u have the same issue I used to have. When I was very young like 16 to 18 I could not talk to anyone. I would choke up and could barely speak a word. But then I start working in a bar and I started to develop the skill to talk because I was forced to. It gradually got easier once I realized how bad most people were at convos. Many people are annoying and boring to talk to and suck at conversation. That’s when my confidence began to improve. Once I realised that’s not true. I’m a worthwhile person like everyone else and if they don’t like me fuck em. You have to not let people intimidate u even if they are very attractive.
Yeah of course get to know a person first. You have good intuition then, and seeing a lot of people at bars helped i bet. What i meant is if people don't want to hear and share serious heartfelt stuff it's not much of a talk and not worth it to communicate with such a person
 
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I'd say it's a pretty good one, but not enough (?)
 
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I just lost my g/f and I feel hopelessly lonely without her. She was my other half and knew about my problems. She was a tremendous help and she was my best friend. She blocked me from everything today. Ugh.
 
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I just lost my g/f and I feel hopelessly lonely without her. She was my other half and knew about my problems. She was a tremendous help and she was my best friend. She blocked me from everything today. Ugh.
What happened if you don't mind telling? Sounded like everything was good
 
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You have to ease into it though. I always have to feel people out. I also look for signs they might be receptive to me first. I think I have a radar at this point to know who might like me and who won’t lol! I don’t mean just with opposite sex. I also strike up convos with women too.

Most people have qualities that are attractive they just don’t see it. I think u have the same issue I used to have. When I was very young like 16 to 18 I could not talk to anyone. I would choke up and could barely speak a word. But then I start working in a bar and I started to develop the skill to talk because I was forced to. It gradually got easier once I realized how bad most people were at convos. Many people are annoying and boring to talk to and suck at conversation. That’s when my confidence began to improve. Once I realised that’s not true. I’m a worthwhile person like everyone else and if they don’t like me fuck em. You have to not let people intimidate u even if they are very attractive. The odds are u are probably smart and an introvert so u tend to be more worried about what u say before u say it. It’s harder for smart kids socially because u care what people think about u more. More self concious.
I used to be very confident talking to people until I became depressed. I had no anxious thoughts or anxiety. I don't even know what's wrong with me
 
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I just lost my g/f and I feel hopelessly lonely without her. She was my other half and knew about my problems. She was a tremendous help and she was my best friend. She blocked me from everything today. Ugh.
Sorry that’s so painful. :(
 
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i feel like i can only talk about my problems and negative feelings so much until it's too much so i stop myself. i haven't experienced a person in rl for a long time who wants to love me and take that away from me.
 
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What happened if you don't mind telling? Sounded like everything was good
She had to be in TX and I'm in another state so it was one of those long-distance relationships. She was messing around with another guy and I tried for months to be cool with it. She'd tell me stuff like "it's just practice for when we're together again" and "I don't even love him". We had an argument about it this morning and I guess that was the proverbial last straw. She disappeared from my life. I hate how easy it is for a person to just ghost someone these days.
Sorry that’s so painful. :(
Yeah I take pictures all day of random stuff and I used to send them all to her. I don't have anyone to send them to anymore, so OP, I get where you're coming from. If you think about it, we're all totally alone.
 
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She had to be in TX and I'm in another state so it was one of those long-distance relationships. She was messing around with another guy and I tried for months to be cool with it. She'd tell me stuff like "it's just practice for when we're together again" and "I don't even love him". We had an argument about it this morning and I guess that was the proverbial last straw. She disappeared from my life. I hate how easy it is for a person to just ghost someone these days.
Yeah I take pictures all day of random stuff and I used to send them all to her. I don't have anyone to send them to anymore, so OP, I get where you're coming from. If you think about it, we're all totally alone.
"I don't even love him" but i love you and that's why i cheat on you. She's not worth your time. Must be hard for you, i understand, but it's fucked up, cheating cannot be justified
 
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Is this a good enough reason to kill myself? Or should I not give up hope and keep pushing until I’m not? Lmao pls respond
I think so only if you're chronically lonely and have no friends
 
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Get on Twitter if u are lonely lol! Post a cute pic of yourself and u won’t be lonely for long haha! Find your people that like what u are interested in and at least u get some connection that way. Post about stuff u think about whatever.
 
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Get on Twitter if u are lonely lol! Post a cute pic of yourself and u won’t be lonely for long haha! Find your people that like what u are interested in and at least u get some connection that way. Post about stuff u think about whatever.
I don't think they like to talk about ctb methods, lol
 
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:( Same here, depression took my personality away from a young age, so I'm the type of person that gets avoided by people because they can just feel my negative energy :/ I don't want to be a downer, so I stay away from people, but it makes me lonely. Whenever I have to interact with someone, it's just so awkward and I cringe once it's over. I hate that this experience exists, but you aren't alone in this feeling
 
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Yeah loneliness can be a killer downer unfortunately.. the thing is a lot of shit can come out of having many people/friends that don't understand, have different viewpoints about the person you're meant to be/the choice and effort and, uh, path you want and put through in your life you take from that what you will, but being alone has it's perks, but it can be better to interact (sometimes). (Just speaking from experience:hug:)
You can
 
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