It's hang from the clouds, or hang from a rope.
- Feb 10, 2020
Literally destroying everything, and any attempt to make myself, or wife happy. I constantly think I'm failing everyone around me so I close up and everyone around me suffers including me. I attempted to walk out into traffic last night coming out of dinner. My wife grabbed me. It was just like a fuck it im done moment. I didn't care anymore. I tried soooo hard on the dinner, surprised her with Valentines day cupcakes prior. I just sat there watching her and she seemed not interested at all. Everything was quiet on the ride up. The dinner was literally the most fanciest place I've ever been. I thought her being able to get all dressed up would make her happy. The dinner was 34 floors up above downtown Nashville. I put a lot of work into planning but felt like it flopped. I sat their picturing myself just jumping out the window. I just don't know anymore. I completely fail at everything.