If I'm about to CTB and having second thoughts, what should I remind myself of?

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C_F

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I'm going the CO route and I will have time to lay there and think about what is happening to me. SO - tell me something I should keep in mind to help prevent me from exiting out the door. Could be a quote, a story, whatever sad truths about life...

Thanks for the motivation!
 
Rocksandsand

Rocksandsand

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Smoke a lot of weed? I’m not being a dick either - legitimate suggestion
 
littlelady856

littlelady856

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It’s that pesky survival instinct. What I try to think about is why I wanted to do it in the first place and how I got there.
I tell myself I’ll just keep suffering for years and it’s something I want to escape from
 
LifeOver

LifeOver

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Remind yourself of the serious brain damage and potential life as a vegetable that is waiting for you if you abort your attempt halfway. Not very fun is it? Stick through, find peace. :hug:
 
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Dead beat dad

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I'm going the CO route and I will have time to lay there and think about what is happening to me. SO - tell me something I should keep in mind to help prevent me from exiting out the door. Could be a quote, a story, whatever sad truths about life...

Thanks for the motivation!
Hi friend, I'm sorry to hear that you're in such a dark place for you to be considering what you're doing. The SI is a bitch and if I knew how to beat it I wouldn't be here.
Just be mindful of asking for encouragement to CTB, I know your request comes from a place that not many will understand, and some will think you're asking for persuasion.
If the SI is vexing you then maybe a bit more reflection on what you are considering and why might help you find what you seek.
Either way I hope you find peace friend and that what ever pain you are in can be eclipsed.
DBD
 
Phil122

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Think about how you family hates and abonded you same as your friends who you thought you could trust. And about how you are just a slave in this system full of shit. Then drink a whole bottle of vodka and boom you won't be leaving the room
 
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SinisterKid

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Hard for me to say and even harder for you to accept, but if you are having second thoughts, maybe you should not be trying to ctb in the first place? I stood, crushed well over 100 pills, mixed them, drank the lot and sat down with my music and waited. Never once did I have a second thought about what I was doing.

That is a very personal experience though. But I often read about SI and second thoughts and it was alien to me until I read about them here.

I am not judging you, just offering a different perspective is all.
 
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I'm going the CO route and I will have time to lay there and think about what is happening to me. SO - tell me something I should keep in mind to help prevent me from exiting out the door. Could be a quote, a story, whatever sad truths about life...

Thanks for the motivation!
You might not be ready if you think you have second thoughts and might exit the door.

While it some ways it doesn't help because it's like a dark cloud looming over you, in some ways it also helps to know that the option to CTB will always be there and doesn't have to be rushed. But I don't know your exact situation.
 
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thrw_a_way1221221

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If you have serious doubts about continuing to live, then I would say not to go through with the attempt. Just keep in mind if you change your mind mid-attempt, you may result in failure and possibly permanent damage (making your situation even worse), depending on the method. Also, since it is your decision, I cannot tell you to go through or not go through, but again, if you have doubts and aren't 100% sure, then I would not attempt yet. Only go through if you are 100% sure that things will continue to suck and only you can determine that along with your circumstances in life.
 
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Thank you all! To clarify, I should have said SI instead of second thoughts :)
 
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