I think I'm in a somewhat "okay" state and I'm going to postpone suicide for now.

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متيم
Apr 9, 2019
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UK
I haven't posted on this forum for such a long time and yet... it all leads back to here, always.

I'm not well known like most members so I doubt anyone will remember me. Initially, I was trying to stay away from this forum during the lockdown as I was focusing on other things like exercising which has helped me a bit. I returned back to work at the beginning of this month and it's been tolerable, much better than it was before the lockdown. At least, my new job is keeping me busy throughout the day and I'm thinking of suicide less. I'm postponing suicide for the next three years, just to see how things turn out whilst still holding onto the hope of my true love coming back to me. If things don't change or get better by August 2023, I will end it. At least I'm trying for a little while, I have very little hope left but I'm holding onto that... for now. Things were a little more tolerable during the lockdown since I wasn't working and I was pretty much relaxing at home and getting back to my normal routine but work is going okay. Of course, listening my music and daydreaming helps me a lot and doing exercise regularly gives me a much better feeling. Anyway, I just wanted to let all of this out. I hope everyone on here is doing okay.
 
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JoeFailure

Arcanist
Apr 29, 2019
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That really is good news.

CTB will always be there for you if you have to do it, there's no rush. A lot can happen in 3 years, maybe you'll be one of the lucky ones that makes it out of all this.
 
ManWithNoName

ManWithNoName

Enlightened
Feb 3, 2019
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I haven't posted on this forum for such a long time and yet... it all leads back to here, always.

I'm not well known like most members so I doubt anyone will remember me. Initially, I was trying to stay away from this forum during the lockdown as I was focusing on other things like exercising which has helped me a bit. I returned back to work at the beginning of this month and it's been tolerable, much better than it was before the lockdown. At least, my new job is keeping me busy throughout the day and I'm thinking of suicide less. I'm postponing suicide for the next three years, just to see how things turn out whilst still holding onto the hope of my true love coming back to me. If things don't change or get better by August 2023, I will end it. At least I'm trying for a little while, I have very little hope left but I'm holding onto that... for now. Things were a little more tolerable during the lockdown since I wasn't working and I was pretty much relaxing at home and getting back to my normal routine but work is going okay. Of course, listening my music and daydreaming helps me a lot and doing exercise regularly gives me a much better feeling. Anyway, I just wanted to let all of this out. I hope everyone on here is doing okay.
I'm very pleased to hear this.