I don't know if this has been asked but.

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Dakota

Dakota

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If you were to CTB would you leave a note? Why or why not?
 
WornOutLife

WornOutLife

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Yes, I would. Even videos for my family and friends. None crying at all, just explaining my reasons for killing myself and suggesting what I would like them to do with my things and how important it is for them not to be sad nor miss me because I just don't exist now or I've waken up because the simulation is over and I'll probably start a new life.

PS: I really do believe in the theory of the simulation
 
not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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I'm going to try. I don't want to say anything to personal. I don't know who will see it after I'm gone. (Cops)
I just want to tell people I care about that I'm sorry I couldn't do this anymore. :aw:
 
GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

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I'm not going to. No matter what I say or what I want, those I would leave a note for have pre-determined ideas about my motivations and actions, and they will make whatever arrangements they choose regardless of what I want. If I say what I want or recommend for their benefit, they'll be more likely to decide to override me, but if I don't tell them what I want, they'll be more likely to come to those conclusions on their own anyway, although for different reasons.

It really sucks to not tell them goodbye. I love them, and I'm troubled every day that they're going to hurt in spite of how things stand between us, but accepting things, and them, as they are is the sanest way to deal with it. We've been estranged for years and maintaining no contact even to the point of not leaving a note is best. They won't hear me anyway.
 
CatchTheBus

CatchTheBus

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I have my letter written. My fiancé told me not to leave a note if I did go through with it, but I did anyway. I know it’ll be hard for him to read, but maybe he’ll finally “hear” me in the end.
 
Dakota

Dakota

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I have my letter written. My fiancé told me not to leave a note if I did go through with it, but I did anyway. I know it’ll be hard for him to read, but maybe he’ll finally “hear” me in the end.
I'm here if you ever wanna talk about how you got here.
 
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the box is empty

the box is empty

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No, I won’t be leaving a note.

I have a history of disappearing for weeks or months completely cut off from everyone. Since the new year I’ve been planting the seed that I’m bored here and want to move out west.

Along the way I plan to destroy my ID and electronic devices so if/when I’m found I’ll just be another “John Doe.” I’ll be alone. No ceremony or tears.

“Whatever happened to...?”
 
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theguineapigking

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Yes, I would. Even videos for my family and friends. None crying at all, just explaining my reasons for killing myself and suggesting what I would like them to do with my things and how important it is for them not to be sad nor miss me because I just don't exist now or I've waken up because the simulation is over and I'll probably start a new life.

PS: I really do believe in the theory of the simulation
Are you talking about the matrix type simulation? Or are you referring to solipsism(not being able to prove anyone or anything exists outside of your own mind?) I fear both of these, especially solipsism.
 
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WornOutLife

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Are you talking about the matrix type simulation? Or are you referring to solipsism(not being able to prove anyone or anything exists outside of your own mind?) I fear both of these, especially solipsism.

I'm talking about some Matrix-like simulation. Yes, it is scary because we might just be some odd being controlling this body and world and have no idea what that unknown world has in store for us.
I know it sounds crazy but even Elon Musk believes in this haha
 
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TiredOfCoping

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maybe he’ll finally “hear” me in the end.
For me, that's why I'm not leaving a note. IRL nobody really hears me, so my thought is "why bother talking now if you've dismissed me my entire life." It still baffles me as to why people think their values, choices, and preferences should be my values, choices, and preferences.

Once when I tried my own idea of alternate therapy, I asked the person to yell at me and then hold me so that I can learn that when someone is mad at me or I do something wrong, it's not permanent. They said they felt uncomfortable yelling at me. I said "okay." And then my eyes opened up: "Wait--it's that easy to accept someone's boundary?! You didn't have to defend yourself or face question after question about why you think the way you do. JFC, why can't people accept my boundary?! I've literally been told that I'm "not allowed to say No."

So, it's not a surprise that I'm so quiet; talking does no good. And if I wrote a book about my life, it wouldn't be surprising that I finally gave up and left this world. I don't really understand people.
 
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CatchTheBus

CatchTheBus

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For me, that's why I'm not leaving a note. IRL nobody really hears me, so my thought is "why bother talking now if you've dismissed me my entire life." It still baffles me as to why people think their values, choices, and preferences should be my values, choices, and preferences.

Once when I tried my own idea of alternate therapy, I asked the person to yell at me and then hold me so that I can learn that when someone is mad at me or I do something wrong, it's not permanent. They said they felt uncomfortable yelling at me. I said "okay." And then my eyes opened up: "Wait--it's that easy to accept someone's boundary?! You didn't have to defend yourself or face question after question about why you think the way you do. JFC, why can't people accept my boundary?! I've literally been told that I'm "not allowed to say No."

So, it's not a surprise that I'm so quiet; talking does no good. And if I wrote a book about my life, it wouldn't be surprising that I finally gave up and left this world. I don't really understand people.
This absolutely broke my heart!! I’m so sorry you haven’t been heard in your life. I understand the frustration.
 
BPDbitch

BPDbitch

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I probably won’t. I’ve tried to write one before but they always sound stupid/whiny when I read them back :I
 
selfhater

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For me, that's why I'm not leaving a note. IRL nobody really hears me, so my thought is "why bother talking now if you've dismissed me my entire life." It still baffles me as to why people think their values, choices, and preferences should be my values, choices, and preferences.
same:(