[Discussion] I can't imagine what it's like to just... not be depressed

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Mar 18, 2018
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Are there even people out there who are content and genuinely happy? It's so hard to picture me even feeling that way consistently. It's like when I think of how huge the universe is and how humans were created - bit dramatic, but I simply can't fathom it, haha.
 

Hikingcat

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Mar 19, 2018
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I started an antidepressant recently and I started thinking ... what if it actually works? What would life be like? I can't actually even imagine what it would be like or who I would be as a person without depression. It was a little scary, actually.
 

123asdr123

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Mar 17, 2018
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I started an antidepressant recently and I started thinking ... what if it actually works? What would life be like? I can't actually even imagine what it would be like or who I would be as a person without depression. It was a little scary, actually.
hate to break it to you but youll be worse off in long run and short tun on anti-d or anti-p
 
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123asdr123

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Mar 17, 2018
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mindset is a lot i can tell you but there are also cases where you are screwed because your body is messed up. Maybe being ugly can be one. But i believe the people who really are suicidal for a good reason have been injured or something like that. Also some people are really stubborn and dont want to make changes in their life. Some forget how and I guess it can be too late.
 
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Vox

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Mar 28, 2018
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Are there even people out there who are content and genuinely happy?
I was once. It's funny looking back because like you said, now it's hard to imagine. From what I remember, it's the feeling of being safe. When the world is just a tiny bubble of your closest friends and nice strangers who smile.

Once you realize the world is NOT safe & happy, and strangers are more likely to shoot you than smile, and the universe is stacked against you in every conceivable way, well....... I don't need to explain that to anyone here.

But yeah I was happy once, and at the time I swore it was real. Life was awesome. But sort of like when you learn the secret behind a magic trick that once fooled you, you can never go back and feel the magic again.
 

ChizuruN

Failure at Living, Failure at Dying
Mar 20, 2018
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Are there even people out there who are content and genuinely happy?
100% of the time, no; nothing lasts forever.
But people generally content with their life? Yes.
Personally, I feel that to be content like that, one has to have a certain level of ignorance. But I suppose an optimistic view could counter lower levels of ignorance.
 
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weonaestupida

still wanting to die
May 13, 2019
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i always remembered feeling this way even when i was a child ,so i literally don’t have memories of me being fine?? or genuinely happy?? or wanting to live??
 
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Chalken

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Nov 20, 2018
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Maybe as a child, but that was more blissful ignorance than happiness. I don't think I'll ever be happy anymore.
 
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Rose

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Nov 11, 2018
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I've been the way I am (although gradually getting worse) ever since I can remember

Even when there is hope, I always have a sick feeling in my stomach about it, like it'll never work out for me.
At this point, my identity is so entirely built off of all of my issues that I'm not sure there would be anything left if all of that somehow went away, when I think of that I envision a scared kid, but even that kid deep down inside has always been suffering from all of this.

I can't imagine anyone that could be defined in any non-superficial way as "me" that's not miserable. Was anything even lost, or was I just lacking from the starting line?
 
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Please_stop

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Apr 8, 2019
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It's really a shame that there is no substance on Earth that enables you to just don't think about the things that haunt you with no bad side effects
 
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