I can see the bus approaching - SN

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gambardella

gambardella

De l'inconvénient d'être né
Dec 1, 2019
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"It seemed to me that I was partially unlearning what I had never learned and yet knew so well, and that is to live."

Although he had thought about it, Camus didn't catch the bus. But I will. I have thought about this for a long time and I am more than ready to depart.

This thread is to help document on the SN method, but it is also to thank this community for all the support it has brought to me during my hard times. I'm awful at conversations and I haven't talked to many of you, but from the short period I've been here I know how kind and beautiful everyone here is. I am all alone in this room and in this bed that are unfamiliar to me, and I truly wish I could hug you all and maybe even cry, a little bit. Thank you so, so much to all.

Now, for documentation, I did the 48H regimen. Fasted for 8 hours. I used metopimazine as an antiemetic. Will use sleeping pills (doxylamine) 30mins before the SN drink. I also took 1000mg paracetamol but no antacids. Will use 2 tablespoons of SN in as little water as possible. Just enough to mix everything. My weight is 47kg (in case that's useful data?...). I throw up very easily so I'm expecting for some vomiting to happen. I have 2 more glasses prepared.

SN drink is planned for 10PM (i.e, in 40 minutes). I really, really hope not to fail. Please pray for me, for this to work, in case there is an omniscient God watching me right now.

It was great being here. Sending you all my love all across the world <3
 
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Areean

Areean

NaNO2 Bishop
May 15, 2018
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for the little time i've known you it was nice, and I kinda relate to you so it gives me courage. Have a nice trip, and I wish you all the luck in the world for you to go without pain sweetie.
 
gambardella

gambardella

De l'inconvénient d'être né
Dec 1, 2019
44
146
Sending you a big hug back, such a sweet sad insightful goodbye.. You are not alone :heart:
(Say hi to Camus)
Thank you it really is comforting to know that. (I will, I have so many questions to ask him.)

I wish you the best, gambardella. And I'm so sorry you ended like this. Hope you find peace.
hope you will be at peace soon❤
Thank you :heart: I honestly can't wait, I can feel the adrenaline in my guts haha.

for the little time i've known you it was nice, and I kinda relate to you so it gives me courage. Have a nice trip, and I wish you all the luck in the world for you to go without pain sweetie.
Looking forward to have more conversations with you, if you do join me. I'm sure there will be great bars for us to hang out in !
 
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Circlingthedrain

Member
Jan 2, 2020
29
39
Drank the SN. Tastes like very salty water indeed. Slight stomach discomfort and throat hurts a bit. heart beating super fast!
Just do your best to take it easy, I cant possibly imagine the discomfort but try not too panic
 
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71214

71214

Member
Jan 7, 2020
12
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I just joined so.. rando but I hope everything goes peacefully and painlessly for you. ♡
 
SlackJim

SlackJim

Nothing lasts, but nothing is lost
Sep 30, 2019
226
495
Take care xx, all the best, :heart::heart:
 
Girobatol

Girobatol

Wise
Sep 9, 2019
269
375
Peace to you and hope everything goes as planned.
 
Lotus

Lotus

Veteran
Dec 17, 2019
122
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Oh, I can't believe I stumbled into this thread too late. I remember you. I remember you well, and although it's sad to see you leave I wish you a safe and peaceful journey forward. Lots of hugs, and thank you for saying goodbye. xx
 
Zoltiel

Zoltiel

We're asleep in life's waiting room
Jan 7, 2020
167
369
Godspeed. It sounds like you chose the right method for you
 
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Mloureiro

Veteran
Oct 7, 2019
128
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"It seemed to me that I was partially unlearning what I had never learned and yet knew so well, and that is to live."

Although he had thought about it, Camus didn't catch the bus. But I will. I have thought about this for a long time and I am more than ready to depart.

This thread is to help document on the SN method, but it is also to thank this community for all the support it has brought to me during my hard times. I'm awful at conversations and I haven't talked to many of you, but from the short period I've been here I know how kind and beautiful everyone here is. I am all alone in this room and in this bed that are unfamiliar to me, and I truly wish I could hug you all and maybe even cry, a little bit. Thank you so, so much to all.

Now, for documentation, I did the 48H regimen. Fasted for 8 hours. I used metopimazine as an antiemetic. Will use sleeping pills (doxylamine) 30mins before the SN drink. I also took 1000mg paracetamol but no antacids. Will use 2 tablespoons of SN in as little water as possible. Just enough to mix everything. My weight is 47kg (in case that's useful data?...). I throw up very easily so I'm expecting for some vomiting to happen. I have 2 more glasses prepared.

SN drink is planned for 10PM (i.e, in 40 minutes). I really, really hope not to fail. Please pray for me, for this to work, in case there is an omniscient God watching me right now.

It was great being here. Sending you all my love all across the world <3
Sending you peace and love, someone will be waiting for you on the other side. Some souls are to beautiful to stay here on earth and are really angels in disguise.
 
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voyager

voyager

Don't you dare go hollow...
Nov 25, 2019
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Peaceful journey to you, gambardella. Hope you come out well on the other side.
 
Time

Time

Looking to leave.
Nov 10, 2019
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I see that your name isn't crossed out so if you're still here, we're here for you. If not & everything went the way you wanted, I hope that you're @ peace. Safe travels, gambardella. :heart: :hug:
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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You know I love you and are here for you.
 
Skyview

Skyview

Going Home !
Dec 9, 2019
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Safe voyage Gambardella, find your happiness :heart: