something inside turned the lights out
- Jan 30, 2020
ive had the same pattern of bullshit since i was like 7. i feel fine, then i start getting horrible racing thoughts and general neuroticism, leads to depression, depression leads to suicidal thoughts and self harm, and typically when i get to my lowest point i start feeling fine again, convince myself im fine and dont need help, repeat forever. does anyone else have a similar experience? i wouldnt say its specifically a stress trigger either, it seems to happen after about 2 weeks of positive mood almost every time.