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Walilamdzi

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I just got accepted to the forum and found it down when I tried to login. I was frustrated and concerned that the valuable resources of the site might become unaccesible, and that I would have to continue 'going it alone' without a community to reference and share with.

Very glad to see things are functioning again. It also gave me a valuable lesson in saving and downloading information that may not be available later, and checking I have as much security as possible while browsing.

We have a hard enough time disguising our difficulties in life from people around us we cannot trust to understand. A community such as this is invaluable and incredibly brave. I hope it remains indefinitely.
 
goblinsinmyhead

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My situation is similar to that of many other members. I also came across that horrible petition about closing this incredible place, and it really scared me. It's almost 500 signatures and it makes me desperate. I am afraid of losing this place.

I believe that without SS I will be completely lost, and I will fall sharply. This place is the only one that welcomed me, it is the only place where I was able to express my feelings without being placed in the psychiatric ward or getting stuffed with medications that make me feel like crap. I met wonderful people here, and until a while ago I didn't believe it anymore. I didn't believe that there could be incredible people and that I could look at everything without fear. This forum is a courageous place, a place of support, affection and understanding. In summary: It is a rare place and must be preserved.

I think I can call SS my home. This is the only place that I am really heard. My panic attacks subsided after I found this place. It is the first time that I feel good about myself. All of this, thanks to Sanctioned Suicide.

Gratitude for all those who maintain this wonderful place :heart:
 
Cashewmilk

Cashewmilk

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That petition is not surprising to me. Everyone who signed has never had to deal with anything, they are robots plain and simple. Robot wage slaves and dirty breeders who reproduce like a fucking virus, with absolutely no intelligence or deep thoughts of their own. It's like the dark age where you'd get killed for saying the earth revolves around the sun. Robots following others, they don't give a damn about the dead girl in question, they're simply trying to do something to make the mother feel better. Who would even enforce the petition anyway? You can post anything on change.org it's pointless. We should make a petition to remove her petition!
 
omoidarui

omoidarui

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I saw that petition, it's about a mom who lose her daughter after she come to this website. She said is the website fault if her daughter ctb. But at no time does she question herself about her personal responsibility on the lost of her daughter.

So for parents : it's not the website or any other exterior factors fault, it's YOUR fault to not help your children when they needed it.
buh they said in an interview “I don’t think they [SS] can comprehend how much care and support we provided to Shawn [their daughter] through all of this”

we’re outsiders to them, we know nothing about the family dynamic to justifiably say it’s the parents’ fault here. if you blame a grieving person for their loss then it’s that kind of guilt you put someone through that can cause more depression and suffering, which we of all people should be mindful about, and on top of all that the member involved said they ctb mainly because of work so i don’t look into it any more than that.
 
Sampervivum

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buh they said in an interview “I don’t think they [SS] can comprehend how much care and support we provided to Shawn [their daughter] through all of this”

we’re outsiders to them, we know nothing about the family dynamic to justifiably say it’s the parents’ fault here. if you blame a grieving person for their loss then it’s that kind of guilt you put someone through that can cause more depression and suffering, which we of all people should be mindful about, and on top of all that the member involved said they ctb mainly because of work so i don’t look into it any more than that.
That why I said "I know it's not that simple", and it not cover all cases, I said it for the case I cited. And sure I'm aggressive against parents who blame other for there own responsibilities, but it's not always the case. Most on time these case happen for child or young teenagers, but for an adult or near adult it could be many others factors.
But, sure SS can't comprehend the hidden part of the story, but this mom can't just blame SS and said it's just a "cult members involved with pedophilia and possible trafficking" website. She take shortcut to define us with only the small and worst part of the website, so I use the same weapon against her. She have a background story that we ignore, but this website also help lot of us to not end alone with sever health consequences after a fail, or just for talking without society judgement, and she never mention that.

All is not dark, all is not light. We are all grey, but only the dark force can fight the dark force at an equal power.
 
Underscore

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Before my life collapsed through illness and abuse from the psychiatric profession, I never would have considered suicide and I would have been one of those that said it was unconscionable.
It took catastrophe to bring me here it's only by going through that, that I have learned to change my attitude.
Ignorance is common and to be brutally honest, I'd expect it in all but the most enlightened of people who haven't truly had their balls to the wall.
I feel as much sympathy for people who know no better as I do envy that they may not have been so tested, and disgust in villifying those that have.
I would lay down money on those that are so quick to judge being the first online looking for 'painless suicide methods' as soon as their life collapses.
If only they would take the time to see the heartfelt struggles that happen on here.
I swear half the problems in society could be solved if only we all tried to listen.
 
Walilamdzi

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I would prefer my account and posts to be available for my family to read so that they understand there is nothing they could have done and that the combination of my bad luck and some poor decision making lead to events that happened and that I blame the inadequacies of the psychiatric profession for my death. I was worried all of my postings would disappear leaving more of a mystery, although they already know I've been experiencing suicidal thoughts.
 
itsamadworld

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I felt concerned and annoyed. I went onto REDDIT. You cannot talk about anything there except for shallow stuff like movies and answering 'safe-space questions'. I noticed quickly that i could NOT express myself without comments being deleted for absolutely no good reason. Makes me dislike the system and dislike people even more. A bunch of authoritarian nanny's and controlling butlers hoover over those sites until one can ONLY talk about puppies, kittens, flowers, and rainbows. That's not at all helpful for people like me who have YEARS of unexpressed, bottled up feelings...... How controlling can some people get? Answer- VERY!
 
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omoidarui

omoidarui

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That why I said "I know it's not that simple", and it not cover all cases, I said it for the case I cited. And sure I'm aggressive against parents who blame other for there own responsibilities, but it's not always the case. Most on time these case happen for child or young teenagers, but for an adult or near adult it could be many others factors.
But, sure SS can't comprehend the hidden part of the story, but this mom can't just blame SS and said it's just a "cult members involved with pedophilia and possible trafficking" website. She take shortcut to define us with only the small and worst part of the website, so I use the same weapon against her. She have a background story that we ignore, but this website also help lot of us to not end alone with sever health consequences after a fail, or just for talking without society judgement, and she never mention that.

All is not dark, all is not light. We are all grey, but only the dark force can fight the dark force at an equal power.
Responding to scapegoating and presumptions by reciprocating them achieves nothing, if that’s what you mean. presuming things about them just gives them more incentive to damn our site, and it won’t result on self-reflection on their part - IF that’s what you mean. There’s been enough posts on the forums along those lines that if it hasn’t gotten through to them by now it never will I don’t think

The media seem to be following my posts because they’ve now been featured three times, whilst I’m glad to have stood up for this site against the parents, I also feel like I’ve let the site down by saying things that taken in isolation as they were make the site look bad even though this is mostly a caring community. So the fact they’re using my posts despite me saying I really feel for the family just proves they’ll use any and every negative comment to project us in a poor light, they’ll do the same with posts that blame the parents (yes I know that’s not fully what you mean but they’ll construe it like that), not only is it unlikely the parents are to blame but those posts just incentivise them - and the media - to pursue this site, whilst achieving little else.
 
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itsamadworld

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I was doing some digging looking for other forums and I came across a change.org petition to take us down and the comments are so I can’t think of the word but they’re annoyingly stupid and so idiotic of them to judge
I just read the article about the mother of the 25 yo F who cbt'd. Yes, that mother is on a war-path to see this place banned. It's funny how she cannot see that she may be the reason the daughter killed herself...(?).... I know my mother was the MAIN reason i became suicidal at 6 years old. SO, it's possible for this lady too.....if anything, a petition should be sent out to 'ban controlling mothers" from being controlling c-nt's. Maybe her daughter would be alive if her mother wasn't such a controlling person as her mother had 25 years to mess with her head. She was only on the site for maybe a year. SO what drove her here? maybe many reasons? Anyways, .....The mother is looking to pass blame, and I know the mother is controlling, cuz now, she is attempting to control everyone here...
 
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idontwannadothisanym

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I just read the article about the mother of the 25 yo F who cbt'd. Yes, that mother is on a war-path to see this place banned. It's funny how she cannot see that she may be the reason the daughter killed herself...(?).... I know my mother was the MAIN reason i became suicidal at 6 years old. SO, it's possible for this lady too.....if anything, a petition should be sent out to 'ban controlling mothers" from being controlling c-nt's. Maybe her daughter would be alive if her mother wasn't such a controlling person, as she's now attempting to control everyone here...
love it she’s a queen Karen xpxpxp
 
Sampervivum

Sampervivum

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Responding to scapegoating and presumptions by reciprocating them achieves nothing, if that’s what you mean. presuming things about them just gives them more incentive to damn our site, and it won’t result on self-reflection on their part - IF that’s what you mean. There’s been enough posts on the forums along those lines that if it hasn’t gotten through to them by now it never will I don’t think

The media seem to be following my posts because they’ve now been featured three times, whilst I’m glad to have stood up for this site against the parents, I also feel like I’ve let the site down by saying things that taken in isolation as they were make the site look bad even though this is mostly a caring community. So the fact they’re using my posts despite me saying I really feel for the family just proves they’ll use any and every negative comment to project us in a poor light, they’ll do the same with posts that blame the parents (yes I know that’s not fully what you mean but they’ll construe it like that), not only is it unlikely the parents are to blame but those posts just incentivise them - and the media - to pursue this site, whilst achieving little else.
I understand what you mean. I'm not good to be understandable without people seeing bad attention that wasn't my original purpose, so I should take care to not help them to doom them into sophism by simply ignoring the concept of the messages.
But like now you're right, I have no idea how provoke them a self-reflection without taking the risk to push them into the "they are against us, they are the devil !" logic.

For the media, it's a normal thing, regardless the topic they always take only the part that make audience, ignoring all other arguments that could invalidate the paper. They only use the info that help them to provoke fear, hate and indignation, which are better marketing support instead of comprehension and truth seeking.
 
Eternal Pessimist

Eternal Pessimist

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Oct 16, 2019
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I didn't mind the down time initially, but I was scared that the site might be gone for good since the changing servers message stayed up for quite a while. I don't post here that often, but I read the site almost daily. It is a relief to know that there is a place like this on the web and I don't think many outsiders understand how important it is to be able to know that you're not alone with your feelings. Especially when those feelings involve something as taboo as suicide. In an ideal world there would be no need for a site like this because everyone would be so happy they would never even consider CTB, but since we are far from an ideal world I am really grateful that a place like this exists. Thank you to everyone who keeps this site going.
 
Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

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I feel like I handled it pretty well at first. I came to look for new threads, but saw that the site was changing servers, but when it said it would take 6 more hours, I thought okay, I'll just try again later. Then a whole day went by and it said it again... 6 more hours. I was starting to worry because it sucked not having this place available, but I assumed that maybe it was a hardware or possibly software related issue, so I tried to be patient and thought it would be okay.

By the second day in a row (I think this was Thursday - I'm not totally certain), the site was still down and I began to think that the forced lifers found some way to shut it down and then I wanted to do this:

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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

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Mar 7, 2020
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Yep. I cried, had a panic attack and my anxiety went berserk. I didn't know what to do.

This website is important to so many people, the thought of it being taken away from us is terrifying. It's the only place where we can talk about our problems without being judged and research methods.


Is that the reason? Are you kidding me? What the hell do they want from us? I'm furious.


This. So much this. An alternative meeting place would be ideal. After they closed SS on Reddit, I was devastated. If it happens here too, I really don't know what we could do.
Frigging busy bodies. Can’t they leave SS alone! This is our home!!
 
Throwawaysoul

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Paranoid me wishes they pgp sign those moving messages.
 
K-O

K-O

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ss is my first and only social media..
if i hadnt have mates o here that reached out to me when it went down i probably would have relapsed.
im in such a fragile state atm and abandonment triggers are f dangerous.. tbh it pushed me further into regression and i havent been good at all..
getting rejected from rehab and then ss disappearing wasnt a good combo..
it cracked something inside me and the darkness has been flowing in..
 
BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
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ss is my first and only social media..
if i hadnt have mates o here that reached out to me when it went down i probably would have relapsed.
im in such a fragile state atm and abandonment triggers are f dangerous.. tbh it pushed me further into regression and i havent been good at all..
getting rejected from rehab and then ss disappearing wasnt a good combo..
it cracked something inside me and the darkness has been flowing in..
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