How are your birthdays usually?

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Distopic

Distopic

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Jul 27, 2020
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I never do nothing special on my birthday but is not a problem for me. I usually order a pizza and that's my celebration. I never do anything with my friends because I hate organizing things, It stresses me. For me being alive one more year is not a reason to be specially happy or proud.
 
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nnnerve

nnnerve

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There aren't a lot of people left in my life so that sort of narrows options as far as birthday stuff. I might do something nice and quiet during the day or go out to eat with my boyfriend. Sometimes I'll order something for myself as a gift for making it another year.

They're pretty dark days, especially the last few. It's such a bummer scrapping for any kind of accomplishment or milestone that may have occurred during the previous year. We had a lot going on during my last birthday so it got sort of swept under the rug and I really enjoyed it. It was nice not having to pretend I was super jazzed about limping my way through another year for the sake of other people's emotions.
 
Skathon

Skathon

"...scarred underneath, and I'm falling..."
Oct 29, 2018
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Suicidal. I usually reopen my scars, wash off the blood, then fall asleep.

UPD.: ...I do not appreciate the "hug" reactions.
 
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so tired or manic

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birthdays for me were always stressful. being a twin took away the meaning of the day and having it around mother's day meant it's always been shared with 2 other people.

any celebrations were never more then going out to eat. it shocked me to learn that some people go out to eat on a regular basis. it took a long time to not associate restaurants as a place to 'buy love'. even places like McDonald's or Wendy's.

now I do my best to make it another day because the expectations I want could only be met if I time traveled.
 
Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

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Jul 1, 2020
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I thought itd be a grand idea to make one of the biggest mistakes of my life on my 15th, so I get to "have a good time" for family and friends while trying to push a gut wrenching memory to the back of my mind.
 
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Grav

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I'm in a bad funk on b-days. Just proof that I've stuck around another year for no good reason other than not getting off the wheel. It's more miserable because in-laws are very huggy and all that. So normally I just want to be left alone.
 
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thrw_a_way1221221

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On some years, I celebrate them, especially when I was younger. However, ever since I been to college, it's just been another day for me. Some years, I do take the time to celebrate them, either by buying something for myself (because I don't have many friends) and/or treating myself to dining out or what not.
 
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Abgrundanziehung

Abgrundanziehung

or Abi for short
Jun 24, 2020
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It used to be an intensely painful reminder of the fact I was brought into the world by two people who didn't have what it takes to be good parents, to put it kindly. Just hearing someone say happy birthday is so difficult because it is not a happy day for me. A couple years ago though, I found out that my birthday falls on Krampusnacht (Krampus Night) in some countries. I love the folklore around krampus and the wonderfully dark alternative to the commercialized American version of Christmas. Now I just sort of celebrate that instead, and I genuinely enjoy the day somewhat now. They actually have celebrations with parades of people dressed as krampus a few hours drive away from me, and if I make it that long, I want to go to one for my birthday this year.
 
Eren

Eren

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Oct 27, 2018
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I honestly have no IRL friends, at least no real friends. I have mixed feelings against the only person I can meet in person, they are not in vain.

The point is that my birthday is just a normal day, nothing changes. Although it really bothers me to be years old, since as I get older it is more visible that my life is not worth it, it just doesn't make sense.
 
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weird_wannabe

weird_wannabe

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I prefer to do nothing, but people who know it's my birthday get really clingy and tell me to smile more and go out more and such, it just feels off because suddenly everyone's jumping around me and tries to make me feel special? And receiving presents is honestly embarrassing (I don't want to be a bother and I don't deserve them anyway). It makes me feel really guilty for being so annoyed at people, they either just want to be nice or want me to feel special, and there's nothing bad about it
That's just something I've disliked since 12, realized I don't like being the center of attention. So I don't mention my birthday to people who don't remember it or don't even know the day
Also turning a year older makes me feel a lot more depressed, the voice "I'm now X years old and I'm still a failure "gets really hard to ignore, my youth years are fleeting away and I wasted so much time on nothing. Literally nothing
 
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