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How are you financially?

Shades of Grey

Shades of Grey

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I make a decent enough living, but am in an extremely high-stress professional field to which I am ill suited. I am in my late 30s, have no other marketable skills, and squandered my youth and ability to start a family (which was really all I cared about) for this shitty career. I'm effectively trapped. All I do is work. I take beta blockers to blunt the physiologic effects of drowning in adrenaline 24/7. I still feel like I'm on the verge of a panic attack half the time.

It will be the final nail in my coffin.
 
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death137

death137

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I don’t have debt but I also don’t have saving. I don’t have my own car, house. I never had a job. I’m in my 20s but I don’t even have a degree. I used to have a little saving in the past but I gave some to ppl and the rest spent it.

But finance is my least worry. I live with my family so no problem in terms of food and shelter. My mother and brother sometimes give me some pocket money. From normal people perspective this is a big worry but I’m not normal and I will die soon so no worry on this.
 
kcn2020

kcn2020

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I am broke at the moment since I lost my job due to covid-19. I was having a decently paid job (around $50'000 per year) but I have debts so it's not that easy. I don't own a car nor an house. I have some money invested in stocks (around $12'000) but it cannot be used right now.

Money, and more generally money management, is a big contribution to my depressed state.
 
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ScaredToLive

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Totally fucked, I care for my mum who has dementia. 60 pounds a week lol.
 
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noname223

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My biggest fear is poverty. I am severly depressed. I think i could live with it for some decades but my biggest problem is this illness combined with poverty.
 
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Gamja

“would you be happy?”
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I’m blessed to be doing okay financially. I should be grateful... i’m not rich, but i live in a rich country and have enough food to eat, a nice house with a garden and all that. I’d give everything back that my family provided for me if I could. I’m pretty useless with my illness.
 
Sarahlynn

Sarahlynn

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So far, pretty good. Not rich rich, but I own my own apartment (have a mortgage of about half the value), a car, some savings, and can travel a few times each year.

Still doesen't stop my life from being shit though.

My mental health is detoriating and I was just informed that I am not considered sick enough for 100% disability. When I lose my job I will not make enough money to keep my car and apartment. Planning on CTBing before that happens, that way my siblings, who are worse of than me, can share what is earned from selling my stuff. I hope that can help them deal with the loss as it will make their situations a lot easier, even though it is not huge amounts.
 
TheSoundofTime

TheSoundofTime

In time you will find peace...
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I’m ok. I have been saving most of my life to buy something private property back in my country but now I’m back and forth - what’s the point of it anyway. I want to ctb whether I have something or not, having property would make it easier though
 
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dieornottodie

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considering CTB due to financial stress. yes u r right. if i had money i wld cbt as plan b if something goes wrong
 
cryptic__egg

cryptic__egg

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I'm 18 living with parents so finances aren't a huge issue for me currently.
 
softfuzzyman

softfuzzyman

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In absolute shambles, not that it's ever been good to begin with. But even if I had money I'd still wanna ctb so it doesn't matter.
 
idontevenknowanymore

idontevenknowanymore

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I'm not able to work at the moment due to my anxiety. I get some money from my parents, not enough to care for myself tho (which I wouldn't expect of them). It sucks because all my psychiatrist and therapists told me it'd be the best for me to move out. Easier said than done tho, I'm under 25 so where I live my parents are responsible for my financial situation (bc I don't work) and they can't pay for a whole apartment and give me money to pay for groceries and stuff. I tried getting money from the state but apparently my parents earn too much money for that.
Makes sense, right? Still mad about all this bs. But my financial situation isn't the reason I wanna ctb.
 
AnniesHideaway

AnniesHideaway

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I was broke most of my life, but I am now in my 50's and my last job went public and I hit the 8 figures lottery. It's nice not to stress much over finances, but the main thing it changed was I could buy a nicer nitrogen tank, along with a spare.
 
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Final Escape

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I'm a well payed engineer, so no problems at this level.
Money don't make the life beautiful, you can have money, cars, apartment, good situation but feel lonely every times and having crappy memories moments that break your mind.
I think u just need love or sex or both lol!
I was broke most of my life, but I am now in my 50's and my last job went public and I hit the 8 figures lottery. It's nice not to stress much over finances, but the main thing it changed was I could buy a nicer nitrogen tank, along with a spare.
Omg why do u want to die? Isn’t there stuff u can do to have fun when you’re rich?
 
gus.nixon

gus.nixon

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I've been spending money as if I'm suicidal and I don't have long to live. It kind of sounds funny but it's true. I just spent almost $50 on two pairs of socks.
 
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Final Escape

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I've been spending money as if I'm suicidal and I don't have long to live. It kind of sounds funny but it's true. I just spent almost $50 on two pairs of socks.
Nice lol! The economy gonna be destroyed anyway might as well splurge.
Decent apartment with a roommate, own my car, stable job, school loan debt but good credit, 28 years old.
Why are u here? Lol! 28 is a good age. Better have some fun we don’t know how long we have.
 
gus.nixon

gus.nixon

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I was talking to a friend about this the other day. Even if I got extra lucky and won 50 million dollars, I might have some fun for a while, but I'd still be miserable as I am now.
That's U.S. dollars, baby
 
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torimandy

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Living on disability. I am trans, so I will always be alone as men who covet me misunderstand what it's like to be trans. They covet a body part instead of a person. I want facial and body confirming surgery, but I get blocked by insurance and will never make the money to complete the surgeries myself. So yes, finances are the issue.
 
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Raven Moon

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Broke and hopeless. I get it people say money doesn't solve all problems but money would solve my current problems enough for me to lead a tolerable life then I'll finally ctb when 2 people in my life (who are much older than me) are gone. So aside from extreme abuse, trauma and a shitty cruel life having no money is why I'll ctb sooner....

The amount of fortunate people on here who have houses and stability yet they want to die makes me sad...YES money would 100% help my mental state because I could get treatments and buy a house and LIVE for my mom and partner instead of being broke and no access to help and homeless... .
 
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