Good bye, good night

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FracturedSeraphim

FracturedSeraphim

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As you can probably tell from the title... It's time. Not exactly ideal. Didn't end up getting a hotel room, but all my roommates are gone until Monday, my daughter is with my mom "for a few days, so I can rest", and I have everything I need. Plus this is the first chance I have where nobody will be trying to check on me for days. I'm so tired of living in pain. Yes I look fine. Yes I can walk. But I have fibromyalgia. I am high functioning autistic. I have anxiety and PTSD. Insomnia. The list goes on. As I type this up my leg keeps twitching and I'm not quite sure if it's about to cramp up or if it is just something due to the list of things wrong with me. I read stuff from so many amazing people here and love you all already in my very short time here. From Jean with her kind and empathetic responses to everyone and TimeToBiteTheDust with his(or her not quite sure) quirky snippets and quite useful information. Everyone really has been very kind. I'm waiting till midnight when the last of my roommates leaves. It's 9:30 now. I'm anxious yet excited at the same time.
 
FracturedSeraphim

FracturedSeraphim

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What method are you going to use?
Either way, I wish you peace.
SN (using close to Stan's method with the 8+ hour fast instead of the longer one seeing as how last time I ate was nearly 9 am...) and when I get tired I will hang. One of them will kill me. And as a further precaution set a helium tank in a corner of my room full blast. If the rope breaks (highly unlikely as I did get a climbing rope) and the SN hasn't finished me yet and I happen to try to breathe I'd be breathing it in and that will keep me out.
 
FracturedSeraphim

FracturedSeraphim

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I'm so sorry you have had to experince such anguish in this life------ such suffering that you must bid even your daughter goodbye. I imagine this must have been had for and it is my highest hope that you finally find the relief you seek. Good night forever dear friend.
My sister can't have kids so since she will go to my sister I at least am assured that she will be loved and well looked after.
 
enlightened_suicide

enlightened_suicide

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SN (using close to Stan's method with the 8+ hour fast instead of the longer one seeing as how last time I ate was nearly 9 am...) and when I get tired I will hang. One of them will kill me. And as a further precaution set a helium tank in a corner of my room full blast. If the rope breaks (highly unlikely as I did get a climbing rope) and the SN hasn't finished me yet and I happen to try to breathe I'd be breathing it in and that will keep me out.
I am so terribly sorry that you have gotten to this point :(
But it seems you have this well thought out and will be at peace soon.
If you decide to make this step, I wish you safe travels on your Journey,
and I am Sending love and positive energies as always! <3
 
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SN (using close to Stan's method with the 8+ hour fast instead of the longer one seeing as how last time I ate was nearly 9 am...) and when I get tired I will hang. One of them will kill me. And as a further precaution set a helium tank in a corner of my room full blast. If the rope breaks (highly unlikely as I did get a climbing rope) and the SN hasn't finished me yet and I happen to try to breathe I'd be breathing it in and that will keep me out.
I don’t need to know you to know that I LOVE YOU...
 
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Time

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As you can probably tell from the title... It's time. Not exactly ideal. Didn't end up getting a hotel room, but all my roommates are gone until Monday, my daughter is with my mom "for a few days, so I can rest", and I have everything I need. Plus this is the first chance I have where nobody will be trying to check on me for days. I'm so tired of living in pain. Yes I look fine. Yes I can walk. But I have fibromyalgia. I am high functioning autistic. I have anxiety and PTSD. Insomnia. The list goes on. As I type this up my leg keeps twitching and I'm not quite sure if it's about to cramp up or if it is just something due to the list of things wrong with me. I read stuff from so many amazing people here and love you all already in my very short time here. From Jean with her kind and empathetic responses to everyone and TimeToBiteTheDust with his(or her not quite sure) quirky snippets and quite useful information. Everyone really has been very kind. I'm waiting till midnight when the last of my roommates leaves. It's 9:30 now. I'm anxious yet excited at the same time.
Hey, FracturedSeraphim. Sorry to hear about your situation. If you go through with it tonight, I hope that you get what you want & find peace. Should you decide that tonight's not the night, we'll be here for you. Either way, I support your decision. :heart: :hug:
 
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issyishere

issyishere

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I’m sorry life dealt you these cards, chronic pain is hell, I hope i’ll meet you on the other side :heart:
 
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shadowchaser

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I'm sorry for all the pain you've gone through that you feel the need to do this. Please remember that there's no rush to do anything at this moment if you're not ready. If you decide to go through, I wish you an easy journey and the peace you deserve :heart: